Lu Qingyu woke up.

When his hazy eyes opened, he was surprised when he saw Ruan Soft sleeping next to his pillow, and wanted to get up and touch her head, brushing the hair blocking her cheek, only to find that his hand was so tightly held by her?

His movements made Ruan Ruan open his eyes, yawned, rubbed his eyes, stretched his waist, and then asked in a panic, "Are you awake?" How are you? ”

Lu Qingyu didn't respond, didn't say a word, just squinted his eyes slightly and chuckled at her.

"What are you laughing at? Do you know that you're about to worry me to death, how about it, you haven't eaten for a day or two, are you hungry? I'll give you some takeout. Ruan Ruan looked at him like this, and was anxious to jump off the wall.

She didn't understand, why at this time, he could still laugh, didn't he really take his body seriously?

As soon as she took out her mobile phone and was about to order takeout, she was held by his hand with the needle, saw his Adam's apple roll up and down slightly, and heard his hoarse voice say, "I'm fine." It's good to see you. I knew you were going to come and see me. ”

As soon as the words fell, Ruan Ruan stiffened on the spot, looked at him in disbelief, and asked reluctantly, "Are you ...... Getting yourself covered in wounds, making yourself look like this is ...... To see me? ”

Lu Qingyu lowered his eyes and didn't say a word, which was a tacit acquiescence.

"Is it fun?" Ruan Ruan asked.

Lu Qingyu didn't understand what she meant, but still replied: "It's not fun." So, you're going to stop me. ”

"You don't want to die?" Ruan Ruan pushed him, "You really don't take your body seriously, do you?" ”

Lu Qingyu let out a muffled snort when he was pushed painfully, Ruan Ruan saw that his face was a little ugly, and he was frightened all of a sudden.

She wondered if she had just pushed too hard and asked, "What's wrong?" Did I just hurt you? ”

"Ruan Ruan." Suddenly, he called her name and took her hand.

Ruan was stunned for a few seconds, then took his mobile phone and began to call and order takeout, "No, you have to eat immediately!" ”

She knew how the injury on Lu Qingyu's hand came about.

In the past two days, when she was not by his side, he was tied up by Xiang Qingwan and starved alone for two days and two nights.

Just now, because of an argument with Xiang Qingwan, he actually pricked his blood vessels with an infusion needle, and the blood was everywhere, and if there was a knife, he might have to stab his body.

This is a clear tendency to self-injure depression.

She ordered a meat, a vegetarian and a soup, all of which were very good home-cooked dishes.

Lu Qingyu looked at the meal she had made and was not impressed.

“……”

He really doesn't feel hungry now, as if he has been hungry for two days, it was really uncomfortable at first, he couldn't stand it, and in the end, he felt nothing.

Ruan Ruan handed him the chopsticks and said, "Eat them all." ”

"I really don't have an appetite. Can't eat. Lu Qingyu said lightly.

Ruan Soft: "Even if you don't have an appetite, you have to eat a little, how can people who haven't eaten for two days have no appetite?" ”

Lu Qingyu narrowed his eyes, looked at her and asked, "Ruan Ruan, as for the question just now, I want to answer it again." ”

"What?" Ruan Ruan was shocked.

Lu Qingyu: "Without you by my side, my world would be dark." I just kept torturing myself and hurting myself, and I thought, if you really love me, you will definitely come to see me. Sure enough, you really came. ”

As long as Ruan Ruan is by his side, he is not afraid of anything.

It doesn't matter if she gets hurt all over her body, as long as she's around.

"Are you stupid?"

"Without you, I want to die."

Ruan Ruan really didn't know what to say, so she persuaded him for a long time before feeding him bite by bite, and when she saw him swallowing it into her stomach little by little, she also smiled happily in her heart.

Xiang Qingwan, who was standing outside the door, looked at this scene, her heart was very tight, and she suddenly felt that maybe Shen Xinzhou was right.

Only when the old illness recurs, Ruan Ruan is by his side, and his illness will be cured.

If she could really cure her son, then nothing would have to be said.

She continued to stand outside the door and watch, and suddenly saw Lu Qingyu's gaze thrown here, her pupils shrank twice, and she left.

Ruan Soft was stunned for a moment, looked at his gaze, didn't see anything, and asked him with a puzzled expression: "What's wrong?" Is there something out there? ”

Lu Qingyu came to his senses, smiled, shook his head and didn't speak, and continued to eat the food she fed.

After a while, after the meal was eaten, Ruan Ruan was about to get up and throw away the rice bowl, but he grabbed it suddenly.

He didn't say a word, just increased his breathing, looked at her with a dull face, and didn't let her go.

Ruan Ruan laughed, took his hand, and said, "I'm just going to take out the trash, I'll be here later." ”

Lu Qingyu said: "There will be a cleaning aunt to clean it up later." ”

"It's just garbage, don't bother her." Ruan Ruan said.

Lu Qingyu: "It's okay. It's a big deal, give her some money. ”

"Qing Yu ......" Ruan Ruan saw that something was wrong in his eyes, put the dishes and chopsticks aside, touched his hand, and said, "Are you afraid that I will leave?" ”

Lu Qingyu didn't say a word, didn't admit or deny it, just didn't look over his head and glanced at the scenery outside the window.

Ruan Ruan also glanced at the scenery, laughed lightly, and said, "I won't leave." ”

"I don't know why, now, as soon as I feel that you are not around, I feel uncomfortable, and if I don't see you for a moment, I want to go crazy, I can't stand it, I want to die." Lu Qingyu said.

That feeling, life is better than death, you can't survive, you can't die.

I don't know if I shouldn't die, I was hungry for two days, I had a stomach ulcer, and I had a high fever, but I didn't die.

Fate.

Ruan Ruan didn't speak, her heart was like being stabbed by a needle, it hurt very much, she would rather that the person who was hurt was herself, not him.

Later, Ruan Ruan really didn't leave, and the moment he left him, he would go crazy and even harm himself in various ways.

Ruan Ruan was so distressed that he even had to persuade him to take a bath for a long time before he was willing to commit it obediently, just like a child.

After taking a bath, when she came out, she saw Lu Qingyu staring out the window with empty eyes, thinking about something.

Ruan Ruan didn't feel anything at first, but remembered that he had been staring out the window all the time in the past few days, thinking that it would be possible to jump out of the window if he continued like this.

As soon as she thought of this, she didn't have time to wipe her hair, so she ran directly to the window in pieces, closed the window very tightly, and pulled the curtains together.

Lu Qingyu: "......"

After closing the curtains, she stood up straight, her hands behind her back, and slowly approached him.

Ruan Ruan pointed to his nose and said, "I warn you, you are not allowed to commit suicide or self-harm!" Do you hear that? ”

"Ruan Ruan, I want to apologize to you." Lu Qingyu looked at her affectionately.

Ruan Ruan was stunned: "What? ”

Lu Qingyu said: "Last time, I locked you up, and now, I finally know what it's like to be locked up in a narrow room, tied all over, two days and two nights, tormented, hungry to death, thirsty to death." ”

Ruan Ruan was silent, listening to him quietly, and his heart ached again.

Is this how he came over these two days?

It was hard for her to imagine what it was like for Lu Qingyu, who usually had such a prominent identity and great authority to control the entire group, to be locked in his room by his mother and not enter for two days and two nights.

The last time she went on a hunger strike, she secretly drank water, and he ...... There is nothing, and it is still tied, and it is not easy to survive.

Lu Qingyu continued: "When I was a child, I always wondered why, I was different from others. Why do other children have mothers and mothers, but I have such an experience. ”

Ruan Ruan swallowed her saliva, her life experience was something she had always wanted to ask, although she knew about his sister, but there were many more, all of which could not be explored.

I wanted to ask Shen Xinzhou many times, but I was politely refused.

What to say, he is like this, as long as you don't ask, he will never say it, if he wants to say it, he will never hold it in his heart.

But now when she said it, she was at a loss.

Lu Qingyu said: "I have lacked love since I was a child, don't look at how good my parents are to me now, in fact, they are just forcing me to run the company and use it for them......"

He was silent for a while, then looked at her again and said, "My cousin is back." ”

"Who?" Ruan Ruan asked in surprise.

She knew that Lu Qingyu had an older sister and a younger sister who died before she was born, and she had never heard that Lu Qingyu had any cousin.

Lu Qingyu said: "My cousin, Lu Yongheng. ”

"So you're going to give him the position of president?" Ruan Ruan asked.

Lu Qingyu was stunned for a second and said: "When he was a child, he was very possessive, as long as he watched it, he would do everything he could to get it." Arrogant and conceited, willful, and never restrained. ”

He is talking about Lu Yongheng, his cousin, who returned to China this time for only one purpose, that is, to replace him as the president of the group and be in charge of everything.

And his parents seemed to have agreed to this, and asked him to stay at home to heal.

After listening to Lu Qingyu confess everything when she was a child, she looked at him stupidly, until she realized that what he had done before was for him.

Ruan Ruan sat beside him, her face pressed against his chest, listening to his unhappy and slow heartbeat, fluttering and pounding, rubbing it in like a kitten.

Ruan Ruan: "No matter what your identity is, no matter what you become, I will always be by my side." ”

"That's really hard for you." Lu Qingyu smiled, feeling very comfortable.

He is not, no matter when, whether she is an Xianyu anchor or a first-line star, in the future, sooner or later, she will be his Lu Qingyu's woman.

No one can snatch it away, no one can stop it, and no one can hurt it.

He just begged him to live a little longer, and if there were fewer accidents, he could accompany Ruan Soft for a while.