"That's where I got the Poor Strange on my back."

The senior brother raised his cup and took a big sip of beer, then burped at me, reached out to grab the meat skewers on the table, and said to me while eating: "I will know how to use Bai Zexin, and what side effects Bai Zexin will bring to people." ”

After listening to my brother's words, I fell into silence, no wonder my brother knows Bai Zexin so well, even the person who was resurrected by Bai Zexin would forget the cause of death, it turned out that the senior brother also used Bai Zexin to save the woman he loved deeply.

Looking at the senior brother who was desperately eating meat skewers, I hesitated for a moment and asked him, "Then, have you ever regretted it?" ”

"Regrets?" My brother looked up at me, then grabbed the bottle on the table and poured himself a drink.

I thought my brother wouldn't answer my question, so I was bored, and I lowered my head to get the beer on the ground, and prepared to drink two glasses myself.

When I was pouring the wine, I heard the faint voice of my senior brother: "Why don't you regret it?" But what I regret is not saving her, what I regret is why I quarreled with her. ”

Hearing my brother say this, I hurriedly put down the beer in my hand and asked him, "Then have you thought about seeing her again?" ”

"See her?" The senior brother smiled bitterly at me, fell silent again, and just raised his glass to drink with me.

After a bottle of beer, the senior brother grabbed the cigarette case on the table, lit one, took a deep breath, and then slowly spit the smoke out of his mouth, looking like an old smoker who has been smoking for decades.

"I know what you're trying to ask." After the senior brother spit out the smoke in his mouth, he turned his head to look at me: "Do you still have a glimmer of hope, maybe you can reunite with her?" ”

"Me."

I had nothing to say in the face of my brother's questioning, I knew what I was thinking, maybe I was still too naïve, hoping that the whole world would turn as I imagined.

"I advise you not to see her again."

Senior Brother looked at me with a speechless look and raised his sword eyebrows.

"Why?" I frowned and asked my senior brother, "Can't you even look at it?" ”

"Of course it's okay to take a look, I said don't see her again, I mean that you'd better not disturb her life in the future."

The senior brother flicked his fingers flexibly and flicked the cigarette butt out of his hand: "You and I are both fierce people with four pillars on their backs, and if you break into her world again, then it is very likely that you will kill her." ”

Speaking of this, the senior brother grabbed his hair: "This time you have Bai Zexin to save her, so what about next time?" What will you trade for her life next time? Also, the reason why she forgets you is because of karma, you met her in the night market because of the reason, and she saw you in Xiangshuitan as a fruit. ”

Listening to my senior brother's preaching, I nodded as if I didn't understand, but I still decided in my heart to see Su Xiaoyue again.

"I know you didn't understand." Senior brother glared at me: "I usually tell you to read more books, but you don't listen, what I just said, to put it simply, is that you and her fate is over, and in the marriage spectrum of the old moon in the sky, you and her are no longer a couple." ”

"Fate is over?" I muttered the four words that my brother said, but my heart was not at all good.

"Yes." My brother snapped his fingers at me: "She has forgotten that you are living her own life, and you forcibly remind her of you, which will only increase her pain." ”

Saying that, the senior brother waved his hand at me exaggeratedly: "You are like my two hands and one eye, a world full of threats and ghosts, and you may die at any time; A world where there is only technology and work, and there are no ghosts to kill people. ”

"Two worlds are completely different, one might even say the opposite, when you forcibly let the two worlds intersect." Senior brother made an explosive look at me: "Boom! This will only collapse both worlds, and you will continue to face your own lonely life. ”

Listening to what my senior brother said so mysteriously, I instantly lost the courage to start over with Su Xiaoyue, no matter what my brother said is true or not, I don't want to kill Su Xiaoyue again because of myself, no matter what the reason, I don't want to face the choice of life and death again.

"Actually, that's not bad." The senior brother burped and lay down comfortably on the sofa: "At least you remember all kinds of memories of yourself and her, and when you are old, you will be able to find things to reminisce about." ”

Looking at my brother's heartless appearance, I gritted my teeth and whispered to my brother, "That, how did you get out in the first place?" ”

"Me?" When my senior brother heard my question, he suddenly sneered: "I wasn't like you at the beginning, I felt that life was meaningless. ”

Saying that, Senior Brother's face suddenly changed, and he looked at me very seriously: "I even thought about dying like this, but then I remembered my master, a teacher for one day and a father for life, and I just left Master and his old man will be sad." ”

Senior brother stretched out a finger and shook it in front of me: "And let me tell you, a man can't die or live because of these things, we still have a long way to go, and the tribulations we will face will be more painful than this, because we are men, so we can't find our best friends to suffer like a little girl, bear all this silently, and digest it ourselves." ”

After speaking, the senior brother closed his eyes, and when I thought that the senior brother had finished speaking, I heard the senior brother seem to be talking to himself alone, as if he was persuading me, and as if reminding himself.

"Man, the word responsibility is bigger than the sky, and the word knee is worth a thousand gold."

Looking at the senior brother who closed his eyes and rested, I myself fell into thought.

Senior brother is right, if I have to die because of this incident, then I am undoubtedly a failure.

I've always been taken care of by different people, protected by different people, and never really went to the other side of something.

Whenever I encounter this situation, I fool myself and tell myself that I am still young, I don't understand yet, I need to grow, I need time.

But I know better than anyone else that I would lie to myself like this because I was too cowardly, and I didn't understand the meaning of the word responsibility.

When there is danger on the other side, I only know how to hide behind others, but if someone loses their life because of themselves, then I will complain and let myself fall into endless self-blame and pain.

In fact, to put it bluntly, if I had understood the word responsibility earlier, then many people would have survived because of this, and at the same time, I would not have experienced so much pain and suffering.

But there is no growth without tribulation, and the excuse I have been using to deceive myself is time to reflect on it today.

Once upon a time, I was a little kid who would turn around and run away in the face of danger, but from now on it will be different, and in the future, I will stand in front of others like my own master, and fulfill my responsibilities as a duke, and my responsibilities as a man.

I've been clamoring to mature, and now it's my chance to mature.

Maturity is a very important word, and when you mature, you don't necessarily gain something, but you definitely lose something.

The so-called youth is to meet seven selves: one is bright, and it feels like everything is so easy and fearless.

A sad one who feels like the protagonist in a tragedy, who is sorry for himself and complains about everything.

A gorgeous, as if dressed in the emperor's new clothes, with infinite scenery in and out of various occasions, seems to announce to everyone that he is successful.

An adventure, always wanting to touch the unknown and novel, feeling like a navigator standing on the bow of a ship, full of curiosity about everything.

A stubborn person always feels that his choice is right, and he can't listen to any advice from others, so he insists on going his own way.

A soft, when facing something that he has never imagined, the first time is not to shoulder his own responsibility, or to hide behind others to seek protection.

The last one is growing, when you dye your colorful hair back one day, when you don't like carbonated drinks one day, when you don't go out with fox friends one day, when you don't invite a large group of friends out for drinks when you face your birthday.

When you just want to go home and sit with your dad and watch the news after work, when you start to like the food your mom cooks for you, when you stop sitting at home and play on the computer or go out to find a down-to-earth job, you start to grow.

It's just that it takes time to grow, no one becomes extremely mature overnight, and everyone needs an opportunity to abandon their previous bad habits.

That's growth.

I drank wine with my senior brother all night, and the second sister also sat down to chat with us in the second half of the night, and when I asked if the second sister was bitter, the second sister chuckled at me, and reached out to pull her hair: "What's the point of being bitter or not, I have to live anyway." My son is obedient, I have something to eat, and I have a bed to sleep in when I go home, is this not satisfied? ”

For the first time, I felt that the second sister is so wise, and it seems that life is indeed the best textbook, which will teach you life and teach you to be a human being.

The next morning, I helped my brother back to the house, and the chicken and the eldest sister didn't know where to run, and there was no ghost in the house.

Throwing my senior brother on my bed, I walked to the bathroom and looked at my face, which was a little pale due to blood loss, and hesitated, but I was still ready to take one last look at Su Xiaoyue.

I tiptoed open my closet, ready to find out the clothes Su Xiaoyue bought for me, when the senior brother who was sleeping like a pig in bed suddenly woke up.

"Are you still going to find her?"

"I'm just going to check it out."

"Hope you just look."

My brother said this to me, fell on the bed again, closed his eyes, and then said to me, "Bring me some porridge later." ”

I nodded to my brother, got dressed, and went out to take a taxi to the hospital.

When I walked to the door of Su Xiaoyue's ward, I saw You Zhan and Yang Guangzheng helping Su Xiaoyue out of the ward, and I was surprised to see me coming.

"I met her yesterday while watching someone next door, and today I said I would come and see her." Looking at Su Xiaoyue, who was supported by You Zhan, I frowned: "What about her parents?" ”

"Her parents are on a business trip, I rushed over after hearing Yang Guang's call, God forbid, there is nothing wrong with my little niece, the doctor said she can be discharged today." You Zhan smiled at me and explained to me why it was only the two of them.

"Hmm." I nodded: "Since she's okay, I'll leave first, I still have several things to deal with today." ”

After speaking, I waved my hand at You Zhan and Yang Guang, smiled at Su Xiaoyue again, and was about to turn around and leave, but was stopped by Su Xiaoyue.

"Is there something wrong?" I turned my head and asked Su Xiaoyue with a smile.

Su Xiaoyue furrowed her good-looking brows and stared at me deadly: "I feel that you are very familiar, but I can't remember where I have seen you." ”

Hearing Su Xiaoyue's words, my body suddenly shook, and I endured the sharp pain in my heart, and smiled at Su Xiaoyue: "That must be my public face." ”

"That's right!" I reached out and took out the talisman I had prepared in front of me and handed it to Su Xiaoyue: "This is for you, to ward off evil spirits." ”

After speaking, I smiled at You Zhan again: "I'll go first, there are a lot of things today." ”

When I left the hospital, I vaguely heard Su Xiaoyue ask You Zhan, "Who is that person?" How do I feel like I know him like an old acquaintance I've known for years? ”

"No, it won't." You Zhan said to Su Xiaoyue behind me: "People call Yuanhua, he is a duangong, a ghost catcher, you must have recognized the wrong person." ”

Su Xiaoyue snorted and closed her mouth.

Goodbye, my love, I hope your life will get better and better in the future, and don't meet me again to make you sad.

Goodbye, goodbye.