"Roar, roar, roar!" When Yang Jian heard my answer, he laughed exaggeratedly: "I knew you were a smart person!" ”

I looked feebly at the man in front of me who was thinking about how to take my body, and although he kept laughing at me exaggeratedly, I didn't feel any relief in my heart.

Yes, now half of my six senses have been lost, that is, me, and half of my person already belongs to Yang Jian's powerful ghost.

It's only been a long time since I've become like this, and I don't know how long it will be before I can control my body freely.

I suddenly remembered a sentence: no demon will make a deal with you without losing money, and since he has made a condition to you, then he must be sure that you will beg him.

It's a shame to say, but in fact, these three opportunities can be used to ask Yang Jian to give me endless wealth and power, or to ask him to change my current embarrassing life state.

But I don't know why, deep down I kept telling myself that what Yang Jian gave me was illusory, and for those things outside my body, what I might lose was my most important thing.

In fact, I'm really stupid, I don't know how to think about anything for myself, as long as that blood swells up in my head, I promise others with all my might.

Yang Guang was like this in the past, and Li Sihai is like this now.

Yang Jian saw that I didn't speak for a long time, and he stopped his exaggerated laughter. Maybe he thinks it's silly to laugh on the sidelines, maybe he knows what's going on in my mind.

"Alright." Yang Jian stretched out his hand and knocked on my head: "You can rest on the side, and leave the rest to me." ”

I nodded at him and slowly closed my eyes.

When I opened my eyes again, I was still standing beside me like an outsider, and Yang Jian had already controlled my body.

This time, I didn't observe how Yang Jian solved everything for me, because I didn't want to know, I was afraid of this strong self in front of me.

I shouldn't be like this! The real Yang Jian, the real roundness, shouldn't it be the one who is a little cringe, or even a little timid?

Everyone except the chick thought that I was the calm and profound Yuanhua Dao Leader, but they didn't know that the so-called Dao Master they saw was actually not the person they knew at all, but another soul in my body.

Or rather, another demon in my body.

I remember the first time I lost my mind, it was in Zhulin Gang against Linghu and the red-eyed pig demon, that time I witnessed the little nine-tails injured, and the anger broke through my reason in an instant, although the body did not listen to the control, but I can remember it very clearly.

On that day, I thought of a beast, or rather a demon, pressing the red-eyed pig demon to the ground and biting it desperately.

Maybe since that time, Yang Jian has appeared in the depths of my heart, growing quietly, or he is not an evil ghost, but a kind of hatred in my heart for the incompetent and weak self, I hope that someone can solve all these troubles for me.

The second time I was by the lake, I encountered a hooked snake with Little Ninetails, and because of that time, I directly faced my fears, especially when Little Nine-Tails was stabbed by the hook of the hooked snake, I lost my mind again.

So I'm no longer afraid of using the * trick to hurt myself, so I have nothing to fear, I just know, I'm going to kill it, kill that hooked snake to avenge the little nine-tails.

In the same way, when I lost everything I had as a human again, I was like a wild beast, pounced on the hooked snake and tore at it, as if to do so, I could vent all the pain and regret in my heart.

In this way, another self was born in my body, and this self was like a mirror, erasing all my shortcomings, and becoming extremely calm, incomparably strong and brave.

In the same way, this self also obliterates all the good things about me, and he does not pity anyone, everyone is nothing but a pebble to him, and if necessary, he will step on these pebbles to ascend to the heights.

That's what I've always been afraid of, I can't imagine what kind of person I'll be if I lose everything I have now.

Sacrifice the means to achieve the end? Would you rather trample someone else's corpse under your feet than take a few extra steps?

I admit that I have a bit of a small brain, I like to be greedy, and for some people who have something to do with me, I either think about others wholeheartedly, or rack my brains to calculate others.

Even if it's me, I don't want to be the person I've always looked down upon.

I'm afraid that in the future, the chick and the little nine-tailed will be such a stone that can be discarded at will; I am afraid that in the future, I will gradually forget my identity as a dun duke, become ruthless, and disown my six relatives.

The duangong that Li Sihai met this time may have experienced the same choice as me, but he had already made his own decision, and he did not hesitate to kill innocent people for the sake of fame and fortune.

Looking at the serious and indifferent self on the side of the altar, although he was wearing my favorite white robe, I couldn't feel any peace in him at all.

Some are just determined to put the other person to death.

I stood on the sidelines, completely cut off from the world, everything so familiar, yet so unfamiliar.

For a moment, I actually asked myself, is the evil ghost in my heart me, or Yang Jian?

Yang Jian is so perfect, as a fair and profound, he is decisive in dealing with powerful ghosts; I was so cowardly that I didn't dare to make one choice after another because I was afraid that my choice would affect everything that followed.

I was also afraid that my choice would lead to my death.

There are so many things in this world that I can't give up, my good brother, my good friend, my good parents, my good sister.

I can't be like Yang Jian, who can desperately play with people; I can't be like Yang Jian, who can put other people's affairs behind.

Yang Jian in front of him seemed to be a little struggling, and yes, what he was facing was not a ghost, but a real duangong, and that duangong, regardless of age or ability, would throw me away from me.

I'm curious what Yang Jian will do next?

I'm not worried at all that he will suddenly attack Li Sihai, because although Yang Jian is indifferent, he will definitely do what he promised me.

This is really similar to me, maybe this is the only thing we have in common between two completely different souls.

I saw that Yang Jian's face became more and more ugly, and his body began to tremble slightly, as if he would fall to the ground in the next second, and I, with his failure, would return to the underworld.

I suddenly laughed at myself, I never think about this myself, so why do I think so much today? It doesn't even matter if you live or die.

"If you like someone, you must tell her and never let yourself regret it again."

Huang Yu's words instantly appeared in my head, yes, it must be because of today's reunion with my old friends, which made me not only begin to sigh about life.

At the same time, because half of my body does not belong to me, this sense of crisis makes me, a lazy person, have to start to reflect.

"Why am I so weak?"

I gently touched my nose and asked myself, but I knew that no one could give me an answer to this question, and the only thing that made me understand was myself.

The hand subconsciously touched his neck, and there was a warm feeling from his fingers, yes, it was the only gift that Little Nine-Tails gave me.

That string of necklaces.

In fact, I really want to tell Little Nine-Tails that I'm an adult, and I'm no longer watching those bloody cartoons, because I know that reality is not a story, I don't have so many opportunities, and that kind of thing of jumping over the level and fighting monsters can't happen to me.

"Dog, Master believes that you will be very strong in the future, you just lack a little bit of self-confidence, if one day, you can let go of the cowardice in your heart, you will definitely become a more powerful duan than Master."

I don't know why, but I suddenly remembered what Master had said to me.

Am I really lacking self-confidence? I don't think I'm not, not only do I lack self-confidence, but I'm afraid of failure because I can't accept the cost of failure.

I have failed many times in my life, but there are only three times that I remember the most, one that led to the departure of my master, one that led to the coma of Little Nine-Tails, and one time that caused the godmother I just recognized to die tragically.

Maybe I'm just a scourge, and wherever I go, I only bring endless pain to people.

It's better to die like this, take your endless sins, and go to the hall of the underworld, so that you can wash away my life full of pain.

My hands involuntarily pinched my neck and pushed harder and harder, only this time I gave up completely resisting, and even a smile appeared on my face.

"Bao'er, I'll go first, I'll wait for you below."

My consciousness was getting weaker and weaker, and it was getting harder and harder to breathe, and this time I didn't have the image in my mind, my mind was blank, and I just knew that as long as I continued like this, I could be liberated.

"Rounding!"

As I was about to lose consciousness, a roar of rage reached my ears, and I struggled to open my eyes to find Master standing in front of me.

"Master!" I burst into tears, "Master, will you take the apprentices down?" ”

"No!" Master looked at me very seriously and said to me word by word, "You have forgotten who you are. ”

"Who am I?" I looked at the master suspiciously: "I am your apprentice Yang Jian!" ”

"No!" Master suddenly yelled at me: "You are not Yang Jian! You've lost yourself! You don't deserve to be a duangong! A Qingwei disciple! ”

"Master!"

I fell to my knees in front of the master with a 'bang', and all the strength in my body seemed to be lost in an instant, and even the hands that were holding my neck hung down weakly.

"Are you going to die?" In a vague way, I asked myself, "It seems that my life of sin is coming to an end." ”