After Fu Chengwen finished saying this, I immediately stopped, and tears kept falling. The moon really didn't understand what was going on, so she brushed away the hand I had been holding her arm and said to me:

"I really can't figure out your affairs, so let's do it, anyway, I don't have anything to talk about, I'll just wait for you outside, you and Fu Chengwen have a good talk, and I'll come in to find you when you're done."

After saying that, the moon sent me to Fu Chengwen's bedside, and then pressed me to the hospital bed and sat down, and after making sure that I would not get up again, she turned around and left the hospital room. And I sat on the edge of the bed and kept crying until Fu Chengwen felt annoyed, then he lifted the quilt, got out of bed and sat next to me, picked up a tissue and wiped my tears very violently.

"Crying for what? What is there to cry about, crying can't solve the problem, if you feel uncomfortable, you can tell us, if there is any difficulty, you can say it, we will help you solve it, what are you afraid of? ”

I know that Fu Chengwen is right, it is better to say some things than to hide them in my heart, but now let me say what can I say?

What the hell am I upset about? What am I crying about, I don't even know myself, what am I going to say?

Am I going to be sad that I have delayed Cao Yunxiao's future? Or do you want to be sad that you like such a person who shouldn't be liked?

If only there was a right and wrong relationship, then I wouldn't be so sad now, and those responsibilities can be naturally divided between ourselves, and we don't have to argue back and forth here about who has been hurt more.

"Fu Chengwen, if I break up, will everything be resolved?"

"Liang Xiaobai, I'm afraid you don't have a problem with your brain, right? If you want to break up as soon as something happens, don't you want to get better? Also, do you think that if you break up now, will you be worthy of Cao Yunxiao? ”

"But what they think is not wrong, my existence will only keep dragging Fu Chengwen down and keep making trouble for him. You know, I never wanted to be a burden to anyone, but I'm not Cao Yunxiao's burden now? Besides, with Cao Yunxiao's conditions, what kind of thing does he want to find? There are so many people who like him, and I let it go, so he can't find a better one. ”

"You can't even talk with your brains, do you? Do you say that too? Do you know how much Cao Yunxiao has paid for you? You now say give up and give up, do you still have a conscience? ”

I want it to be if it weren't for the fact that my relationship with Fu Chengwen is deep enough, and I'm still a woman, then now Fu Chengwen definitely wants to slap me to death. I didn't dare to face his hideous face, so I bowed my head and resumed silence again.

Of course, the reason for the silence is that I am powerless to refute what he said.

I have known Cao Yunxiao for so many years, even if we are not together, I know very well who he is, I know that all his gentleness, patience, thoughtfulness and kindness are all used on me alone, and for so many years, he has never used these feelings on any other girl. But so what? His love for me, or my love for him, doesn't change the gap between the two of us at all. In the eyes of others, the two of us should never be together, even if I told myself 10,000 times not to be in the eyes of unexpected people, but in fact I can't ignore it at all.

Not only can't I ignore it, I'm also afraid, I'm afraid that I will become a burden to him, and I'm afraid that I will become a bargaining chip used by others to threaten him, such as now.

I have nothing, I can't do anything, let alone take care of him, I don't even have the ability to protect myself. I can't find a way to deal with this situation now, so what about after that? What if there is more trouble after this matter is resolved? What if there is a problem that none of us can solve? Shall I destroy him myself?

If it really develops like this, what qualifications do I have to be with him?

So I can't be willful, and there's no reason to be willful anymore, and I can't just ignore it because I like it.

So what better solution is there than to break up now?

Thinking of this, I smiled bitterly, and when Fu Chengwen saw me like this, he couldn't help but grab my shoulders, shake me vigorously, and yelled at me:

"Don't think about those useless things, if Cao Yunxiao hadn't thought of these words in advance, would he still choose to insist? He hasn't given up until now, because he doesn't want to give up, he's been waiting for you, waiting for you to think about this problem clearly, but the more you think about it, the more you want to give up, it's equivalent to denying all his efforts. ”

"So what do you think I'm going to do? Do you want to keep going? But if I insist, things will definitely get worse, if outsiders know that he has a girlfriend at this time, and the girlfriend is still so bad for me, what should he do? Even if this matter is solved, what about the future, will we still live in such a hidden way? Isn't such a life tiring? Even if he doesn't feel tired, I feel tired. Doesn't love require two people to be equal? He stands at a height that I can't do in my life, do you think I'll be happy like this? I like him, I want to be with him, but now it's like this, what are we going to do? I ask you to think about me from my point of view before educating me? Could it be that only he will be sad about the breakup, and I will not be sad? ”

"Who hasn't put yourself in your shoes, what's wrong with you? You have never been worse than anyone else, it's just that you have always felt that you are worse than others, I still have Cao Yunxiao, the moon and Cheng Zexin, we have never felt that you are worse than others. Please, Xiaobai, can you have a little bit of confidence in yourself? If you don't have confidence in yourself, then what can we do if we think you're good? ”

Fu Chengwen's tone changed from anger to pleading, the first time he had spoken to me in so many years. I only felt as if my heart was pricked with a needle, and I could only force myself to look away from his eyes.

I also want to be confident in myself, and I want to be confident in everyone, but sorry, I can't really do that. Even if I could have a little bit of self-confidence, my life would not be what it is now.

So, maybe in the end, there really is only one sentence left:

I'm sorry, it's a real shame I can't continue to love you anymore.