Chapter Forty-Nine: Alone
"Fanfan, are you confused?" Liu Cheng crossed his arms and looked at Chu Bufan, who was full of indifference, snatched the candied fruit from her hand and smiled evilly, "If you fulfill my sister's wish, not only will she not be grateful to you, but she may also rip you, aren't you afraid?" ”
"What are you afraid of, they are all people who have died twice, what else is there to be afraid of?" Chu Bufan smiled, there was no coldness in his eyes, just a little confused.
This is a bit not quite like her, as if there is something that shakes Chu Bufan a little at this moment, Liu Cheng doesn't understand, I'm afraid the current Chu Bufan doesn't understand it very well.
"Let's go, go have a drink. Hey, you don't have to come along, I'll do something good with Qingzhou, and you know that you won't ask me to go. Chu Bufan said, after speaking, he hooked his hand at Qingzhou, and said a 'Red Mansion' mouth shape in his mouth, and Qingzhou came over with a fart.
Liu Cheng shook his head, naturally knowing that Chu Bufan had his own plans.
"Be careful! If you have something, remember to call someone with the jade pendant I gave you. ”
Chu Bufan turned around and shook his hand towards Liu Cheng and said, "Don't worry, my kung fu is not very bad." ”
Red Mansion, Red Mansion.
Chu Bufan sat in the private room on the second floor, and lowered his hood to reveal a slightly tired face.
It was easy to get rid of Xiao Li Qing, and she and Qingzhou had time to stay here for a while. I haven't seen Zhao Li for a long time, Chu Bufan is very worried, and he wants to see him several times, but who knows that Zhao Li's spirit has been not good, and he can't see him.
If she can't see him today, she will go to Liucheng to see him in person. In fact, they grew up together since childhood, and it would be good to see them here if they could see them here.
Thinking so, Zhao Li pushed open the door and entered the house.
"Ah Li, you're here, how is your body? I always want to see you, but you have been in Liucheng recently, and Li Xian and I have followed closely so that it is not good to make trouble for the two of you. Chu Bufan said apologetically.
She looked at Zhao Li's pale lips and knew that he hadn't rested well, and she was tugging in her heart, wanting to say more comforting words, but in front of her old friends, Chu Bufan didn't know how to speak better.
Zhao Li didn't speak, he leaned against the closed door, raised his eyes to look at Chu Bufan with an apologetic face, the corners of his mouth twitched, and his brows slowly frowned.
He sighed, Chu Bufan's eyes moved, and he hurriedly asked, "What's wrong with you?" Ah Li? Are you feeling unwell? I'll ask Liu Cheng to give you more supplements. ”
"Ah Sheng, I'm not feeling well."
Zhao Li said, he opened his mouth, thinking about how to tell Qin Sheng tactfully about his thoughts, but he still said it bluntly.
He didn't know Qin Sheng anymore, Qin Sheng came back like this, he was luxurious, his status was noble, he was just the son of a bun seller, and she was now the daughter of a high-ranking prime minister. Thinking of the last time Qin Sheng gave him a silver coin, Zhao Li gritted his teeth, and his heart was sour.
"Li Xian's hands are so heavy? Don't worry, I'm about to finish, and when the time comes, our revenge will be taken, and no one will bully you anymore. Chu Bufan comforted, she poured a cup of hot tea for Zhao Li, walked over and pulled Zhao Li's arm and pressed him on the chair, laughing apologetically, but she was very worried in her heart.
Chu Bufan always felt that Zhao Li had a lot on her mind, and she always felt sorry for him.
Zhao Li held the cup, the teacup was hot, his eyebrows were even more furrowed, he raised his head to meet Chu Bufan's waiting eyes, Zhao Li asked, "Can you go with me now?" ”
"I ...... I won't go, Li Xian won't die, I can't go. Chu Bufan's eyes darkened a little, she smiled, and said, "Ah Li, I feel very wronged to live like this, I can always think of the words 'why' when I dream back at midnight, I hope you can understand me." ”
"I can't accompany you to take revenge on Li Xian, Ah Sheng, I'm tired." Zhao Li lowered his head and took a deep breath.
Chu Bufan's heart suddenly became sour, she rubbed her fingers, her thin nails pinched into her fingers, her eyes slowly turned red, and her throat seemed to be choked by something and she couldn't speak.
As Qin Sheng, she only has one friend left, Zhao Li.
When she was reborn, she thought she was alone, but the appearance of Zhao Li, Zhao Li's expression of fighting for her life, Qin Sheng felt very confident, at least on this road of revenge that was destined to die again, she still had a pillar, and a friend who knew everything about her silently supported her silently regardless of everything.
They are the same people, the same little people, the same people who have been bullied by Li Xian, Zhao Li may be luckier than her, but it will not be shallower than her hatred for Li Xian.
"Ah Sheng, we are all ordinary people, but he is His Royal Highness the Crown Prince. What's more, now Prime Minister Chu is slowly helping him, and then he came to the Liu family, which has deep roots in Liang Guoshu. I went to assassinate him that day, and I realized how powerful his hidden strength was, and we couldn't fight it. Ah Sheng, give up, just like being bitten by a dog, can't we hide and live well? ”
Zhao Li's words were like knives, cutting Qin Sheng's heart with a knife, slowly overstepping her little heart.
"Okay."
She crossed her hands and clenched her fingers hard, the pain gave her strength, she slowly exhaled and raised her head and smiled: "If he just played with me, I admit that I, Qin Sheng, am the daughter of a prostitute, and this identity is destined to be looked down upon by the world." can be the same person, human life does not distinguish between high and low, he killed me like a chicken and a dog, he is an executioner, why do you want me to be a man with my neck bent? Ah Li, perhaps, he didn't kill me once, but twice, or even three times, I was afraid, I was unwilling, either he died, or I died, I couldn't let go of this obsession. ”
"But Ah Li, you are my best friend, I shouldn't have dragged you into the water, it was me who was wrong in the first place, I just want you to be well, do you understand? Whatever you do and don't do, I just hope you're doing well. ”
"I see."
Zhao Li said, got up and pushed the door to leave, but the cup of tea did not move at all.
Chu Bufan watched him leave, looked at his cold expression when he closed the door, and tried to squeeze out a smile and smile at Zhao Li, but the door was closed, but Zhao Li didn't look at her.
"Qin Sheng, when did you become so verbose? Who wants to hear about their own? You see, after saying it twice, Ah Li is already annoying you. You complained, he didn't listen to it at all, you said so much, stupid and redundant, and died twice and became more and more useless, who is used to your stinky problem?! Your death is actually nothing to others, and not everyone can empathize with your pain, even if it is your best friend. ”
Turning her head to look at the cup of hot tea that had not been touched, Chu Bufan's heart ached a little, her eyes gradually turned red, her throat muscles ached, she opened her mouth, and said slowly: "Qin Sheng, how can I say that you are good, what are you doing with other people?" Knowing that it has nothing to do with others, it's not normal for him to leave, what are you wronged about? It's really hypocritical, it's really hypocritical. ”
Chu Bufan smiled, pushed the teapot away, changed the bowl for himself and poured a large glass of wine, raised his head and drank it in a daze, the cold and spicy feeling came towards Chu Bufan, she felt as if her chest was about to burst open this feeling, but the movements in her hands did not stop, and she poured it down bowl by bowl, and Chu Bufan's consciousness gradually emptied.
"If there is a way, who wants to take revenge?! If there was a way, who wouldn't want to live well?! ”
There was a murmur in her sleep, and Chu Bufan only felt that someone pulled her closer to her embrace, and the embrace was warm and wide, and the smell was even better.
She shrunk back into the embrace, her eyelashes instantly wet with tears, and she opened her eyes to look, but she couldn't see the man's face clearly.
Thinking it was Xiao Li Qing, Chu Bufan smiled, put his arm on the person's shoulder, and wanted to tease the other party to take advantage of it, but the pain in his chest had not dissipated, and the words he said were broken and cold.
"You know what? Since A-Niang's death, I have found that the love that others give me is conditional. I knew it when I was thirteen, but I always pretended to be stupid, and I always thought that I would definitely find someone who loved me for no reason and no conditions. ”
"Heh......"
Chu Bufan burst into tears with laughter, she put her arms around the man, laughing and crying on his chest, "It's so stupid, no one loves me unreservedly at all, except for my mother, there is no one around me." Isn't that what happens in this life? Parting bitter, parting bitter, parting bitter ......"
The man's heart was beating 'dong dong', and he was stung by her words, Chu Bufan's tears were like a fire, burning his heart for a while.
"Isn't your mother Concubine Lin? She ...... "Bu Luochen patted her slightly trembling back distressedly, and regretted it as soon as she asked.
"The Buddha said that there are seven sufferings, birth, old age, sickness, death, resentment, love and separation, and begging, I have never done sin, why do you want to do this to me?! Why?! I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I've always been afraid, but I forced myself to be strong, forced myself to laugh at others, he taught me, he said it, as long as I coax others to laugh, no one will bully me, I have never cried in front of him, but why did he kill me?! ”
"Why did you kill me?! Why did you kill me?! You say, you say! ”
Chu Bufan hammered Bu Luochen's chest, as if he wanted to vent his grievances and anger for several lifetimes, Bu Luochen looked at her heartbrokenly, he encircled Chu Bufan in his arms, and Lingchen next to him almost cried urgently, Chu Bufan continued to fight like this, and Bu Luochen's freshly healed injury let her beat her back two or three times.
Who knew that Chu Bufan stopped after two hits, she collapsed in Buluochen's arms, with a sneer on the corner of her mouth, "What am I afraid of?" I'm not afraid of anything. ”
After speaking, Chu Bufan only felt a warmth on her shoulders, and the smell of alcohol and the pain caused by the tearing of the wound slowly made her faint.
"Your Highness, let's send Miss Chu back, this is too troublesome. Your body is good, and after tossing these few times, Lingchen is afraid that you won't be able to stand it. Lingchen worriedly looked at Bu Luochen's gradually pale face and persuaded.
The look in Bu Luochen's eyes became more and more gloomy, he hugged Chu Bufan tightly, raised his eyes and glanced at Lingchen, the anger burning in his chest had nowhere to vent, he sighed, listened to the voices of Qingzhou and Xiao Li Qing outside the house, wiped away the tears on Chu Bufan's face, and said seriously: "You always say that there is no love in the world for no reason, this sentence is so hurtful." ”
The gray eyes brightened little by little, turning red, and Bu Luochen gently touched Chu Bufan's eyebrows and eyes that were still painful in his sleep, and said: "I have seen you ten times, and you have been crying eight times, and the coming days will be long, and I will take you away in the future, and I will not make you cry." ”
"Bu Yuan swears with his life......"