Many years later, when I looked back on this incident, I suddenly realized that this was almost the only time that Cao Yunxiao and I had tried so hard to show each other how much we loved each other. Although we have experienced twists and turns before, the two of us still hope to be together in the future at this time, and this mind does not contain any other emotions, only love and being loved.

I often think back to what made Cao Yunxiao and I become what we are like in the end. We loved each other so much that even before we were about to separate, we tried to get back to feeling that way. But no one knows why, no matter how hard we try, even if we wronged ourselves to adapt to each other's ideas, all we got back was more and more distrust of each other, and endless quarrels, which did not make the situation any better.

In the countless lonely nights that followed, I would recall this image, and I would still laugh and look forward to it. But I also know that these images can only exist in memories, and as long as I don't mention them, they will never appear again.

No one else can give it anymore.

Sometimes I also reflect that maybe the feelings are fragile, so fragile that I really can't accept any kind of torture. It's just that many times, we will prove the other person's love for us by torturing each other, as if we can't feel pain, we can't feel love. This may probably be the work of an extreme lack of security, but in fact, such torture will not make love more and more at all, it will only make love more and more complicated and fragile, and in the end, the only option left is to break up.

When I first broke up, I often asked myself if Cao Yunxiao really didn't love me anymore, and then as if I had to prove that he didn't love me, I gave myself a lot of performances that he didn't love me, and then tried to blame all the mistakes on him, thinking that I was the one who was hurt. But later, when I thought about it carefully, I felt that he still loved me, but this love became less and less under the influence of time and reality, and he didn't fall in love with anyone else, but he didn't love me before. I felt lost, and I felt that I couldn't accept this sense of disparity. But I didn't think about it. In fact, I also brought him this sense of disparity, and when I tried to make him love me again and again when he was busy, I became the kind of woman I hated and he hated that would only cause him trouble. He would feel annoyed and tired at that time, but when he was no longer busy, he would become as patient and gentle with me as before. But I really don't have the patience to wait anymore, because he has been busy all the time, busy filming, busy studying, busy improving, and busy dealing with his scandals, and he doesn't have any extra time to love me.

For celebrities, it is a very normal thing to have scandals. After college, there have been a lot of scandals about Cao Yunxiao, and there are always seven or eight. I am a highly emotionally focused person, and I cannot accept any form of suspicion and betrayal. I quarreled with him countless times because of this incident, and I cried countless times, although he would explain to me every time, saying that it was just because of filming, and it was just used by someone with a heart, and it became a scandal. At first I believed it, but in the end, I didn't even bother to listen to the explanation. Because compared to these unwarranted scandals, I found that I was more concerned about being ignored by him. He had very little time to spend with me, but he had to give it to other women, chatting with them, shopping and attending events, leaving me alone in the city without him. I was already concerned that he didn't have time for me, and that made me even angrier.

Cao Yunxiao has also changed for this, and he also told his team not to stir up his popularity in the form of any scandal. He did change, but for me, the damage had already been done and it couldn't be erased. I often use these words to taunt him and hurt him. It was not until the end that he finally didn't bother to explain anything to me.

As for me, I also tried to take my attention off him, I bought all kinds of books, I studied from morning to night, I watched all the movies that were shown in the cinema, so I finally got used to being lonely and didn't care about whether he existed anymore.

You see, there's always a reason for a breakup. Usually when they are separated, they just say "goodbye" or, more bluntly, "let's break up", and then they never see each other again. But when analyzing the reasons for the breakup, it's not just as simple as "I just want to break up with you". Sometimes, the reasons for this are so intertwined that even the parties concerned can't explain them clearly. To sum up, the type is about to be disappointed.

And Cao Yunxiao and I are probably too disappointed in each other. So the two of us didn't even say goodbye or goodbye, and after parting, we never saw each other again.

Both Moon and Cheng Zexin have asked me separately if I regret making this choice. To be honest, I also regretted it at the beginning and wanted to try to contact Cao Yunxiao. But after resisting the urge to contact him once or twice, I realized that I didn't regret anything. The two of us really felt tired in this relationship, and we really wanted to give up tacitly. Otherwise, we wouldn't have come this far.

But although there is no regret, there is regret after all. After all, I really wanted to go on with him. The two of us have known each other for so many years, from elementary school to college, except for Fu Chengwen, he is the person who has been with me for the longest time, and I never thought that I would break up with him, so I have him in all my plans for the future. But none of the dreams I told him had been accomplished, and even in the end, the two of us didn't even say goodbye, how could we not regret it?

But so what? Life always goes on, doesn't it. He will eventually meet someone who understands him better than me, who will take care of him, who will tolerate him, and who will wait for him. As for me, I also met someone who was willing to spend time with me and accompany me to fulfill my dreams.

Isn't that perfect?

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