Since Xi Muye's kind of misogyny can't be pretended, it is acquired, when she used to see Xi Muye so misogynistic about women, she was still very depressed, how could a man be misogynistic and disgusted with women to such a point, and now after listening to him tell his own experience, she seems to know the answer, knowing why he became like this, in fact, it may be related to everything he witnessed when he was a child, after all, he was just a child at that time, and everything was too cruel for him at that time.

Seeing her mother die in front of her or in that way, Su Yiqiu couldn't believe how deep a shadow this matter cast in Xi Muye's heart after that day, if it was her, she might have collapsed at that time, how could she still live like Xi Muye to this day and still have to act as if nothing had happened in front of everyone.

Xi Muye's figure was stunned, and he looked at Su Yiqiu in silence for a long time.

"Half of it!" He turned his head to look outside.

"What do you mean, what do you call half, and are there any other reasons?" Su Yiqiu was puzzled.

In her opinion, this is already the most cruel and unacceptable fact, but she didn't expect Xi Muye to say that this is only half of it, does he mean that there are other reasons? Su Yiqiu's expression also became solemn.

Xi Muye looked at the scenery of the town outside with a faint expression, as if he was talking about something that had passed for a long time and had nothing to do with him.

"After my mother's affair passed, I was released from the dark room, at that time my whole person was relatively fragile, the scene of that night appeared in front of my eyes every day, I really hated that woman at that time, I hated very much, I rushed to that woman and danced my claws, saying that I must kill her, I burned the picture of her most beloved son, smashed her son's things, at that time I was like a little lion who had been angered, I was crazy to take revenge and want to take revenge on that woman."

"Of course, the consequences of this are naturally more miserable for me, I successfully angered her, she called people to beat me crazy, until I was dying, she called a doctor to treat me, she just didn't dare to let me die, I still remember that the doctor was a bloated and ugly middle-aged woman, she said that my eyes are beautiful, she treats me every day, just on the day my body is about to heal, she showed her ugly face, she is a mental illness, She hadn't been treating me but thinking about me, and knowing that day she couldn't help but show her true face, and that disgusting feeling consumed my senses at all times. ”

"What about Madame Xi? Didn't she know about it? ”

"That day I naively thought she could save me, but when I struggled and ran out, I found that there was no one in the whole villa, even the usual servants were gone, and the whole villa was just me and the doctor, and the door in the hall was locked."

"At that time, I realized that it was deliberately arranged by her, and the arrival of this doctor was deliberately arranged by her from the beginning, and she was taking revenge on me and even ruining me."

"And then?" Su Yiqiu's eyebrows frowned.

Xi Muye looked back at her, a pair of blue eyes shining with a different kind of light.

"Then I killed the doctor, it was the first time I killed someone, I killed her last, when they opened the door and saw me standing in a pool of blood with a knife in my hand, I saw fear in the eyes of the woman for the first time, the first time I saw in her eyes something other than pride, at that time I laughed, I put down the knife in my hand, walked up to her step by step, pretended to be harmless to humans and animals and said to her, Madame, why did you close the door, I have not been able to get out! Then I wiped my bloody hand on her gorgeous dress, and she was scared, and she shouted that I was the devil, and her eyes were full of horror. ”

"Later, that time I thought I would be punished by my so-called father, but I didn't expect him to pick up the knife I threw in a pool of blood and told me that I should do things cleanly in the future and not let my hands get bloody, and then when I grew up I was sent to a dark place, facing all kinds of killings every day, where all those who failed would die, and every night when I went to bed, I would dream about my mother's miserable situation that night and the doctor's face, and slowly my dislike for women became heavier and heavier, Know what you're seeing now. ”

She didn't expect Xi Muye to experience this when she was a child.

Thinking about it, she felt a chill down her spine, she really couldn't imagine how much Xi Muye had endured by herself at the beginning, and it was only now that she discovered that the Xi family, which was originally calm on the surface, was actually as dark as the Su family before, and they had their own thoughts.

Before, she only felt that Xi Muye was an arrogant, arrogant, cold and ruthless young master, and a psychopath, even when she saw him rejecting those women again and again thousands of miles away to all women with such great hostility, she only felt that Xi Muye was the temper of the eldest young master, and felt that he had no one in his eyes, he didn't take everyone in his eyes, and he was just doing his own thing, but now it seems that she really misunderstood him, all of this is not what he wants, It's because of those tragic experiences when he was a child that he established such a character.

Today, she suddenly realized that the man standing in front of her was not as cold and arrogant as she thought before, not as unfocused as she thought before.

In fact, he is not as indifferent as he seems.

It's just that those things have caused a shadow in his heart, so those emotions on his surface are just his protective colors, just like when she first joined the company before, she only heard them say that he has a habit of cleanliness, a difficult personality, and uncertain, she also thought so at that time, but later that night when Xi Muye took her to the downtown for dinner, she found out that he would also eat things from roadside shops like ordinary people, and there would be other expressions on his face in addition to indifference, will also be so indifferent to use the tableware that everyone has used and has not been sterilized.

He has set up an image of indifference and detachment in the eyes of everyone, so that everyone is afraid of him, and everyone thinks that he is picky and difficult to get along with, and now she understands, because she has experienced the feeling of losing the person she cares about, so he will be like this, so that he is the only one who is lonely and only left to use work to numb himself, so that the person who does not care will naturally not taste the feeling of loss again.

For so many years, he has lived alone and really entered his heart only the little girl who gave him a little bread, only she has been living in his heart and has become the belief that has supported him to live for so many years, because of this belief, he has always wanted to find her, so he will come to this point.

Now she was suddenly curious about what the little girl in Xi Muye's mouth looked like, because that small gesture on that side made Xi Muye remember it until now.

Just like she and Qin Shengxing, Su Yiqiu suddenly remembered the scene when she and Qin Shengxing were abducted by traffickers and locked up in a small black house at the same time when she was a child, at that time, Qin Shengxing kept holding her hand and telling her not to be afraid, it was she who kept comforting her, that is, because at that moment Qin Shengxing had lived in her heart for more than ten years, and it had been deeply imprinted in her heart, so she recognized him at a glance when she first met Qin Shengxing, and it was also because of this that she became desperate for everything later, and she gave up the racing car she liked. gave up the kind of life she had been free and easy to stay by Qin Shengxing's side, during that time she was really like a canary he kept at home, obediently staying by his side every day, waiting for him to come home from work every day, at that time she was still naïve to think that Qin Shengxing loved her, so when she knew that Qin Shengxing was going to marry Zhou Junyuan, she still chose to believe him, or deceived herself and felt that Qin Shengxing would definitely give her an explanation after that, But I didn't expect that this relationship was just a joke in his heart, this matter has always been in her heart, and she can't forget it, even if Qin Shengxing is trying her best to redeem it now, she still doesn't dare to take this step easily.

"Actually, our experiences are very similar."

The understatement did make Xi Muye's eyebrows wrinkle tightly.

He stared at Su Yiqiu's face in a daze, watching her look become melancholy little by little, as if she was full of worries.

"Why do you say that our experiences are similar, or do you remember something?" Xi Muye suddenly thought of surprise.

He really thought that Su Yiqiu said this because she remembered everything before them when they met when she was a child, and thought that she remembered that she said to a little boy that his eyes were beautiful and touched his face with her hand, just when Xi Muye's eyes were full of anticipation when she looked at Su Yiqiu.

Su Yiqiu shook his head suddenly, "No, what I said is very similar to that we have a common place, and I also let a person who suddenly appeared live in my heart for more than ten years like you, he has always been my faith, and I will dream of the same scene every late night." ”

"Who?" Xi Muye's face changed.

He had a hunch that the person Su Yiqiu was going to say had nothing to do with him, and it was not the result he expected, Xi Muye's face suddenly became gloomy, and his icy blue eyes suddenly became sharp.