Chapter 51: I don't know how to love

After Jiang Liuli walked into the small building, he went directly to Gong Changqing, and after talking to him about Yu Caiwei's situation, he began to make records, and then re-developed new drugs, wanting to develop a more suitable antidote.

Jiang Liuli saw that he was so busy that he didn't have time to pay attention to himself, so he could only go back to the room and write today's events in a letter, wanting to share it with Lan Gongzi and see if he could come up with any good way.

In the following days, in addition to writing letters every day, Jiang Liu gave Yu Cai microdecoction medicine to accompany her through this difficult day.

Every time she accompanied her through a difficult time, her body was full of red and purple marks that had been pinched, but she didn't feel any pain at all, compared to Yu Caiwei, this pain was nothing at all.

In the blink of an eye, two months passed so quietly, the Spring Festival was approaching, and she didn't plan to go back to Liuli Palace for the New Year, but wanted to accompany the sisters of Yishui Pavilion.

Duan Ruoxi's face had been healed during this period of time, and the scars had obviously begun to fade, and she and Qin Mingyuan were very grateful to her and Gong Changqing.

A few days ago, Duan Ruoxi's parents and Qin Mingyuan's parents all came to Shengjing, so she moved out of Yishui Pavilion again and lived in Zuo Xiang's Mansion.

There is another thing that makes her feel satisfied, that is, after You Ziming's father knew that Sister Hong was pregnant, he actually let them go home to live, Sister Hong discussed it with You Ziming and decided to go back to have a look, but she didn't plan to live in Youfu, there are many people in Youfu, in case someone has a ghost in his heart, and if he is not there to hurt Sister Hong, it will be bad.

Although Mrs. You was very dissatisfied with their decision, he was not reluctant, although Mrs. You's attitude towards Sister Hong was still bad, they still often went back to see Master You, because of their humble attitude, they let them go back for the New Year.

This is a good thing for Sister Hong, so Jiang Liuli didn't object, but just told You Ziming to protect Sister Hong every step of the way, her belly is getting bigger and bigger now, and she must be accompanied by someone at all times.

And in the past two months, Xing Tianqi often came to Jiang Liuli, but she didn't want to see him, every time she came, she turned him away, and he was hurt again and again, but he didn't want to give up, so he could only stubbornly wait outside the door.

On Chinese New Year's Eve, Yishui Pavilion did not open for business, and the sisters gathered together to eat a sumptuous dinner, which was their happiest year, causing the sisters to all drink too much and everyone was drunk.

Gong Changqing also gave face to sit with everyone on Chinese New Year's Eve, and he loved the way of self-cultivation, so he rarely drank a few more glasses of wine, and after simply eating something, he let Ming Xia accompany him back to the room.

Although Jiang Liuli also drank a lot of wine, she was still awake, and she arranged for a few people who were not drunk to help the others into the room, and did not return to her room until everyone was arranged.

At this time, she was sleepless, maybe she had drunk too much bar, and her head became more and more sober, she came to the desk, looking at the letter sent by Lan Gongzi some time ago, it was still a poem with plum blossoms as the theme, and it was accompanied by a landscape portrait, she knew that this was painted by Lan Gongzi, and was even more impressed by his talent, since she drew a plum tree on the letter on a whim, the two often drew some paintings and sent them together with the letter.

Her paintings are simple but not monotonous, while his paintings are vivid, the portraits have reached the point of being superb, just a simple portrait of a mountain village, he painted it like a living thing, people can't help but yearn for it, go to the mountain village to find out.

Since then, she has asked him to paint more portraits of his hometown, wondering how beautiful his hometown is, and every time she looks at the portraits, she yearns for it even more.

Looking at the portrait sent by Lan Gongzi, she raised the pen on a whim and drew a picture, and what she painted turned out to be the scenery of the Wanhua Pavilion of the Liuli Palace, all around the Wanhua Pavilion are planted with all kinds of flowers, and the beautiful scenery when the flowers are in full bloom makes people feel like they have seen a fairyland.

She carefully depicted the scenery of the Wanhua Pavilion, and her serious look was three points more serious than when she practiced martial arts, and this was the first time she wanted to complete a work so seriously.

When she finally finishes drawing. Finding that the sky had been slightly polished, she put down the pen, stretched her stiff neck, slowly got up, and walked to the bedside, at this time, she felt a trace of sleepiness.

Two hours later, Jiang Liuli woke up from her sleep, got up and went downstairs, and found that the room was quiet, guessing that they had not woken up from a hangover.

I just wanted to go to the kitchen to make some food to fill my stomach, but found that Mingxia had already made breakfast, so she made breakfast by herself and sat on the table and ate it alone.

After eating breakfast for a while, the others got up one after another, Sister Hong went to Youfu with You Ziming last night, and she didn't come back today, she suddenly felt so bored.

Since it's okay, I can only go back to the room to practice, on the way back to the room, I found that the door of Yi Wenyu's room was not closed, she stepped forward to take a look, and found that she was staring out the window in a daze.

Seeing Yi Wenyu's sad face, she knew what she was thinking, and her heart suddenly became angry, what was there to miss about that negative man? Not only did he almost kill her, but now he is married to a wife, and he has long been far away from her, so why should he be sad for such a person?

"After all these years, can't you still forget him?" She spoke coldly.

Yi Wenyu heard her voice, quickly turned her head, saw the disdain in her eyes, and smiled bitterly, some things are not something that can be forgotten if you want to.

"I want to forget him, I've wanted to forget since he hurt me, but I can't forget him." Yi Wenyu said with a sigh.

"If he appeared in front of you at this time, would you forgive him?" Jiang Liuli asked curiously, since you love him so much, you must want to be with him, but can the knot in your heart be opened so easily?

"I can't forget him, but I will never forgive him." She shook her head resolutely, it seemed that no matter how much she loved him, she couldn't forgive him so easily, but wasn't that even more contradictory?

"Feelings are really a strange thing, since you love each other, but you don't want to be with him, why do you still love him?" She smiled sarcastically, if it was herself, she would either be with him decisively, or force herself to forget him, wouldn't this choice be good? But this is just her thoughts, and if she encounters the same thing one day, she will probably become hesitant.

"Miss, you have always been decisive in doing things, but in the face of emotions, no matter how decisive a person is, there are times when he hesitates, but now you haven't experienced it, and I hope you don't have the opportunity to experience such pain." Yi Wenyu smiled bitterly, she hoped that her relationship would be smooth all the way and there would not be so many ups and downs.

"I don't want to give my heart to any man." She shook her head decisively, although she had begun to believe that there was true love in the world, she would never love anyone, and she didn't want to experience such ups and downs.

"Miss, there are some things that you can't control, and when you meet someone who can make your heart move, you can't control it." Yi Wenyu looked at her funny, if the feelings can be controlled, is it still true love?

"If there really is such a person, then I will never give him the opportunity to betray me." She said confidently, since she can't hide, then accept it with peace of mind, and then turn that person into a twenty-four filial husband.

"With Miss's ability, naturally no one will betray you." Yi Wenyu didn't doubt what she said at all, she was so beautiful, there should be many people who wanted to get her heart.

"Sister Wenyu, have you heard a word? If you want to forget the previous relationship, then start a new relationship, and if you want to forget him, it is much simpler. Jiang Liuli looked at her meaningfully, if this was true, she really hoped that she could start a new relationship, at least not as painful as now.

"I don't have the strength to love another person anymore." Yi Wenyu was very repulsed by her proposal, it seems that she doesn't forget that person, but she doesn't want to forget.

"Sister Wenyu, it's been three years, haven't you hurt enough?" Jiang Liuli looked at her puzzled, could that person really be that good? Can she be so unforgettable?

"My heart is dead, and I won't beat for anyone anymore, I can't forget that it's just because he hurt me too deeply, and that wound has penetrated into my heart and can't be removed." Yi Wenyu said sadly.

Seeing her like this, Jiang Liuli could only sigh helplessly, it seems that her injuries will not be able to heal in this life, will she live like this for the rest of her life? Is it painful for a lifetime? Is there no other way to free her?

She really doesn't know much about emotional things, and she doesn't know what it's like to love someone, but she instinctively rejects it, she doesn't want to be like her, and she doesn't want to be like Duan Ruoxi, who suffers from gains and losses because of a man, she likes to live freely and freely, and she doesn't want to restrain herself for anyone.

After chatting with Yi Wenyu, she returned to the room in a daze, at this time, she treated emotions more vaguely, everyone treats feelings differently, she doesn't know if she will love a man as deeply as she does, but she doesn't like cowardice and avoidance, love is love, don't love if you don't love, revenge if you have revenge, don't care if he is the person she loves deeply, she has always been decisive in doing things, and she is so decisive in treating feelings.

Thinking of emotional matters, she suddenly became a little confused, came to the desk again, picked up the pen and wrote down her thoughts, wanting to hear Lan Gongzi's thoughts on feelings, maybe he could help her answer her doubts.

After the letter was written, she folded the portrait she had drawn last night and put it in an envelope, so that someone could send it now, and send it earlier, so that he could send it as soon as possible.

However, she forgot one thing, her letters were sent by the people of Liuli Palace, and Lan Gongzi's letters were sent to Shengjing by entrusting people, at this time it was the Spring Festival, every household did not go out, and who was willing to send him a letter thousands of miles away, he wanted to send a letter, but he could only wait for the Lantern Festival to pass.