Mother had probably never encountered such a panic and anxiety to her, except for humbly bowing her head in front of everyone and saying incessantly: It's our fault, it's our fault, she didn't even dare to raise her head, let alone say anything beside her. The more her mother is like this, the more aggressive Kan Tao's mother becomes.

The teacher, who had been standing next to her, said to her mother, "Mother Cao Muxi, is there anyone else in the family?" In my opinion, it is better to talk to my family about this matter. ”

The mother was slightly stunned, her eyelashes trembled, and she whispered, "No, there is no one else." ”

As if he was afraid that his mother would not hear, the teacher leaned close to his mother's face and raised his voice for a while: "There is no one else? What about people? Grandparents always have them, right? ”

The mother's head was lowered deeper, and her voice was like that of a mosquito, and she said in a particularly soft tone: "No." All of them have passed away. When the teacher heard this, he was very surprised. But she didn't ask anything more, I'm afraid, she also knew that if she asked again, she couldn't ask why.

However, Kan Tao's mother did not give up. With his hands on his hips, his nose crooked to his face, and his Mandarin was lost because of his emotion, his arrogant and rude appearance made people stunned: "Ah, that Cao Muxi's mother, this is not the right hoop for you, right?" You are a person, why don't you have a mind (not easy to do), and you don't follow the rules at all (don't follow the rules). Ah, oil, do you think that if you don't have soup (it doesn't matter), you'll have to do it? It's a perfunctory ride, but it's too unlucky! (insincere)" As soon as she finished speaking, I saw her look down at the gauze on Kan Tao's face pretendedly, and looked distressed.

In fact, it is impossible to say that Kan Tao's parents do not dig their hearts when they have a color on his face. But her contrived expression, compared with maternal love, is more mysterious. Her mother never looked up at Kan Tao and his family, as if she could see that the burden on her heart could be infinitely expanded. The mother's attitude made the other party feel that she was evading responsibility, which could be seen from Kan Tao's mother's tone and impatient eyebrows.

The mother is still making amends, but it is useless. Just after this uproar had not yet resolved the matter, Kan Tao's mother's sudden words made her mother stop the endless "I'm sorry." And that sentence is the humble beginning of my mother and I - money.

"Oh, don't apologize anymore, if the apology is useful, then what do you want the police to do~ In this way, I don't care who is in your family, you go back and discuss how much compensation you can give my son. Eh, I can tell you, this is a face, it's a matter of face, don't think about the 100 yuan bill and send it away~" After speaking, he gave his mother a standard roll of his eyes.

At the mention of money, my mother was intimidated. For the poor, the hundred-yuan bill, hehe, if there was a group of low-income households at that time, my mother and I would definitely be the first batch of people to be included in the register. Therefore, when Kan Tao's mother said the three words of compensation opposite him, his mother shut up, and then her face turned from pale to dead.

I was on my mother's left side, and I saw her eyes fixed on a certain point, her pupils constricted, and then focused. I was reminded of an animal, a cat. It's a pity that the feline shrinks its pupils to see its prey clearly, while the mother is distracted because the six gods have no owner.

The teacher has been comforting Kan Tao's mother on the side, and for the party at fault, the teacher did not go along with him to embarrass our mother and daughter, which is already a big thin face.

The wall clock on the wall at the front of the classroom was harsh, and I looked over my mother's head, full of frustration at the time. I was thinking, if I had superpowers, I would definitely mess up time, or turn back, or run faster.

When my whimsical thoughts were flying, my mother was in the middle of me and time, accompanied by the rhythm of the pointer, and slowly uttered five words: "I understand, don't worry." ”

These five words were so hard to say that I thought my mother was gritting her teeth in her mouth.

I tugged at my mother's apron and whispered, "Mom, what do you know?" What are you promised? Mother turned her head, her eyes were empty, and I saw that the corners of her lips were covered with beads of sweat from impatience, and the beads of sweat were the size of a mouth that would fall off when she spoke.

"Mu Xi, go home!" I shook off my mother's hand and started shouting at her, "What are you going to go home to?" After you promised, will the seller compensate? How much is that worth? People say that 100 yuan bills can't work, but if we sell you or can I value 100 yuan? You don't understand that you can use it? I can handle it myself! What are you doing here? You're here to make trouble! ”

Before my mother could react, I rushed over to Kan Tao and pulled off the eye-catching piece of white gauze on his face. Kan Tao's mother exclaimed next to him. I shouted at Kan Tao's mother: "Auntie, is Kan Tao's face injured with such a large piece of cloth?" Kan Tao's face was almost covered. As for it?! I admit that it was wrong for me to scratch Kan Tao's face with a pencil knife, but what do you want money for? You know that the last thing my family has is money! I don't have any money! Not a single point! No zero! "When I said the next day, I was almost shouting, and it was so loud that it shook my own eardrums.

When Kan Tao, his parents and teachers were stunned, my mother suddenly ran to me and raised her hand to give me a mouthful! My mother's strength was so strong that with a slap, my originally tied ponytail was scattered! With all her strength, my mother pointed at me and shouted, "Go back!" Family! ”

I covered my hot face with my hands, tears streaming down my face.

My mother's slap made me feel alienated from her from 50% mental alienation to 100% heart. When I walked out of the classroom with my mother, I also saw that the people in the classroom were still standing in stunned place, and maintained the "listen" posture when I roared.

I was very fast, and my mother was left behind by me because of her age and the slippers she was wearing. When I entered the house, I locked myself in my bedroom. I sat alone on the edge of the bed, looking at the furnishings that had not changed since I could remember, and suddenly I felt pathetic, why did I have nothing? Is it wrong to even refute being rejected by someone who is spurned without a father? The world is so unfair.

Yes, the life perception that occurred to me on that day in 1994 was like a spell that imprisoned the past and present lives in my youth, and at the same time broke my mother's dreams for the rest of my life.

And when I saw through this thing of fate, I began to hate myself for this day.

A long time later, when I sat on the carpet in the living room of a big house in Toronto and cried bitterly after losing my two children one after another, I vaguely saw my mother rolling up her apron and wiping her hands and asking me: Mu Xi, I and my two grandchildren are fine, tonight, I have to give these two fat boys steamed buns to eat. How much do they look like you? You see, when you were a child, you also loved to eat my steamed steamed buns, steamed buns, and flower rolls...... I saw myself in a black dress, and I was chasing my mother with the hem of it, but she was getting farther and farther away from me with her two children.

After a long time, my mother turned back to me and said, "I am a mediocre person who lived before 1994 in your life, I am a mediocre child who is disturbed by all my mothers, and I have the impermanence of all the troubles of ordinary people in this world." Mu Xi, learn to be a mediocre person, and you will be happy.

I heard my mother's words go on and on, and I knelt on the carpet until my legs went numb and I lost consciousness.

Someone once said that I realized it later, and I admit it. Because when my mother said this to me, I was 33 years old, my mother had been dead for many years, and my second son had passed away less than a month later.

There's a reason my mother put herself in my life before 1994.

Because, in order to compensate Kan Tao, my mother went to my biological father Cao Mu again. And that time, it happened to be my father's mother, that is, my grandmother's birthday, and when I was happy, the elders wanted me to enter the Cao family, but the premise was that my mother couldn't.

And I, a knife cut Kan Tao's face, and also cut my half-life relationship with my mother.