Carried by someone like the moon, I was shopping almost ten times faster than before. Two hours later, Moon and I walked out of the mall with a big bag of things.

"Oh my God, Xiaobai has so many things, do you have to take them with you when you travel? That's a lot of trouble. ”

As soon as Moon got on the bus, she began to complain to me, and I thought to myself that it was good that there were few people on the bus, so I left a seat for her, otherwise she would have to talk about me when she went home. But she wasn't entirely right, because I didn't just have something for myself.

"Oh, I know you're tired, but this thing is not just for me, wait for me to go back and divide the things, give Fu Chengwen and Cao Yunxiao to the two of them, and then I will bring everything you need, so it's okay."

In order to appease the moon's "anger", I immediately relented and coaxed her with a grin. As soon as the moon heard this, she was upset again, and immediately stopped me and said:

"Why do you want to hold it, I'm not without hands and feet, I should hold all your things. Oops, okay, okay, I'm tired, don't I have anything to buy? Then remember to call me when I arrived, I'll sleep for a while. ”

After the moon finished speaking, she immediately rested her head on my shoulder and closed her eyes, regardless of whether I answered or not. I wanted to say something, but when I saw her like this, I only thought it amused, so I shut my mouth and let her fall asleep.

Although the weather was hot, there were not many people in the car, so I didn't feel bored. I just sat quietly, sometimes looking out the window, sometimes at the moon, and then waiting for the bus to take us home.

It's been a long time since I've felt so quiet and comfortable, and all sorts of things have happened during this period of time that almost drove me to a breakdown. Until now, when I think back to what happened before, I can't imagine how I managed to make it. If it weren't for these people around me, I'm afraid I would have given up on myself a long time ago.

I know that people are born to suffer, but I never thought that I would have to face these problems at this age. I often envy the students around me who live quietly, there is no farce, no death, no white eyes, no ups and downs, some only follow the rules, and there may be a little bit of dreams. Maybe they will envy me, envy my ups and downs, envy my "colorful", but I really want their kind of life, even if it is as tasteless as plain water, I will feel relaxed and happy. Because then I can make friends without any scruples, I can do what I want to do, and I won't be the object of envy and I won't be hurt so much.

But I know it's not possible for me. In the days to come, if I don't give up Cao Yunxiao, or if Cao Yunxiao doesn't give up his career, then I will never get a stable life.

Will I be able to keep it up?

In the past two days, I have often asked myself this question, even if my relationship with Cao Yunxiao can be described as "glue-like", even if I have actually comforted myself countless times because of this incident, but I still don't know for sure. I don't know how long I can last, and even I can't believe that Cao Yunxiao can really stand on my side all the time, protect me, take care of me, and pamper me like now.

People will always change, not to mention, at our age, life is just beginning, who can guarantee that we will find out what it will be like in the future. Will we continue to love each other like this for a long time?

I thought about these questions over and over again, denying and affirming at the same time. It wasn't until the bus arrived that the moon reminded me to get off.

"You girl, what kind of nonsense are you thinking, just like you, I want you to tell me to get off the bus, we don't know where we were pulled by the bus."

"Ahh Sorry, I didn't pay attention. ”

"You, you said that the weather is so good, we go out shopping, how happy it is, you always think about those useless things? Isn't this self-inflicted? What's the big deal, I always think. Haven't you heard the saying go with the flow? Don't always think about things you don't understand, just live now. How can I teach you such a simple truth? ”

The moon snatched the bag from my hand and dragged me in the direction of home, hating me as she counted me down. I know there's nothing wrong with what she's saying, but it's hard for me to do it if I don't want to. I lowered my head and didn't answer her, not trying to trick her into saying I wouldn't think about it anymore. When she saw me like this, she sighed deeply.

"Xiaobai, I know that you have experienced a lot of things, and you have a lot of things hidden in your heart. But believe me, you're not alone in this world with so many things on your back. Everyone else is alive and well, and you don't have to embarrass yourself too much about these things. If I'm like you, what is my brother going to do? Do you think I should accept him, or should I treat him as an enemy who destroys my family? Obviously, I accept that he has a lot of benefits for me, although sometimes I feel very annoyed by what he does, and I care so much, but you see that he is so good to me and loves me so much, even if I have a boyfriend in the future, he will not be good to me. Therefore, sometimes forgiveness is not a sign of cowardice, and I think it is more about letting yourself go. Spare yourself, why always use other people's mistakes to embarrass yourself. ”

In the end, the moon's tone also lowered. It was only then that I realized that in fact, the moon has also experienced a lot of things, but because she has been laughing with us and has been acting as the one who silently takes care of our emotions, we forget that in fact, her experience is also very rugged. Perhaps every time she refused to discuss those issues with me, she was not only evading, but also protecting herself.

It dawned on me that perhaps the moon needed more comfort than I did, because she always covered her true thoughts with a smile and made people unconsciously ignore her feelings. This may be her most vulnerable.

Thinking of this, my heart was sour, and when I got downstairs to my house, I finally didn't control myself, and hugged the moon fiercely, for a long time.

"Hey, if you don't talk to me, what's going on now?"

The moon was a little dazed by me, and wanted to push me away, but it seemed that she was reluctant. I took a deep breath, then leaned on her shoulder and said to her:

"You're never alone, no matter what, you're still with me, remember?"