Despite this, Cao Cancan didn't trouble me too much in life. Maybe it was the words of Xue Hao and Cao Ge a few days ago that touched her, or maybe in her heart, she also agreed with the fact that what she told me was just the fuse of her mother's death. Fortunately, Cao Cancan is a girl who dares to love and hate, and her character is still relatively good, at least I can't learn it.

After that night, I waited for Cao Ge and my mother to catch up with me and go to care, negligence, remorse, etc., but I didn't wait for anything.

In fact, this is also good, so as to avoid trouble and trouble. Just like Cao Cancan just said, what are you crying about? yes, what are you talking to me about now? Even if everything is good or bad, or that psychological counseling for me can't solve the problem, no matter how much it says, it's just wishful thinking.

I've figured out a way to save myself. At present, it seems that it is unknown whether it will be successful or not, but moving forward is good.

The night after the incident, after dinner, Cao Ge came to my bedroom. She said she wanted to transfer me to another school, but I firmly refused. She was surprised: "Mu Xi, I don't think you need to wronged yourself, let alone have trouble with yourself." You have to understand that if you understand what I mean, then you should accept the transfer I arranged for you. This may be the only thing I can do for you. Cao Ge was very sincere when she said this, I knew her thoughts, but I still insisted on my decision.

"I'm not transferring."

"Why?" Cao Ge asked me suspiciously.

"There is no why. I just suddenly thought that maybe I could handle it. I didn't look back at her, I said to myself.

"Can you handle it? If you can handle it, how can you be so anxious and disordered? Besides, you have to understand that if public opinion has formed a certain climate, it is what the textbooks say, and it is bound to appear as a natural phenomenon, and it will take time to retreat. "I didn't speak.

"Oh, I may have said it profoundly. I'm just saying that this gossip outside will not say that it is not nothing, it may be a few months, or even a year or two. Are you sure you can handle it? Mu Xi, you see, a few days ago, it was our negligence that ignored this. But now that we've found the root of things, we can change, so why not do it? ”

"I want to try." Cao Ge saw that my attitude was very resolute, so he gave up. It's just that when she was about to go out, she still asked me very confirmatively: "Are you sure you have thought about it?" ”

"Yes." I replied categorically.

"Oh well. If you want a change of environment, you can always come to me. After speaking, Cao Ge closed the door and went out.

After Cao Ge left, I didn't study. I'm thinking about myself who I can't figure out. Regarding the matter of not transferring schools, I also decided suddenly, and at that moment, Cao Qi's words always rang in my ears, if you want not to be told by others, then, you must learn to become stronger. Yes, he's right. I seemed to immediately understand the true meaning of this sentence.

During that time, I didn't expect anyone to empathize with my state of mind. I decided to let myself grow. For me, growing up means not struggling with my own contradictions.

The night I made this decision, I found that autumn in Nanjing was not as cold as I had imagined. This may be the theory that mood affects the perception of the environment. If you ask me, do I mean relieved when I choose to let myself grow? Of course not. I just chose not to run away anymore.

Of course, the process of growing up is long, and whether you are ready for transformation or not, you will still find that most of the time in this world, when we want to work hard to accomplish a tricky thing, the result you were waiting for changes direction in an instant. Why? Because, an unexpected episode.

A few days later, the school informed the classes that they were going to prepare for the fall sports day. After the class teacher announced this school activity from the podium, the students were excited. began to talk to each other incessantly, whispering about what project everyone would report. After all the registrations were completed, the teacher said that one person should be selected from among the students to cooperate with the life committee to manage the school bags, drinking glasses and clothes of the participating students during the sports day.

I had been thinking about it, and I was looking down to draw on my notebook when I suddenly heard a classmate call my name. As soon as I looked up, I saw that the eyes of the class were focused on me. I was shocked, what happened here?

"Teacher, Cao Muxi, she is careful." The teacher suggested this to a mischievous and annoying student in the class, who, after recommending me to the teacher, looked back at me defiantly and looked at me with a look that seemed to say, "Come on! Cao Muxi! If you have the ability, you will come and arrest me! "I've been stunned.

"Cao Muxi, is it okay?" The homeroom teacher looked at me. I could tell there was a nod in her eyes that looked at me. Perhaps, in her eyes, this is also a good opportunity to build a good relationship with her classmates.

Kan Tao pushed me and asked me in a low voice, "What about the teacher asking you, can you do it?" Before I could answer Kan Tao, the teacher asked again.

"Okay." My good voice attracted the sighs of many students in the class. In their eyes, I was a student who was squeezed into a corner, unworthy of any group activities, because my background was humiliating, because my existence killed an innocent mother. So, when I agreed to it in one bite, their expressions, not exaggerated, could swallow a toad.

The teacher smiled: "Okay, that's it, go to self-study." ”

After the teacher left, Kan Tao whispered to me, "I noticed that you seem to have changed recently. ”

"Where has changed?"

"Uh... Braver than before. ”

"Really? That's because I was too unbrave before, in contrast. Kan Tao did not speak. However, I could still tell from the way he was humming a little song that he was happy for my change.

A week later, the Games were held as scheduled. I sat next to the line, and I was in charge of the clothes and belongings of all the students who participated in the sports. Actually, it's quite idle.

It's just that the so-called fool is often too simplistic or complicated to think about things, and then let himself fall into a situation of chicken feathers. That's what I seemed to be at the time.

At the end of the sports day, a student who participated in track and field came back to rummage through his clothes: "Hey! Cao Muxi, did you see a small purse in my clothes pocket? It's the size of a coin. ”

"No, it's all here, you can look for it!" I'm also helping to rummage.

"What a place to be! Eh, aren't you looking at clothes? What are you looking at? You don't even know if I've lost something? I explained it over and over again, frantically helping her find it. I rummaged through the top and bottom of the table, but I didn't find the small bag she was talking about, and in my impression, I really didn't see any small purse at all.

She threw her clothes on the table: "No, Cao Muxi, are you a fool?" How can I explain such a little thing to you, you can't do it?! ”

"I don't really see any small purses."

"Are you still quibbling?"

"I didn't, your clothes were sent by the squad leader, and I didn't move. Or do you ask him? ”

"Can I ask him? You're the one who didn't get it. You are waiting for Cao Muxi! After saying that, she trotted to find the head teacher.

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