"What does your fear of heights have to do with me? I'm not alone in sleeping on the bunk. Do you think I'm a bully? Why don't you ask someone else to exchange it? Jiang Shanshan gave Liu Zhen and me a big roll of the eyes as she spoke.

Liu Zhen looked at me: "She is also afraid of heights." ”

"She's afraid of heights? Hum! She's afraid of heights, isn't she? Then I'm also afraid of heights, I'm sorry. After Jiang Shanshan finished speaking, she took a basin from under the bed, threw the sheet into the basin vigorously, slammed the door shut, and went out. Leaving Liu Zhen standing in place with an embarrassed face.

I didn't say anything about the bed. But I opened a bag of plums, stuffed one in my mouth, and handed it to her. "No, no, thank you, thank you." I tried to relieve the airtight air in the room at that time, but failed.

After standing there for a short while, she slowly picked up her luggage from the door, looked left and right, and finally chose to sleep on my top bunk.

For me, it's not that I'm not unsympathetic, but I think, first of all, this newcomer is not familiar with each other, and it doesn't matter if I sleep on top and below, but who knows if she's really afraid of heights or fake fear of heights? When we first met, you said what kind of difficulties did you have, and if I helped, then you would not have to be used for kindness all the time? It's not like I've never encountered this kind of thing. Secondly, everything pays attention to a first-come, first-come, first-served, you are afraid of heights or not, so who made you late?

I went downstairs to get hot water. When she came back, Liu Zhen had already laid out the quilt. She sat on the top bunk and didn't dare to move, as if she was afraid that she would fall off if she moved. Moreover, after a few days of observation, I am also convinced that Liu Zhen is indeed afraid of heights. Because every time she went up and down the ladder, she trembled and didn't speak, and she struggled for a long time, and she didn't dare to drink water at night, afraid of getting up at night.

It was close to evening, and the fourth person in the dormitory did not show up for a long time. Liu Zhen shouted to me on the top bunk: "Cao Muxi? Do you know how many people there are in our dormitory? ”

"Four." I say this briefly and without any emotion.

"Then why is there one less?" I didn't reply to her. I don't say anything like this without nutrition. After all, why haven't people come yet, how do I know?

Liu Zhen seemed to be at a loss for words, and after she saw that I ignored her, she suddenly seemed to remember something terrible, and took a bag of things out of her bag.

"I forgot, I brought it from home, our specialty there, give." She divided it between me and Jiang Shanshan. I said thank you and didn't eat, but put it on the table. And Jiang Shanshan went too far: "What is it?" ”

"My specialty there, you can taste it, it's delicious." Jiang Shanshan took it and opened a piece and stuffed it into her mouth, chewed it twice and raised her head: "What kind of specialty is this?" Isn't that the gummies? Jiang Shanshan is very exaggerated, not only is she spitting things that are not delicious, but she even dragged the trash can and spit it out.

Although I am also sharp enough, to be honest, I really can't do Jiang Shanshan's approach. Liu Zhen turned her back to me, and I saw her clenching the bag in her hand, and without sunlight, I could see the embarrassment of shattering the ground at that time.

Although I could see her embarrassment, I didn't want to reach out and pull her out of the time that had stood still. Maybe it's because I've experienced all kinds of things in the Cao family, or maybe I've almost stimulated my enthusiasm when I was young, so many appearances have made me bury my kindness in my heart.

I thought I buried it and it wouldn't reappear. And in essence, any kind of character and mood in the bones, planting soil and growing trees, throwing water into the water, this kind of thing that cannot disappear and exists in itself, is just temporarily put into a time capsule, which will open at a specific time, allowing you to see your state of mind at that time. Then, it dawns on you that time has never changed its concept, and that everything is just self-deception. For example, the kindness, humility, self-esteem that I put in the capsule.

When I sighed, I suddenly remembered that I went to the supermarket yesterday to buy a bag of specialties from Liu Zhen's hometown. I got up and took it out of the bedroom, unscrewed the paper wrapped around the soft candy body, and looked at the crystalline yellowish gel color. In the little sugar, behind the sweetness of the greasy teeth, is Liu Zhen's inferiority complex and weakness back then, as well as my indifference back then. I stuffed one into my mouth and was chewing it, when Liu Zhen opened the door and came back.

"What are you stealing behind my back?" As soon as I turned my head, I saw that this girl had two boxes of takeaway and some snacks and entered the house in a hurry.

I smiled, "Guess? ”

"How do I smell maltose? It seems like... Are you eating sugar from my hometown? Liu Zhen was surprised. I smiled and nodded, and handed her a piece of it.

"Why do you still want to eat this? I remember, when I was in college, I gave you and you didn't even eat it. Liu Zhen said as she chewed.

"Just because you didn't like to eat back then doesn't mean you don't like to eat now."

"No problem. People are subject to change. Liu Zhen said, went into the bedroom and changed into home clothes. When I came out, she asked me what I was doing during the day and if I was obedient and had a good night's sleep.

"No, I can't sleep. Thought about it before. ”

"Think about it before? No, I said Miss, the past is the past, the past is the past, you waste the good time in the daytime to remember the past, are you idle? Liu Zhen glared at me. I know she doesn't want me to think about the misfortunes that happened in the past.

"Eh, Zhen, do you remember that on the day you reported to college, you gave Jiang Shanshan candy, and she vomited that time? How was you feeling at the time? ”

"What's the mood? I'll tell you, that's what I thought about back then, if it's now, hum! Liu Zhen took a bottle of juice and two glasses and sat next to me.

"What's going on now?" I'm curiously waiting for this next.

"Now, I can't give it to her." She smiled and continued, "I had just come out of my family's countryside and had never been anywhere before. The neighbors in our village are all very simple and honest people. When I gave it to Jiang Shanshan at that time, she stared at me like that, which frightened me. I was standing there and thinking, is it that bad? It's delicious, isn't it? Eh, in the next two days, didn't she eat cafeteria food and have diarrhea, let me tell you, I was scared when I was lying in the bed, I was afraid that I would eat my mouthful of candy, don't rely on me when the time comes. After Liu Zhen finished speaking, she smiled backwards and forwards.

"Didn't she swallow it in her stomach, what are you afraid of?" I took the juice and took a sip.

"Because of timidity, low self-esteem, and weakness of heart. Let me tell you Mu Xi, I sometimes see some submissive people on the road now, and I feel sorry for them from the bottom of my heart. Just my hand, a new child, she's like that. I always reasoned with her and told her not to worry about this and that every day, but later, I found that it didn't work. You know why? ”

"Why?"

Because, this inferiority complex is deeply rooted in the bone marrow. At this time, everything you talk to her is in vain, and she has to understand it for herself and become strong by herself. However, even if it is strong, there will still be a shadow of the past in my heart. ”

"Do you hate Jiang Shanshan at that time? Did she do that? ”

"Don't hate. Why do you hate her? My family is not good, and I have nothing to do with others. But what she did really hurt my self-esteem. After Liu Zhen finished speaking, I smiled.

"Mu Xi, do you remember that when Shen Yue came, it was also that night, Jiang Shanshan said that she wanted to change bunk beds with her? I'll go! I tell you, I was on your head at the time, and tears were about to come out. I held it for a long time. Liu Zhen took a spoon and gestured with me to reminisce.

"Yes."

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