Chapter 85: Let go of the past and reconcile with yourself

After the dinner was over, Jiang Ziyu and Nan Huaifeng had nothing to do, so they walked around the palace.

The scenery in the palace is not much better than that of the imperial garden, Jiang Ziyu leaned on the handrail of the arched bridge, watching the clear mountain spring below flow slowly, and his heart became quiet.

"There are many such palaces, and I will take you to them all in the future. If you prefer whichever you like, stay longer. Nan Huaifeng stood beside her, took off his robe and draped it on Jiang Ziyu's body.

The smile in Jiang Ziyu's eyes has always been there since she came to the palace, and looking at the pleasant and quiet scenery in front of her, she remembered the past again: "The place where I used to live was also a magnificent mountain and river, and the scenery was beautiful everywhere. Although the conditions at home were not very good, I was very happy at that time. ”

Nan Huaifeng quietly listened to her talk about the past and didn't want to interrupt, because he wanted to know more about that magical world, and he wanted to know more about Ziyu's past.

"My father loved my mother and he loved us. How happy the past is, how painful the future is. I watched my mother mutate and bite my father to death, and there was no fear or hatred in my father's eyes before he died, just some regret and self-blame. ”

Nan Huaifeng stretched out his hand and rubbed her head, and said in a low voice: "As a father, he must blame himself for failing to protect his wife and children." ”

"I never blame him, on the contrary, I miss him a lot. I miss him and his mother, and I miss my brother and sister. If I had been as strong then as I am now, I would not have lost them. ”

Jiang Ziyu's heart was full of remorse, she never resented others, she only resented herself. Why didn't you use your abilities to protect your family at that time, and why didn't you develop your abilities and space to the extreme at that time.

All the mutations are caused by viruses, and she obviously has countless medicinal herbs, but she can't save her family and friends, let alone herself. The living have far more to bear than the dead, and the last one left behind will not be happy.

Nan Huaifeng pursed his lips and was silent, he seemed to understand why Ziyu was so reluctant to laugh, and he didn't have any feelings. She is unwilling to forgive herself, closes all her emotions, and refuses to be courted and close to others. Isolated from the world in her own way, she always lived in pain.

"After I mastered the ability, a lot of people wanted to recruit me, but I turned them all down. I still try my best to survive every day, I don't want to make my life easy, but I don't want to die either. ”

Jiang Ziyu lowered her eyes, she quietly recalled everything that happened in her previous life, but this time the memories seemed to bring a little different emotions.

"Don't be unable to get along with yourself, maybe your family is like you, living well somewhere in the world." Nan Huaifeng understands her, watching her relatives die tragically one by one, but she can't do anything about her sadness.

When he had the ability, this sadness turned into deep self-blame and remorse, and he had this feeling before.

"Before I got to know you, I had a lot of regrets. regret that I had to go to the border and didn't come back to see my mother for the last time, regretted that I failed to protect the imperial brother, and regretted that I didn't take care of An'er and made him suffer so much. ”

Nan Huaifeng's deep voice was very magnetic, Jiang Ziyu looked up at him slightly, Nan Huaifeng also lowered his eyes and looked back, and suddenly chuckled: "But it's useless for me to regret it, the past is the truth." Instead of dwelling on regret all the time, think carefully about what you will do in the future. ”

Jiang Ziyu's eyes moved slightly, Nan Huaifeng bent over and supported the armrest with his arms, looked at the starry sky in the distance, and said: "We have all lost the most important person in our lives, so we should cherish everything in our eyes even more, this is the stability they gave us in exchange for their lives, if we don't treat them well, won't we let them down?" ”

Nan Huaifeng looked at her sideways, his eyes seemed to be as vast and deep as a sea of stars, Jiang Ziyu looked up at the starry sky and laughed softly.

"yes, it's time to put it down." Jiang Ziyu turned around and leaned his back against the handrail, and softly hummed the ballad that his mother used to coax her children in her previous life.

Nan Huaifeng listened quietly with his face up, the stars in the sky were reflected in the river, and the water waves flowed like the Milky Way in the nine heavens.

She wants to let go of the heaviness of the past and reconcile with herself.

"Slow down."

Jiang Ziyu ran wantonly with a smile, looked up at the stars in the sky, pulled her skirt and danced on the grass, Nan Huaifeng was afraid that she would fall, so she reminded her a few times.

Of course, Nan Huaifeng saw tears flashing in her eyes, and he stood aside quietly, letting Ziyu indulge himself for a while. It is a painful thing to let go of the past, and it is a very beautiful thing to welcome the future.

She was happy, she was sad, she regretted and hopeful. This kind of Jiang Ziyu finally has a real human touch, and he is no longer the person who always looks cold and seems to have nothing to do with this world.

"Didn't you have the strength to run wildly just now?" Nan Huaifeng doted on the little man in his arms, and deliberately teased her with words.

Jiang Ziyu stretched out his hand to wrap his arms around Nan Huaifeng's neck, and said with a smile: "Naturally, you don't have the strength when you're tired of running, anyway, you have a lot of strength, and you can't go far back." She became more and more dependent on Nan Huaifeng, perhaps because her joys, sorrows, and sorrows were taught by him again.

Nan Huaifeng didn't feel tired when he hugged her, and Ziyu didn't sink either.

"I have a lot of strength, not only can I carry you back, but I also have the strength to do something else." Nan Huaifeng's eyes were deep, Jiang Ziyu raised his eyebrows, didn't think about anything else, and asked casually: "What else is going on?" ”

This question was simple and casual, and it was not good for Nan Huaifeng to continue, so he could only say stupidly: "It's nothing, I just want to go back and prepare bathing water for you." ”

Jiang Ziyu sighed, yawned and laughed at him over there: "Who asked you to take Xingyuzi away, you deserve to suffer yourself." ”

"Can't you see that Zi Po likes Xingyu?" Nan Huaifeng lowered his head and asked, Jiang Ziyu's facial features wrinkled, expressing his surprise. She jumped out of Nan Huaifeng's arms and said in disbelief, "Can't you?" Zipo never mentioned it to me. ”

"There is really no normal one in your courtyard, when the master's reaction is slow, what about his subordinates, he likes it and hides it carefully, and he is stupid and simple when he is liked." Nan Huaifeng was also very curious, why did he transfer these two people to Qingyu Pavilion in the first place.

Jiang Ziyu glanced slightly, and muttered: "Who is slow to react?" "She has an ability to react much faster than others, and it's stupid to say that she reacts slowly.

Nan Huaifeng sighed silently, reached out and grabbed his stupid lady, or no matter - after all, she is still young, even if she understands, she can't really do it.

Even if she is a lady with a good name, she has to wait for her to grow up, He Zhiqing said that some things are done too early to hurt the body and leave the patient. He didn't want to let Ziyu have any problems for his momentary refreshment.

Jiang Ziyu obviously didn't know that Nan Huaifeng had thought so much in her head, and she was still happy and surprised by the madness and indulgence just now. Maybe it was the volatilization of the wine she had just drunk that made her head swell for a while.

But there's nothing wrong with that, she's the one who has the right to laugh now.

Jiang Ziyu glanced back at Nan Huaifeng, his eyes were full of affection.

The two returned to their courtyard, and Nan Huaifeng really went to prepare water for Jiang Ziyu to bathe. The dignified regent is squatting in front of the stove without an image at the moment, seriously starting a fire.

"Will you?" Jiang Ziyu squatted beside him and stretched out his hand to help him, Nan Huaifeng pulled a chair from the side and said, "You sit, there are wooden thorns on this dry firewood, beware of hurting." ”

Nan Huaifeng neatly laid out the firewood, put some hay in it, and said: "When I used to march in the army, I often lit a fire with the soldiers, and it was not too difficult. ”

Jiang Ziyu sat in the chair with his legs crossed, Nan Huaifeng saw that he was uncomfortable sitting like this in a skirt, and said with a smile: "Go and take off the clothes outside, it's just you and me, and it's okay to wear underwear." ”

"You can take a bath in a while, and what are you going to do?" Jiang Ziyu leaned back in the chair and was too lazy to move, Nan Huaifeng smiled doting and helplessly, concentrating on burning the fire a little more.

It didn't take long for the bathing water to be ready, Nan Huaifeng moved the wooden barrel in, and when he tested the water temperature to confirm that there was no problem, he let Jiang Ziyu in.

Jiang Ziyu soaked in the warm water to relieve fatigue, this day is really tired enough, after sitting in the carriage for so long, he came to the palace to rest and began to catch fish.

But Nan Huaifeng seems to have done more than her, right? He was taking care of her all the way, and there was nothing she needed to do, she had been raised a little squeamish recently, if she was tired in her previous life, it was nothing.

Jiang Ziyu thought a lot in her mind, the warm water and warm steam made her eyelids sink more and more, and finally she leaned on the wooden barrel and fell asleep.

Nan Huaifeng guarded outside for a while, and when he saw that there was no movement inside, he couldn't stand still. He walked over to the screen, thought about it for a long time, and finally decided to take a look.

As a regent, you have to be cautious when you look at your own lady, and this will definitely make people laugh out of their big teeth. But Nan Huaifeng didn't have time to think so much, he saw that Ziyu was already asleep, looked at the blurred figure under the water waves, and subconsciously swallowed his saliva.

He just wanted to open his mouth to wake up Jiang Ziyu, but he hesitated for a moment and was a little reluctant. After struggling inwardly for a long time, I decided to take it upon myself to catch people.

Place the prepared cloth on the screen and slowly put your hands into the tub.

"What are you doing?"

Jiang Ziyu suddenly opened his eyes, and when he was still in a daze, he saw Nan Huaifeng looking at the water cautiously.

"I ...... Seeing that you are asleep, I am going to carry you out. Nan Huaifeng paused here with his hands awkwardly, it didn't seem wrong to continue to hug people, and he felt too weak when he retracted it directly.

Jiang Ziyu glanced at him, reached out and tore the towel off his shoulder, raised his chin and said, "Go out and wait." ”

"Oh." Nan Huaifeng retracted his hand and went outside to find a cloth to wipe his hands, Jiang Ziyu went out of the bathtub with a calm face, got dressed and walked out.

"Pour the water from the tub." Jiang Ziyu gave another order before going out, Nan Huaifeng thought about it, took off his essence, and washed himself with her water.

It's too troublesome to boil the water again, but fortunately, the water is not too cold at this time, and you can wash it if you make do.

Nan Huaifeng was still comforting himself in his hand, and he was carried away for a while, and he didn't hear the footsteps gradually walking in.

"You...... What are you doing? Jiang Ziyu was still carrying a pot of hot water in his hand, and when he heard the sound of water when he just went out, he knew that he was lazy and used her water to bathe. Afraid that the water was too cold, she went to the kitchen to bring a pot of hot water.

As soon as Nan Huaifeng heard her voice, he immediately stopped, and sat there awkwardly looking at the person with a complicated face in front of him.

"How did you get in?" Nan Huaifeng's expression was not very good at this time, as if he was constipated. He has grown up for 20 years, and there has never been a day when he has been so humiliated again and again as he is today.

Jiang Ziyu shook the water in his hand, and seemed to know what Nan Huaifeng was doing just now, so he didn't continue to ask, but just walked over and added water to it with a faint expression.

Just when Nan Huaifeng thought she was going out, Jiang Ziyu suddenly bent over and approached him, and then felt a touch of softness on his lips. Nan Huaifeng subconsciously closed his eyes and felt that not only was the water hot, but his face was also hot.

Jiang Ziyu's black hair fell into the water and drifted gently and softly, Nan Huaifeng's nose was full of aroma and sweetness, he opened his eyes slightly and glanced at it, Jiang Ziyu was also looking at him, and that smile completely broke the strings of reason in his brain.

"Okay, okay, you go out quickly, what's that, don't carry the kettle, put it down." Nan Huaifeng hurriedly pushed Jiang Ziyu away, Jiang Ziyu glanced at the bath bucket, ignored the fluctuation, turned around and left as if nothing had happened.

Nan Huaifeng leaned on the bathtub in frustration, he was really embarrassed just now, not only did he not control it in front of her...... also let her find out, who said that his Ziyu didn't understand these things, look at the eyes that she knew when she just left, it was clear that she understood everything!

Well, his reputation was ruined. What is invincible and has no taboos, what regent has no ban on generals, they are all ruined in front of Jiang Ziyu.