Chapter 119: Whoever lets go, who lives
As soon as Cheng Jin returned home, he heard Cheng Nian eagerly tell him about going to the Aquarium and eating KFC with Ren Sinian today.
Looking at Cheng Nian's excited little face, Cheng Jin couldn't help but smile, but in this smile, there is another layer of deep meaning, which is an expectation for future life, or specifically for someone in the future.
"And is my little darling happy?"
Cheng Jin patted Cheng Nian's little shoulder, which was trembling with excitement, and asked very gently.
"Happy, Nian'er is so happy!"
Cheng Jin's gentle gesture made Cheng Nian even more happy, and his little white face smiled as if it had been smeared with sunshine, sweet and sweet.
"Then if Dad knows that Aunt Ren is free, Dad will send you there, okay?" Cheng Jin said as he put Cheng Nian's little hand into his hand and asked, "Nian'er, do you like Aunt Ren?" โ
After Cheng Jin asked, Cheng Nian nodded quickly without even thinking about it, and said, "I like it, Nian'er likes Aunt Ren, and Nian'er can go to Aunt Ren in the future, right?" โ
Cheng Nian heard Cheng Jin say that he would send him to Ren Sinian in the future, so he naturally became more excited, and his little face turned red, like a fresh little apple, which was very pleasing.
"Hmm!"
Cheng Jin smiled meaningfully, his "um" is the idea of letting Cheng Nian simply have fun with Ren Sinian, he wants to make this family card more secure, and in the future, it can enhance the relationship between him and Ren Sinian, and it is best to ...... The broken mirror is reunited.
Cheng Jin was thinking about how to get back Ren Sinian's wounded heart from here, but in a quiet corner, there was still a person who was also sad because he was thinking about Ren Sinian!
Leng Yi was standing at the bottom of the Ren Building, he had been wandering around for a while, looking at the familiar window above that was still lit, he was hesitating whether to go up or just from here...... Keep waiting.
Maybe tonight, my sister ...... You can go back and live!
Since he started learning English, Ren Sinian has never returned to that villa, he is afraid that what he has been worried about for a long time has finally happened, Ren Sinian doesn't want him anymore, leaving him there alone, not wanting to see him anymore.
Leng Yi really can't believe that this is the truth, but this is the truth, every night, he can't sleep soundly, and he can't close his eyes until the early hours of the morning, for fear that he won't hear the sound of Ren Sinian entering the house.
But this is such a waiting, and he didn't wait for Ren Sinian to come, he was very scared, and he had nightmares every day in the past few days, dreaming that Ren Sinian would ignore him anymore, and when the two of them met, they didn't say a word to him, when he was a stranger, as if he hadn't said anything about love, he ...... I don't love it anymore.
He also called Ren Sinian a few times, but every time the call had just begun, Ren Sinian hung up the phone because he had something on his side, making him speechless, and he couldn't even say what he could change if he was wrong.
His neck was sore, and he reluctantly lowered his head, kicked the pebbles under his feet, and hesitated whether to go up or ...... Get back.
At this time, in the window that Leng Yi was looking at, the person behind the glass was also looking downstairs.
The thin figure downstairs, how could she not see it? It's just that she can't call it, if she calls now, won't the efforts of more than a month be in vain?
Leng Yi's youth has just begun, and the good years are still to come, Ren Sinian really doesn't want Leng Yi to tie her heart to her like this. They...... They're not suitable!
From the occasion of acquaintance, to the worry and distress that should not have been there later, to the present...... This unmanageable situation, I really don't know if she is soft-hearted and can't be ruthless, or if this entanglement itself is reluctant!
Hey, I hope this matter will pass soon, and she can go back after she has helped with what she has to do, and everything here, here, everything here, can be forgotten, right?
Also, Cheng Jin, this Cheng Jin is really getting more and more mature, he will play the emotional card, and use Xiao Cheng Nian as a stepping stone, I really don't know whether to say that he is despicable or ......, but doesn't a person as big as him understand the truth that it is difficult to recover from the water?
Just when Ren Sinian was thinking about Cheng Jin, the person who gave him a headache, Cheng Jin called at this time.
"Mr. Ren......, no, I think I should still call you Xin'er......"
On the phone, before Cheng Jin's words with a hint of excitement were finished, Ren Sinian interrupted him mercilessly, "Mr. Cheng, please make it clear, I'm not Xin'er, my name is Ren Sinian, I want to ......, out of respect for my dead husband, it's better for you to call me Mr. Ren!" โ
Ren Sinian's words were very calm, not angry or happy, just so faint, like cold water, but absolutely cold to the heart.
"You...... What do you mean? Xin'er, I know I'm sorry for you, but after so many years, can't we have a good talk together? You know...... I still love you! โ
Cheng Jin's words were eager and excited, but Ren Sinian still gave him such a flat tone, "Mr. Cheng, I ask you to remember your own words, you also said that it was back then, I don't want to mention it now, in ten years, I have a marriage, I love my husband very much, I never thought about remarrying, so, please don't waste any more thoughts, if you really want to find a better stepmother for Xiao Nian, I can tell you clearly, I am not in the scope of your candidate!" โ
Ren Sinian's words were crisp and crisp, and after he finished speaking, he hung up the phone directly regardless of how Cheng Jin replied.
When she walked to the glass window again and wanted to look at Leng Yi downstairs, she found that there was no longer that thin shadow under the dim street lamp......
"Sister, are you looking at me?"
I thought that this kid was gone, but I didn't expect him to ...... It's coming up.
In fact, Leng Yi had been standing at the door of Ren Sinian's office for a while, but he saw Ren Sinian answering the phone, so he didn't make a sound.
What Ren Sinian and Cheng Jin said, of course, he also listened to it word for word, if there was no faint joy in his heart, it would be impossible, most of the things he was worried about can now be unloaded, it turns out that his sister ...... I don't love Cheng Jin anymore, so ...... Does this mean that he still has a chance?
"You haven't gone back yet, have you?"
I don't know why Ren Si can't even say anything too heavy as soon as he sees Leng Yi's face, and it's even more difficult not to be able to treat Cheng Jin's hard-hearted heart.
"Sister, aren't you going back with me? You haven't been back in a long time......"
Leng Yi asked in a low voice, his starry eyes blinked, with a hint of pleading, and looked at Ren Sinian.
"No, I'm going to be very busy during this time, so I won't go back yet, you can go back by yourself!"
Ren Sinian was ruthless, didn't look at Leng Yi, and said back to him like this.
"Well, then...... I'll stay with my sister, I'll ...... I can't sleep when I go back! I might be able to help from here! โ
Leng Yi didn't want to go back to the empty room alone, that lonely and cold place made him feel that there seemed to be nothing to put his heart in this world, except for his heart, he didn't want to find anyone, and the place where he wanted to stay was the place he wanted to stay.
Ren Sinian looked at Leng Yi, who was tall and thin standing at the door, and really didn't know what to say to Leng Yi, or the delicate heart of a young man, how good was it...... How hard is this hurting him?
"How's your English going?"
In desperation, Ren Sinian had to think of something else, and pulled Leng Yi, who had been standing at the door, in and asked him to sit on the sofa.
"It's okay!"
Leng Yi smiled shyly, he owed a lot of English, and he couldn't make up for it in one or two days
"Learn slowly, Leng Yi, I've always wanted to talk to you, but it's just ...... I never found the time, but today I finally ...... With free time, we ...... Let's talk about it, okay? You used to make me coffee, but today I'll make you a cup! โ
After Ren Sinian finished speaking, he turned around and went to the back room.
Ren Sinian's office is a suite, in addition to the main hall of the office outside, there is also a secret lounge inside, and you can't really see the subtle mystery behind the screen if you don't look carefully.
"Sister, I'll come!"
Leng Yi saw that Ren Sinian got up, and hurriedly followed, but he was gently pushed out by Ren Sinian, "Go, sit, I must come by myself this time!" โ
Leng Yi looked at Ren Sinian's smiling eyes, but at the same time they also flashed with incomparable firmness, so he didn't say anything more, so he could only retreat into the main hall and wait for Ren Sinian's coffee.
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A few minutes later, Ren Sinian walked out of it with a delicate tray, she slowly walked to the sofa, put the tray on the glass chair, and put one of the cups in front of Leng Yi with her own hands, "Xiao Yi, I know that you don't like to drink pure coffee, so I added milk and sugar to you, you can taste it!" โ
After Leng Yi listened to Ren Sinian's words, he hurriedly took the coffee handed over by Ren Sinian with both hands, carefully took it in the palm of his hand, blew it slowly, and took a small sip, without the bitterness he imagined, with a faint milky fragrance and a strong sweetness.
"Is it good?"
At the same time, Ren Sinian also took his cup and sat on the sofa adjacent to the place where Leng Yi was sitting.
"Well, it's delicious!"
Leng Yi smiled heartily and nodded slightly.
He has never touched something like coffee, because he is disgusted with the taste and the color, but I don't know why he tastes it tonight, it doesn't seem to be as bitter and unpalatable as he imagined. This...... What a strangeness!
"That's good, Xiaoyi, what do you think of me as a person?"
I know what I want to talk about with Leng Yi, but I still don't know how to say it, so that I can say it clearly, so that I can't help but hurt each other's feelings, and when Ren Sinian thinks about the wording, he tries to be tactful and subtle.
"Well, my sister is the best woman in the world!"
Leng Yi didn't even think about it, and said this sentence without hesitation, this sentence had taken root in his heart, no matter what, he couldn't forget Ren Sinian's kindness to him.
"So what do you like about me? Is it because I'm good? I can also be nice to others, and you will meet better women than me in the future, huh? โ
Ren Sinian smiled gently, and looked at Leng Yi's eyes full of softness, in her heart, Leng Yi has always been a child who has not been seriously exposed to society, has not started life and love, and has been suppressed into a dark corner, where does such a child know what love is and what is good!
"Like is like, I don't care if you are good or bad to others, I only know that you are the best to me, no one is better than you to me!"
Leng Yi's stubborn appearance is very cute, with a pair of black eyes, sparkling, it seems that Ren Sinian can cry if he doesn't believe him.
"Yes, as you said, then ......, do you remember, you owe me a condition, I will tell him now, five years, I will give you five years to start another path, not to be anyone's puppet, to use the knowledge and experience I have taught you, to touch society, to taste life, if after five years, you find that the woman you love is still me, then go to France to find me! Let's start all over again."
It's not an opportunity, it's not an excuse, Ren Sinian just wants to give Leng Yi a motivation, so that Leng Yi can see what is outside the sky and what is a person outside the world, and she, she never thought that after five years, Leng Yi would really go to him.
In Ren Sinian's thoughts, five years is enough to change a person. In the past five years, he has met her one or two Ren Sinian!
At that time, he will understand what love is, and at that time, he will also know which person he should cherish in his life, no matter who it is, in short, it should not be her missing.
For example, she herself, she always thought that she only had Cheng Jin in her heart, and she would not fall in love with a second man again, let alone have any marriage with a second man, but in ten years, isn't everything just a passing thing?
Now, no matter who she says to her, she will tell others that she is Hansi's wife, not Cheng Jin's first love.
She is not the girl in Leng Yi's life, she is just a woman who has seen too many vicissitudes of the floating world, she is not suitable for Leng Yi.
And she Ren Sinian is not the kind of domineering woman, she knows when to let someone live, and reluctantly agrees, there will be no good results.
"Five years? At that time...... Has my sister forgotten me? โ
At this time, Leng Yi still didn't understand Ren Sinian's hard work, he still thought that Ren Sinian was tired of playing with him, and wanted to drive him away like other women, no matter how much he paid his emotions, would he not be able to keep this elf-like woman after all!
What about the good ones that used to be? If it's just for fun, then why be so nice to him, why don't you treat him as a plaything from the beginning like other women, why pour a bucket of ruthless cold water on him after giving him affection?
"I won't forget you, Leng Yi, even if you don't come to me after five years, I still remember that I have a younger brother named Leng Yi, I will never forget you, during this time, you still have to hurry up and learn English, I have already contacted that school abroad, you will study for two years first, and when you finish your studies, you will know life...... There are not only me in life, but there are many, many ...... that are worth pursuing and people and things that you care about! โ
For a while, Ren Sinian didn't know how to teach Leng Yi his outlook on life and worldview, she just wanted Leng Yi not to regret it, what she decided at the age of twenty didn't represent this life!
"This ...... So that's it, okay, sister, I'll listen to you, five years, sister, only five years, you ...... Don't forget me! โ
Leng Yi put the coffee cup in his hand on the glass table, and his hand was tightly pulled on Ren Sinian's arm, the hot light in his eyes could not be forgotten by Ren Sinian for the rest of his life.
Five years, this five years...... It's going to change a lot!
It's just that Ren Sinian can be sure that if she can survive this catastrophe smoothly, in the past five years, then she will still be her, or the idle woman who guards in the White Camellia Villa, not for anyone to change, and live the life she wants. She won't change anymore, and she can't afford to change anymore, that's all...... It's not a good thing to watch the flowers bloom and fall like this, and live to the end of life.
Let go of Cheng Jin's hand, don't want to go over, let go of a cold memory, don't ask about the future!