Chapter 20: The Past and the Present
"Daddy, you're back!"
At ten o'clock in the evening, Cheng Jincai left the gorgeous reception banquet and drove back to his home in the 'Xinxin Community'.
As soon as he opened the door, he heard this timid voice, and then, his brow couldn't help frowning slightly, and he said in a deep voice, "Well, why haven't you slept so late?" ”
"I ...... I want to wait for you to come back! ”
In the dark, a small figure rolled the handrails on the wheels of the wheelchair and slowly slid to the place where Cheng Jin was changing his shoes.
"Wait for me? Is there something wrong? ”
After Cheng Jin finished changing his shoes, he threw his bag into the sofa, and his eyes never glanced at the child who called him "Dad".
"I didn't ...... Nothing, Daddy, God...... Tomorrow's weather forecast says the weather will be ...... Yes, can you take me outside? ”
Cheng Jin could hear that this voice was full of pleading and cowardice, this kid was afraid of him, he knew it.
Whether you are afraid or begging, he ...... He didn't care, he never thought about what the child remembered about him, or what feelings he had for him.
In Cheng Jin's heart, he was already very merciful if he didn't throw him away at the beginning.
"You're not well, so you'd better lie down at home!"
After Cheng Jin finished saying this, he took off his coat and went to the bathroom.
The child looked at the bathroom door quietly, tears flashing in his melancholy eyes, and in the blink of an eye, tears were rolling down his face.
Since the weather got warmer, he was thinking about how to say this to Cheng Jin, and now it was June, so he came up with it, but ......, Cheng Jin broke his fantasy of thinking about it for two seasons with just one sentence.
Until now, Cheng Nian didn't understand why Cheng Jin was obviously his father...... But I hate him so much! I didn't even want to say a word to him, let alone smile at him, was it just because I ...... He...... Was he a man who was destined to be in a wheelchair from birth?
When he was young, he was not very sensible, but when he first understood the meaning of his mother, he pulled his father's sleeve and asked where his mother was, and the stern expression that his father threw at him made him immediately cry in fright.
This expression was too profound, and since then, the very young Cheng Nian has understood that his father doesn't like him, and his father doesn't like him even more when he mentions his mother. But why is all this?
When Cheng Jin came out of the bathroom, the small figure had disappeared into the living room.
Cheng Jin's heart was not comfortable with him like this, but Cheng Jin didn't know why, he obviously wanted to control himself and treat him better, but he ...... As long as I saw his face, everything I had thought of changed from warmth to cruelty, and it was difficult to restrain myself.
Cheng Jin hates Cheng Nian's face very much, this face doesn't look like him, and it doesn't look like Cheng Nian's mother.
Although Cheng Jin doesn't like his ex-wife either, he ...... If Cheng Nian's face looks like her, it won't make Cheng Jin unable to suppress the resentment in his heart every time he sees him.
How can he accept this strange face, this face that symbolizes shame?
Cheng Jin sighed, returned to his bedroom, and opened the heavy curtain that separated him from the bed.
Behind the curtain, a jade statue of a female statue stood up, under the dim light halo, the jade statue emitted a soft light around the body, and the smiling eyes, when looking at Cheng Jin, were as soft as the light reflected.
"Xin'er, when I attended the banquet tonight, I always felt as if you were right next to me, but I ...... But I can't see you, your smile seems to be on my face, why, I can't touch it! Xin'er, don't you want to forgive me, what I did at the beginning! Xin'er, you may not believe ......, at that time, how much your heart hurts, how much my heart hurts! There was a girl in the company, who looked almost exactly like you, and I always felt that she was you, and it must be God's mercy to make you come back to me, this time...... I'm not going to make that mistake 10 years ago, I'm going to ...... I want you by my side! I want us to be together! ”
Cheng Jin sat in front of the jade carving, talking to himself, there was a faint sadness in the depths of his eyes, and even tears had flashed out.
The pain at this time, the love at that time, when you encounter it again, can you grasp it, will it be the same as the last time......
Cheng Jin slowly clenched his fists, and when the tears fell, he was already secretly swearing in his heart that he would never miss it again, he must get the happiness he had been looking forward to for many years, no matter what means he used, he would win it!