"Sit down!" Master Miao Fan pointed to the futon on the side.

Xu Shu obediently moved over and sat upright, and called again, "Master......"

The tail note was slightly long, so that Master Miaofan couldn't help but pause when he turned his hand holding the rosary, "What's wrong?" I haven't seen you for a year, and you've changed sex? ”

Xu Shu smiled, "I miss Master!" ”

Master Miao Fan smiled a little, "If you really want to be a teacher, you should have come to see as a teacher a long time ago!" ”

Xu Shu paused, and then explained, "Because I know that Master is fine, I can't bear to disturb Master!" ”

Knowing that she was fine, he didn't come to see her, so what did Xu Shu do when she returned to Beijing for so long? Naturally, I went to see those who were uneasy!

Affection is a good thing, but for Xu Shu, it is a hurdle that she can't cross in her life, and she knocks on it when she comes back, which time is not the head of the kowtow and the blood flows! Now that she has changed her identity, it is equivalent to a new life, is she still planted on this?

Master Miao Fan couldn't help but be a little worried, "Being a teacher has always been good, but you don't seem to be like that!" ”

Xu Shu nodded tiredly, "I've encountered a lot of things in this year, and I can't tell them one by one, it's a nightmare to touch them!" Sometimes I'd rather die in that nightmare...... At first, I thought that when I left, I would say goodbye, I thought that I would be in the middle of this life...... But I didn't expect that creation would make people go around and around, and I finally returned to this place...... "Back to this suffocating city."

At that time, when he went north, Xu Shu had the idea that he would never return, what is worth coming back? There is nothing worth remembering in the capital...... All she wanted was a moment of freedom for the rest of her life, but fate finally put her back in a cage, all of which was just a luxury, and the sky of the caged bird was always an unattainable dream.

"If you come, you will be safe!"

Xu Shu smiled bitterly, "That's the only way!" She took off the Buddhist beads on her wrist and twisted them in her hand, and the warm wooden Buddhist beads ironed the cold of her fingers with the skin on her wrist, and the bitterness on her face gradually dissipated.

"Master, I'm Miss Zheng Jiajiu now!" Xu Shu murmured.

"I know!" Master Miao Fan's tone was calm.

"Master really knows everything!" Xu Shu sighed.

"Ever since the queen courted you, I expected that there would be such a day! The queen's goal at the beginning was to be a teacher, and you helped to be a teacher! ”

To be honest, Mrs. Miao Fan is actually not very willing to have anything to do with the palace, but how can people live in red dust, how can they not be contaminated with a little dust?

"I'm selfish...... she and the queen didn't talk about who took advantage of whom, but they both valued each other's usefulness, and they also gave birth to a little friendship when they established a long-term cooperative relationship.

Master Miao Fan chuckled, "If a person is selfless, then he is a Buddha!" Even a Buddha has the selfishness of a Buddha! ”

"Master knows that the apprentice has a lot of unbearable things, and he knows that the apprentice has done a lot of things that should not be done, why does he still indulge the apprentice so much......"

"Child, you're in a good place! Your so-called unbearable is just your delusion, and what you so-called shouldn't be really shouldn't? People live a lifetime of suffering, so why bother to trouble? ”

"But sometimes I can't help but think, if I don't do this, if I don't do that, will some things end differently?"

"Don't remember the past, don't look forward to the future, don't live up to the present, and get the original intention!"

Xu Shu smiled bitterly, "Master, you are right, the troubles are all found by yourself, since I have made a decision, I should go forward, it is not my nature to give up halfway, and it is useless to look forward and backward!" ”

"If you know, why do you keep looking?"

"But people are always contradictory...... Xu Shu showed a trace of confusion on her face, "I know that I shouldn't do it, but I can't help it, I know that it is a moth to the fire, but I still can't forget the warmth of that spark!" ”

Master Miao Fan couldn't help but open her eyes and look sideways at Xu Shu, and was obviously stunned when she saw Xu Shu's smooth face without any covering, "You raise your head!" ”

Xu Shu looked up at Mrs. Miaofan.

"Okay?"

"It's coming!"

Xu Shu stretched out her left hand straight in front of her eyes, and then stretched out her right hand to touch the fingers of her left hand, "I can see such a vague shadow, I can vaguely see some colors, but through a thick layer of fog, I can't see it really!" ”

"What kind of medicine are you taking?" Master Miao Fan put down the rosary and said with a straight face.

Xu Shu took out the medicine bottle in his arms, "It was prescribed by an old man called Mr. Qin, maybe the master still recognizes this Mr. Qin......"

Mrs. Miaofan took the medicine bottle and smelled it, poured out another pill and crushed it in my heart to take a look, then took it into my mouth and chewed it, Xu Shu hurriedly handed over the handkerchief and asked Mrs. Miaofan to spit out the medicine residue.

Master Miaofan wiped his mouth and said lightly, "This recipe is a little more ordinary, I'll change it for you!" Master Miao Fan took the medicine bottle and suddenly asked, "You never cared about this before!" "In the past, Xu Shu didn't even care about her life, how could she ever care about those eyes.

Xu Shu didn't hide it, "If someone asks, I will fulfill him!" ”

Master Miao Fan was stunned suddenly, the thin and lonely child had finally grown up......

"You've finally grown up!" Master Miaofan suddenly smiled with relief, Xu Shu finally had the feelings that a normal girl should have.

"Yes, I finally figured it out! Some things don't come because of my resistance, some people don't exist because of my avoidance, and the way to solve the problem is to face the problem! ”

The girl's stubbornness and shame were fully revealed at this moment, and Master Miao Fan was too angry, "When you treat him as a problem, it's your problem!" ”

Xu Shu blushed slightly, "I just think we are very similar...... We are all hopelessly paranoid, obsessed with doing what we think is right, and never caring what others think of it...... Never consider each other's feelings......"

She and Zhou Jin are actually the same kind of people, people like them are actually people who are selfish to the extreme, and what they are trying to do is just for themselves in the final analysis......

"Sometimes when I see him, I think of myself, we all live too hard, probably I don't want to be too cruel to myself after all, life is suffering, a moment of joy can comfort the rest of my life......"

"You have a long rest of your life!" Master Miao Fan looked at Xu Shu in a daze.

Xu Shu touched the corners of her eyes, she was a little wet, and couldn't help laughing at herself, "What joy is life, and what is the pain of death!" It doesn't matter how long or short it is! ”

The sleeve hung down, and something slipped from the sleeve, which just fell in front of Mrs. Miaofan, Mrs. Miaofan picked it up and took a look:

"Flesh and blood are not close, mandarin ducks are separated, seeking has not arrived, hopes are lost, it is difficult, and there is a dilemma."

This is a team under the draw.