My mother kept putting vegetables in my bowl, and we barely exchanged words during that meal, and even the eye contact was pitiful. A mother and daughter don't know what they are hiding, panicking and trying to escape from the embarrassment, but they can't bear to let go of each other.

In this familiar place, I was like a guest, picking up dishes and chopsticks without stretching out a hand. After the meal, my mother poured me a glass of boiled water, and I sat there holding the cup like that, and my mother happened to be within reach of my hand.

When I later thought back to that time, I thought of a passage:

You are like the stars at my fingertips,

but it is like a cloud that walks in the sky.

I'm ready to caress your shining face,

only to find that there was no ladder to climb back and forth.

I panicked my feet,

But suddenly I saw you behind the clouds,

So far, so close,

A lonely heart.

My mother and I are exactly like this, two people who echo each other from near and far, loneliness, is always a substitute for chicken soup for the soul.

As I was leaving, my mother suddenly took some money out of her bag and rolled it into a small tube and stuffed it into my school uniform pocket. I didn't refuse, although I saw that my mother had taken everything out of her bag except for coins, although, only a few dozen dollars. I turned and went downstairs, and my mother went out to see me off. When I met the neighbors again, they teased me and asked when I would be back, but I didn't say anything. The mother played a round next to her: "Ah oil, Mu Xi is studying with her baby at my friend's house, it's good." Don't go back, go out and see the world, I'm fine, Ge yes (isn't it)? "I saw some of the neighbors pouting, but they all shook their big cattails and didn't say anything more.

My mother sent me out of the alley, and I stopped under the old sycamore tree at the mouth of the alley. The leaves were so dense, but they couldn't hide the haze in my mother's heart, maybe the sun wasn't dazzling enough, and my mother, like that, blended alone with the old alley, sliding into the sad memories of childhood.

Without saying goodbye to my mother, I crossed the street and headed for school. I didn't dare to look back at the thin woman standing alone in the street, so I buried my head and quickened my pace so that I could quickly disappear from my mother's sight.

After arriving at the class, Cao Cancan had already left. I also left some food on the table. Kan Tao was lying on the table taking a nap, and was woken up by the sound of me moving the chair, so he muttered: "You can eat the food on the table, it is estimated that it is cold." ”

"I've eaten it." Kan Tao didn't say anything more, and fell asleep again.

After every now and then, the class bell rang. There has been a time that lasts for two classes, and I feel that Kan Tao seems to have something to say, but he wants to stop talking. I asked Kan Tao once if he had anything to say, and Kan Tao shook his head. I'll give up.

When school was about to end, Kan Tao finally couldn't hold it back: "Cough, that Cao Muxi, you went to your mother's place at noon!" I was shocked, and I turned my head and replied, yes, what's wrong?" No, nothing. That, Cao Muxi, if you have something on your mind in the future and no one can say, uh, you, you can find me. No, I mean that you can talk to me. Of course, I said if, you need it, and, uh, willing to talk to me. ”

"What's on your mind?"

"I'm just giving you an analogy, you know? I said it casually. Kan Tao's words made me inexplicable. I don't know what happened at noon, so Kan Tao suddenly said something that sounded incoherent to me, and he was hesitant.

I snorted and laughed, "You have a fever!" What nonsense? It's a mess. ”

"Hey, you don't understand, just assume I didn't say it. Oh, by the way, that, Cao Cancan won't come over to eat at noon tomorrow. ”

"Huh? Why? "I'm very surprised, it stands to reason that Cao Cancan's enthusiasm for Kan Tao is like a carnivore just staring at a prey on the grassland, the freshness is still very strong, besides, I can't understand the temper and temperament of that eldest lady, how can she be a stubborn and stubborn person, how can she stop here?

"What, why? Yes! Do you want her to come every day? Cut! Kan Tao rolled my eyes, and when he put on his schoolbag, he casually said, "I don't know." Then he turned around and walked away.

I was dizzy by what Kan Tao said, and I was timidly meeting Cao Cancan, but when I went out of the class door to see her, she was no different, but she was more excited than usual.

"Cao Muxi, I can tell you, starting at noon tomorrow, I won't accompany you to dinner. However, I'll order the meal for you, after all, my mother asked me to take care of you. After saying that, he shook the schoolbag on his shoulder a few times, and jumped playfully twice.

In fact, although Cao Cancan's personality is too flamboyant, the advantages and disadvantages of her personality are also extremely obvious. For example, she likes and varies, and there are even some things that you don't have to ask so much to know if she's sunny or cloudy today. Later, when I entered the society, I saw too much hypocrisy, but I sighed that Cao Cancan's straightforward character is actually really valuable, and the value lies in a true word.

The answers I didn't get from Kan Tao were still in the clouds and fog in Cao Cancan, but they aroused my curiosity.

"Uh, why? So, then where are you going to eat? ”

"Where to eat? Haha, I'm going to eat in the United States. You're funny, where else can I eat, of course I ate at school. But, hahahahaha" Cao Cancan said and laughed.

Then he leaned back a little and said to me mysteriously: "Kan Tao said, don't let me go to your class, he will go to me." Hee-hee. ”

"Kan Tao?!"

"Hey, Cao Muxi, if you tell me that you really think that I have been going to eat for you in the past few days, I will be speechless to death."

"Ah, I know it's not against me."

"yes, then why are you opening your mouth so wide? Still Kan Tao? It's not Kan Tao, it's still Wang Tao and Liu Tao. Cao Cancan said disdainfully.

"Not really, it's just, it's just, I didn't think of it..."

"Didn't think of anything? Didn't expect me to like him? Like a little boy? Hahaha, I guessed it a long time ago. Kan Tao went to school late, one year younger than me. Besides, who said that men must be older than women? Anyway, Kan Tao is the most handsome boy I've seen so far. Those in our class, I'll tell you, like dinosaurs, I'll go, don't mention it. Hey, if I hadn't been in junior high school, I would have wanted to drop out of your class. Hahaha. This broken school, hey, Kan Tao is my link to continue to be with this relationship. When Cao Cancan said these words, his face was filled with a sense of happiness.

The weather was fine that day, and when I walked out of the school gate in the evening, the afterglow of the setting sun was already slanting. Cao Cancan passed through a flowery spring dream in a beautiful season in the flower-like years.

When we are young, we don't understand that this generous gift of youth is so precious, and when love has an affair with youth, we are busy dissociating relationships; When love and youth waved goodbye, we looked back to find those beautiful people in Fanghuali, but the lights were bright and the night was shining.

Therefore, I envy Cao Cancan's boldness and courage, because that is the best evidence that she has loved herself through her youth.