"You're sick, I don't care about you!" Zhou Jin gritted his teeth and gurgled, but after all, reason prevailed and suppressed the anger in his heart, "You have a good rest!" ”

After saying that, she was about to leave, but Xu Shu suddenly lifted the quilt and staggered out of bed, looking at Xu Shu's seemingly unsteady standing, Zhou Jin resisted the urge to step forward to help her, and looked at Xu Shu coldly to see what she wanted to do.

Xu Shu took two steps and seemed to feel physically exhausted, so she reluctantly stood in place, raising her hands in front of her eyes, "Zhou Jin, have you seen these hands?" Looks slender and weak, doesn't it? But I ended more than one life with such a pair of seemingly powerless hands, I don't even know the names of those who died at my hands, but I still killed them without hesitation, do you know why? ”

In Zhou Jin's silence and gaze, Xu Shu put down his hands and touched his white fingertips, no one would think that such a pair of hands was lethal, even Xu Shu himself felt incredible.

"Because they wanted to kill me, and I wanted to live, so I killed them, and the reason was as simple as that! When I want to live, no one can deprive me of the right to live, but when I want to die, no one else can stop me! ”

"So you're telling me that if I stop you from seeking death, you're going to kill me?" Although he was shocked by the fact that Xu Shu had actually killed someone, Zhou Jin had not yet lost his mind and could fully understand the threat between Xu Shu's words.

"How dare I, a weak woman, kill King Pingning?" Xu Shu lowered her head, her tone was surprisingly peaceful, "I just want to say that I used to live so hard, but I still haven't given up hope of life, in order to survive, I have put in more effort than any of you imagined!" But now I suddenly understand that the more difficult your life is, the more God will not look down on you, and you will get up from the mud again and again, but someone will always drag me back again and again! I'm living so hard, it's not for you to use it with peace of mind, I'm so tired of living, I want to give up ......"

So in Xu Shu's heart, is she the one who dragged her back into the mud? Zhou Jin couldn't help but smile bitterly, what's wrong with him? Things seemed to be moving further and further away from his plans.

What is Raw? What is death?

Xu Shu has deeply understood when she was five years old, life is not easy to come by, should be cherished, she struggled to survive, but in exchange for only endless demand and squeezing, the so-called relatives in the end actually chose to give up her for the sake of interests, but even so, she still straightened her back strongly, she was still not defeated by fate, only she could beat her!

"Xu Shu, I ......" Xu Shu in front of him hung his head and hugged his arms and trembled, which made Zhou Jin's heart hurt, he had never seen such a fragile Xu Shu, as if she was about to break in the next moment, but she was still struggling to support at this moment, Zhou Jin finally couldn't help but walk back, hesitated again and again and put his hand on Xu Shu's shoulder, "I'm sorry, Xu Shu, it's me who has bad intentions and wants to use you to achieve my goals, I apologize to you, and I ...... in the future"

Xu Shu shook her head and raised her face to reveal a tear-stained face, "Don't say it, the oath is always the most touching only when it is spoken, but the oath that moves people is the easiest to break its promise!" ”

Zhou Jin pursed his lips and looked at Xu Shu, but suddenly felt a trace of abnormality, and before he could carefully distinguish where this strangeness came from, he saw blood overflowing from the corner of Xu Shu's mouth, but this blood was not bright red, with black and purple. The black blood slowly flowed down the corners of Xu Shu's mouth, Xu Shu seemed to be aware of it, but he was unable to reach out to wipe it off, his legs began to tremble, and he gradually couldn't support his thin body, and fell down softly.

Zhou Jin hurriedly pulled Xu Shu into his arms, and the two fell to the ground together, more blackened blood gushed out of Xu Shu's mouth, and Zhou Jin held Xu Shu's face at a loss, "Xu Shu!" Xu Shu! What happened to you? Someone ...... coming."

Xu Shu shook his head lightly, "It's useless, don't ask for a doctor!" Zhou Jin, I'm dying......"

Suddenly remembering the sentence "long-term illness from fatigue" that the doctor said when he was diagnosing his pulse, Zhou Jin asked, "What's wrong with you?" What disease do you have? ”

Xu Shu shook his head, "It's not a disease, the fire destroyed the roots, hurt the lungs, there is no medicine stone, today I fell into the water and got cold, and my heart and lungs were injured, so I vomited this mouthful of blood, and the doctors all said that I was a person with a thin life, and it depends on my creation when I can live!" ”

Zhou Jin finally understood where the indifference in Xu Shu's body came from, a person who experienced death when he was still a child and was threatened by death all the time, it seemed that there was no better way than to look down on all this.

"You...... Won't die, won't die......" Zhou Jin wiped the blood from the corners of Xu Shu's mouth, comforting weakly, the Xu Shu who once joked that she cherished her life turned out to be true, because she knew that her life was short, so she cherished every minute and second of life more than anyone else.

"Everyone will die, but some people die early, some people die late, some want to live a long life, and some people are disgusted with this life of the sea of suffering......" Xu Shu seems to be a wise man who has seen through all aspects of life, and his cloudy eyes are also full of wisdom, "Death is not terrible, and I am not afraid of death!" But I was not willing to die such a mediocre death, I always thought that I could do better, that I could make my short life as meaningful as possible, but in the end it was just a joke......"

Xu Shu giggled, but couldn't help coughing up a mouthful of blood again, Zhou Jin's heart was shocked and heartbroken, if he hadn't pushed too hard, why would Xu Shu have jumped into the well and risked his death to avoid him? At present, Xu Shu's dying appearance is all caused by him.

"The maidservants always say that my father loves me the most, but they don't know that my father's praise for me is always full of regret, because I am only a daughter, not the son he wants; And the mother ...... I never want to say that she is partial, because she has no heart for me at all, and she only has the seventh brother and the seventh sister in her eyes; My grandparents could sacrifice me again and again for the benefit of the Xu family; In order to marry into a wealthy family, the seventh sister did not hesitate to count her sisters; It's not that I can't see all this, but I don't want to have no one to shed tears for me when my short life comes to an end, but I didn't expect that the family relationship I was willing to maintain with my life would be the first to abandon me in the end......"

"My life is a suffering, and death may be a relief!"

Xu Shu's voice seemed to have no roots, it was vague and ethereal, as if she would never speak again in the next moment, Zhou Jin was full of powerlessness to everything in front of him, he had never felt that he was incompetent like now, he could only comfort Xu Shu powerlessly over and over again, and also comforted himself, "You won't die, Xu Shu, I won't let you die!" I'll save you! ”