At this time, my mother behind me suddenly called my name. In those three short words, it sounded like a thick black cumulonimbus cloud, gloomy and seemed to be approaching the horizon. I turned around, the light flickered behind my mother, I couldn't see her eyes clearly, but I felt everything around me approaching me, and in an instant, I was the target of everyone's attention.

I subconsciously blocked the light cast in front of me with my hand, and the sparkle through my fingers was the kindness of human nature? No, kindness doesn't dazzle people's eyes. I pressed the gap between my fingers, and the bright light disappeared, and with it, there was a redness through the flesh, and behind this blood-red, standing was my mother.

My mother's self-esteem is extremely strong, and this personality has something to do with the fact that she raised me alone until I was 10 years old. Maybe she was born a little woman, she will also be delicate and charming Aunt Qin, she can also be coquettish in front of her beloved, but unfortunately, everyone has their own life, each has their own life, and each suffers.

I guess the moment my mother took me to step into the gate of Cao's house for the first time, I couldn't have imagined that such a comedic scene would happen. And this mixture of panic and anger made it seem as if the mother was holding on to the edge of the couch in some kind of desperate situation. I walked towards my mother.

The plot of life is always accompanied by the idiom of the unexpected. When I was only a meter away from my mother, my mother raised her hand and slapped me!

I don't know, when this second slap was slapped in my face, was there really light?! The loud voice made the whole hall stop the noise, and everyone's eyes looked at me in unison, and I suddenly felt that it was not only the face that had just been beaten, but also the burning eyes behind me.

I didn't cry.

If you ask me why I didn't cry when I was wronged and beaten? So let me tell you, in just two days, I was slapped twice by my mother, and I, I never thought I was at fault. Especially this time, my mother didn't even give me a chance to speak, which was simply unacceptable to me. My mother's two slaps completely cut off all the space for my reverie about maternal love in my childhood and even in my life.

I consider myself aggrieved, and I feel that I am a lonely member of the world who has been outcast.

The misunderstanding between me and my mother, just like that, naked boarded the boat bound for remorse, and went farther and farther. So much so that when I got off the ship, my mother was already dying.

When Aunt Qin saw my mother's actions, her mouth opened wide in surprise. I knew what she was trying to say, but the air was empty and heavy, and the dust floating in the air had become silent. The sound of this slap shook time apart. I stood in place, and all in front of me was all about my mother's past, but unfortunately, the plot was flashback. When the scene of my birth was dragged out of the depths of my memory again, I knew that after the age of 10, even if I was my biological mother, even if she had nothing since I left her, I still gave up the right and opportunity she gave me endless maternal love from my own subjective consciousness.

For this mediocre person who is closest to me in my life, even if I use my whole life, it is irreparable regret.

The mother's hand, which had remained in mid-air, happened to pass through the light and became almost transparent. In a trance, I felt that my mother was like a soap bubble about to dissolve, fluttering to the place where my future heart stayed.

My grandmother hurriedly ran over, pulled me behind me, and said to my mother, "What are you doing here?" Things haven't been figured out yet! Besides, no matter how big the matter is, you can't hit the child! It's a girl! The Cao family has never had a precedent for beating a woman! "Grandma may have been too anxious, and in a word, she directly put me and my mother into the Cao family, not the outsiders just mentioned! And the tone was the same as that of Aunt Qin, which made my father, who was sitting next to me, start to turn pale, and he kept coughing from the puff of cigarette he inhaled.

I don't know if Aunt Qin noticed the clues, but seeing that she has been maintaining the same expression and standing in the same place, I think it must be that she is in a state of blindness because the development of the situation is too difficult to control.

My mother was relieved, and this time it was different from the time I was at school, and my mother was very calm. She put down her hand that had remained in mid-air, turned around and picked up the cup with the refill, and drank it again. After my mother drank all the water, she held the coffee table with both hands, panting heavily, and the breath seemed to come from the soles of her feet, exhaling with all her strength. After a while, the mother straightened up, straightened up the wrinkled cheongsam, bowed respectfully to the grandmother in front of her, and when she looked up, she straightened the broken hair around her ear, and then said, "I'm really sorry for today's incident." If it is damaged, I will compensate according to the price. Tomorrow, I will send Mu Xi here, even if it is officially living in Cao's house. In the future, please take care of and discipline my daughter for me. After speaking, he reached out and grabbed my arm, turned around and walked straight out of the gate of Cao's house.

I guess at this time, everyone should be frozen at some point in time as if they had been enchanted.

After walking some distance with my mother, I took the bus home. The stop-and-go world of flowers, the busy life up and down, is like the fate of the karst landform that I have been three miles up the mountain and no way down the mountain after I left my mother.

When I got off the bus, I didn't say a word to my mother. Perhaps, at that time, I resented that this world did not give me the opportunity to confide in my heart, and later, I began to resent the injustice of this world, because it took away my mother's wordless and short life, and then, I was left alone in this world to say nothing, to empty words.

My mother never explained anything to me about this slap, it was not that my mother didn't like to speak, it was that she protected me with everything she didn't say, and this kind of silence was understood by me as lovelessness and cowardice, and then disgust and hatred were derived. Of course, when I knew this, it was too late, and everything was zero.

I still remember how many times before my mother died, I wanted to ask her why she slapped me out of her world with two slaps. But I opened my mouth, but I didn't ask.

Later, when my mother was dying, she stared at me with her dull eyes and said she wanted to tell me a secret. As she said this, my mother was like a naughty child, and the corners of her mouth barely hooked up a little smile, and I saw through her slightly condensed pupils all my figures reflected in it. I bowed down and leaned down beside her, listening to her and I say with difficulty, back then, in order to keep me in the Cao family, she could only slap things and calm people.

However, when the right thing happens at the right time, everything is called providence.

It was only after my mother's funeral in 1998 that I learned the secret behind the secret my mother had told me – she had learned that she was sick when she sent me to Cao's house, and had signed three agreements with my father.

And those three agreements, while sending my relationship with my father to the Arctic ice, also sent me into the abyss of depravity.