For a person who has been suffering from illness since birth, death is not a problem, but how to say goodbye.

Chen Yuan cleaned up the house and wrote down post-it notes with a pen about how everything should be used.

He sat on the couch and tried to come up with a narrative that would be easily accepted by his daughter.

There is basically no solution.

He rubbed his head in annoyance, preparing to go to the vegetable market to buy vegetables, at least to cook dinner with his own hands.

Standing at the door of the building, I saw Si Tian who was just coming home from school.

Si Tian picked up a little boy who had fallen to the ground and patted the dirt off his clothes.

The little boy stared at Si Tian for a long time, and stretched out his hand to point to her face: "Big sister, why don't you wash your face when you go out?" ”

Chen Yuan's face changed, and he immediately wanted to go out to teach the little boy a lesson.

Si Tian squatted down and said softly: "Sister's face is very clean, this is not a dirty thing, it is a flower left by God, because my sister is the one who has defeated death." ”

The little boy was stunned, "So is this a medal?" ”

"Of course." Si Tian smiled generously.

Chen Yuancai suddenly realized that when he didn't notice it, his daughter had already grown up very much, and she was no longer a person who would only shrink in a thick protective shell and feel resistant and afraid of everything.

In this way, can you walk with peace of mind?

"Daddy?" Si Tian found Chen Yuan standing on the steps in a daze, and couldn't help but feel strange, "Did you get off work earlier than usual today?" ”

"No, I said hello to the boss and took a day off." As soon as Chen Yuan finished speaking, Si Tian asked him worriedly if he was not feeling well again, Chen Yuan was silent for a while, and then asked Si Tian if he wanted to go to the garden.

When Si Tian was seven or eight years old, the family often had picnics here, and Chen Yuan would sometimes move the grill and make barbecue for his wife and daughter, which attracted the envy of the neighbors, which was a rare happy thing for Chen Yuan in his illness.

"Remember? You love pork belly. Father and daughter sat on a chair in the garden, Chen Yuan recalled, "At that time, my mother was in charge of skewers, I was in charge of roasting, and you were in charge of eating. ”

"One time you choked and were taken to the hospital, which scared me and your mother. It's a pity that later on, your grade was higher and there was more and more homework, so this activity was canceled. ”

Chen Yuan's words could not hide his regret, because he knew that he had little time left, and he regretted that he had not done enough meaningful things in the past.

Si Tian stared at his fingers, hesitated, and tried to say his heart for the first time.

"Actually, at that time, I hated my dad for proposing a picnic, and I especially didn't understand why you did that, and it wasn't a TV show. Every time I sat in the garden and surrounded by so many passers-by, I felt like I was being stared at and laughed at. ”

"I was choked on that time because I wanted to finish all the barbecue so we could go home. As a result, the next time Dad, you bought more meat, and Mom cut it into very small pieces and told me to eat it slowly, and no one grabbed it. ”

For Si Tian, the delicious barbecue was her biggest enemy at that time, the plate was always full, no matter how much she chewed and chewed, she couldn't finish it, and went back to lie on the bed and touch her bulging belly, and sulked.

"Later, I thought of a way, even if I didn't have homework, but my father said that he wanted a picnic, I would pretend to have a lot of homework, just so that I didn't come out to meet people."

Si Tian felt that she was so stupid at that time, why did she refuse to eat something delicious, those passers-by had their own lives, and how could they care about her little child.

Chen Yuan was stunned: "You don't like it, why don't you say it?" ”

Si Tian said: "Because my mother said that you are not in good health, you will only laugh when you do these things." ”

Only then did Chen Yuan understand that over the years, it had always been Ye Ying and Si Tian who had been accommodating him.

He closed his eyes, full of absurdity and guilt, what had he done, such an incompetent husband, such an incompetent father, it would be best if he disappeared.

"Si Tian, there's something I want to ......"

"Dad, you know sometimes you can be really stubborn." Si Tian's words were not finished, and continued: "You often do things that my mother and I can't understand, and we are always forced to cater to them, I used to think, is it because you are sick, so there will always be strange thoughts in your head?" ”

"Si Tian ......" Chen Yuan felt ashamed and couldn't raise his head, and even felt that his daughter's accusation was heartfelt, but Si Tian turned his head to look at him, but there was no resentment on his face, but he looked forward to Shenfei.

She just said it lightly.

"When I grew up, especially after I let go of some of my flaws, I became more and more grateful to my father for his strangeness, if it weren't for your whimsy, when I recalled my childhood there was only darkness."

"I'm autistic, I refuse to come into contact with anyone, I wish I never met anyone, but my interesting experience is so much to talk about."

"I choked on a picnic until I was taken to the hospital, and I met the young lady who was allergic to lobster in the next bed, and she became my first friend; We were flying a kite on the grass, and the wind knocked the kite down and hit a big dog, and we were chased around.

"When you were fishing by the river, you insisted on bringing a watermelon, but the watermelon broke in half half, and we had to squat on the side of the road to eat; and didn't sleep in the middle of the night to go to the top of the mountain to watch the stars, and the whole family was bitten by mosquitoes;

"Oh yes, yes, remember? One year, on Halloween, you had to learn from foreigners, so you took me in fancy clothes to go to various houses in the community to beg for candy, and the aunt on the first floor launched a fundraising activity and donated several large boxes of candy to our family......"

Si Tian smiled and covered his stomach.

"It's Dad, your company, so that my childhood has never been lonely."

Chen Yuan had never heard his daughter say these words, and the wind in front of him was a little strong inexplicably, for twelve years, he blamed himself every day, thinking that he had dragged down the whole family, and that he was useless, but there was still a trace of meaning?

At least, in his daughter's heart, this family has not lost its home, he wiped the corners of his eyes, looked at Si Tian's childish face, as if he had made up some kind of determination, stood up and said: "How is it, do you still like to eat barbecue now, Dad will make it for you?" ”

"Good!" Si Tian jumped up directly from the chair and cheered.

Chen Yuan and Si Tian bought pork belly and side dishes, and in the evening, the father and daughter cooked a meal together.

After eating, he watched another movie, put Si Tian to sleep, Chen Yuan put on his coat and went out secretly, and returned to Baohaitang within the time agreed with Tang Du.

Tang Du was in high spirits and was playing a game, "Ready?" ”

Jumping out of the painting as he wished, he couldn't wait, "Always ready!" ”

"......" Tang Du looked disgusted: "I didn't say you." ”

He threw the gamepad aside and his gaze fell on Chen Yuan, "Are you ready to repay your wish?" ”

Chen Yuan's face was solemn, and he prayed for a while: "Can you ...... Leave me alone. ”

Tang Du's eyes slowly narrowed, and the corners of his mouth turned up, but he could clearly feel his anger.

As he wished, he hurriedly fanned him with a small fan, blinking with big eyes, and looked at Chen Yuan puzzled, "Chen Lang, your body has long been finished, your wife has also passed away, and you are still carrying a bunch of debts, what nostalgia do you still have in this world?" ”

"I'm not nostalgic." Chen Yuan said, "But my daughter is only 12 years old. ”

Although she has learned to be strong, knows how to work hard, can be independent, and can no longer resentfully the reality and reconcile with herself. Although she will one day be on her own and become a real adult.

But she is still so young now, no matter what, he can't just leave her like this, as long as there is a little meaning to exist, this time, not for himself, just for his daughter.

Tang Du waved away the fan that was shaking in front of his eyes and walked in front of Chen Yuan, the young and handsome face with a deep outline was clouded at this moment.

He narrowed his eyes slightly, overlooking Chen Yuan with an absolute height advantage, and his pale hand was on Chen Yuan's shoulder, and Chen Yuan felt a strong sense of oppression.

"Ask for ...... Please......" Chen Yuan gritted his teeth and said, "I am willing to pay any price." ”

"Really?" Tang didn't know what to think, walked to Ruyuan's side, and whispered two words in Ruwish's ear.

Ruwan covered his mouth in surprise, "That's too ruthless." ”

Tang Du hugged his arms and raised his chin at Chen Yuan, "You go and ask him, see if he agrees." ”

Ruyi hesitated, bit his fingers, and asked cautiously: "I can let you live, but I want to take your heart away, you...... Can you agree? ”

Chen Yuan's face turned pale and looked at Tang Du, but the young man had already sat back on the floor, manipulating the game characters and starting to break through, the light and funny background music echoed in the room, compared to the atmosphere at this time, it was extremely weird.

Chen Yuan said: "I don't have a heart, what will happen? ”

Tang Du smiled: "Life is better than death." ”

Chen Yuan was silent for a long, long time, so long that Tang Du turned his head, wondering if he had secretly taken his life, and he glanced at him warningly, only to hear Chen Yuan say in a dumb voice: "I, willing." ”

Tang Du: "......"

As he wished, he persuaded: "You have to think about it, once you agree, you will be very painful every second every day in the future, and then you can't die if you want to die, if you dare to regret it, our head will tear you up!" ”

Chen Yuan nodded, but did not change his mind. glanced at Tang Du as he wished, Tang Du had wonderful crispy horns hanging on his five fingers, and slowly made a grabbing action at her.

"Okay then." Chen Yuan's eyes were blocked by a fan as she wished, and her voice was soft and soft, "I'll start it." ”

To put it mildly, as if he was just stating the weather of the day, Chen Yuan felt a cramping and bone-like pain, the pain could not support his body, the whole person knelt on the ground, and the hand he wished continued until he touched a piece of warmth, grabbing the thumping heart.

She was still a little unbearable, she turned her face away, took out her heart, and moved the fan away as she wished, there was not a drop of blood on the ground, and there was no half-wound on Chen Yuan's chest, only cold hands, and a bloodless face, proving that what had just happened.

"Chen Lang, you're okay, you must be in pain."

"It's okay, it hurts for a while and you get used to it." Tang Du was expressionless and pointed to the door.

“…… Thanks a lot. Chen Yuan leaned against the wall and walked out of Baohai Hall with difficulty.

I cried in distress as I wished, so I lost my tears, "Boss, I don't think what you said is right, Chen Lang doesn't love himself the most, he loves his daughter, and he is even willing to live rather than die for his daughter!" ”

"Oh, then I'll be wrong." Tang Du manipulated the villain in the game, and the villain somehow hit his head on the pole with his head, and the blood was sent back to the original point.

Tang Du was a little impatient between his eyebrows, and raised his hand to change the game.