Lu Yi thought about it seriously before answering her: "I don't feel uncomfortable." I've been to all the places I want to go. Those scenery and experiences are firmly engraved in my heart and will never be forgotten. The princess asked, is it the life in the palace that makes you feel uncomfortable? ”

If someone else asked, Liu Yan would definitely smile and say, how could she be uncomfortable in the palace?

Yes, let others see, the fourth princess is so favored and powerful, and the emperor and queen are obedient to her, this is the real golden branch and jade leaf, the proud daughter of the sky.

I'm afraid that all the women in the world envy her, what is she uncomfortable and unhappy about?

Liu Yan also felt that he should be comfortable and happy.

But I don't know why, the older she gets, the less she feels happy.

Maybe she's too blessed.

Eating delicacies from the mountains and seas, wearing silk and satin, calling slaves and maids, everyone tends to serve them...... But sometimes Liu Yan wakes up and still feels that all this is so unreal, just like when he first entered the palace.

Everything in the palace looks like flowers, but Liu Yan's experience in the past few years has not all been so good. From entering the palace, she has experienced more than one deception, assassination, poisoning, exploitation and betrayal, seeing new life born, and witnessing someone die in front of her eyes.

The palace concentrates the top wealth and power in the world, and also condenses the chaos of life and death in the world, and the changes of good and evil in people's hearts.

Sometimes Liu Yan said something wrong, and she would have a strange feeling. It's like the person who is talking is not himself, he is trapped in a shell named the fourth princess, this shell is in line with the norms, and every move is just right.

Liu Yan was even a little afraid.

She felt as if she had become a different person, and the more time passed, the more strange she felt, and she couldn't remember what she was like. Even in the silence of the night, she couldn't remember.

"I don't know...... Maybe. ”

This was said thoughtlessly, and in a daze, Lu Yi understood it.

Lu Yi is quite famous in Beijing.

Don't get me wrong, he didn't have a good reputation earlier.

He is known for his disobedience and prodigality, disrespecting his father and brothers, not seeking progress, idleness, and causing trouble...... When it comes to this rebel son of the Lu family, many people in Beijing can say two or three things about his disgrace.

Lu Yi is also famous now, first, he is good at scheming, emphasizing righteousness, and has a serious job, everyone talks about him, and they can't do without the words "the prodigal son turns back". The second is that he still has no contact with General Lu's Mansion and is not close, as if he has really completely severed the relationship with his origin.

Some people also said that maybe he would change his surname Lu.

Although these words are gossip, one sentence is true.

Lu Yi did think about changing his surname, what is the value of the surname Lu? He's not uncommon.

That was what he thought a few years ago.

When Lu Yi traveled abroad, he didn't use a pseudonym, but he rarely used his real name and surname. First, it is indispensable to prevent people, and secondly, he also wants to get rid of his identity as a Lu family.

Of course, at that time, Lu Yi was still young, acting impulsively, easy to be provoked and deceived, and very naïve. naively felt that if he changed his name and left the Lu family, he would break off with the past.

Now he's certainly not so stupid.

The name and surname can be changed, and he can not go back to the Lu family, but can he also take out his blood and replace it? He is alive, he stands in this world, it is the proof that he is the son of the Lu family, he can never erase this mark, whether it is good or bad, he must be affected by his background.

He looked at Liu Yan as if he was looking at himself a few years ago.

People may have to go through such a situation, full of confusion, not knowing where the road ahead will lead, but some people are very rational and quiet, and can quickly break free from the confusion. Some people live in a mess all their lives and live a confused life.

The saint once said that forty is not confused.

So Liu Yan is confused now, which is not surprising at all.

"Does the princess have a place she wants to go and things she wants to do?"

Liu Yan lowered her head, the handkerchief was wrapped tightly around her fingers, and then released, back and forth, already making her rub and wrinkle.

"Hmm."

At the beginning, the words that followed were much smoother: "Yes." After the third brother left Beijing after the funeral, after he left, I couldn't eat for many days, and the people around me said that I was concerned about the third brother. In fact...... Of course, I am worried, but I also envy him. In the past, they all said that the third brother was a fool, and he fought all day long except for eating and drinking, and I thought so too. But the third brother, he is not like that now, he is not confused. In fact, even before, he may not be clear in his heart, but ......"

Liu Yan felt that the thoughts in his heart were like a mess, and now he finally pulled out a rope from the middle, and bit by bit, sorted out the clues.

"It's just that he didn't think about how he should live and how to move forward before. My father has become the emperor, we have become the prince and the princess, there will be no shortage of glory and wealth in this life, and we have stood in a position that others cannot climb in a lifetime. Others are seeking food and clothing, for the future, for wealth, but what about us? What about our days? ”

The three princes also practiced martial arts when they were young, and they killed the enemy on the battlefield, but then their identities all changed dramatically, and the spirit that the three princes had been holding back seemed to be dispersed and messed up, and he knew in his heart that he was definitely not the material for the prince, and his father thought he was brave and unscrupulous, impatient and frivolous, and would not pass on the throne to him.

So what else can he do? It seems that he has no way out except to eat, drink, and have fun and try to spread the branches.

Compared with the third brother, Liu Yan felt that his troubles were really nothing. She's a princess, not a prince, and she's not ambitious.

She just felt ...... It's just that......

She found this kind of day of eating, drinking, and waiting to get married all day long to be particularly boring. It is foreseeable that the father and queen mother will choose an outstanding son as a concubine, and then in the future, they will still eat, drink and have children......

There seems to be nothing wrong with such a day, just like Liu Yan himself said, there are many women in the world who envy her and want to live a peaceful and carefree life like her, but Liu Yan himself is not satisfied.

Maybe it's like a bird living in a golden cage, always looking outside, the sky is wide, free, and there are infinite possibilities, but let it fly out, where does it go?

Liu Yan was both confused and annoyed.

She was a little afraid of this palace city, afraid to think about the open and secret battles between several brothers. But she is full of uncertainty about getting married.

After getting married, she will live happily than now, but she will still be more panicked and depressed