vs 132 There is no greater mourning than death
Cao Ge was afraid that something would happen to Aunt Qin, so after seeing her staggering up the stairs alone, he trotted all the way and chased after her, grabbing Aunt Qin's arm. Aunt Qin looked back and didn't speak, but let go of her hand very resolutely. As soon as she went up two steps, Aunt Qin suddenly turned her head and looked at the door: "Zhang Jing, you still owe me a word of sorry." Zhang Jing's body with her back to the stairs shook visibly, she didn't speak, but it could be seen from her slumped shoulders that she was crying.
Immediately afterwards, Aunt Qin asked her father: "Cao Mu, do you think I should give you a blessing or a curse for your future?" The father glanced at Aunt Qin in a panic, and quickly looked away. I know that this kind of dodge is not called a thief's weak heart, but my grandmother believes in Buddhism, and my father can more or less know some karma.
Therefore, he did not dare to face the person in front of him who had been deeply hurt by himself. In fact, no matter how her father escaped the fate of this future reality, Aunt Qin informed her that she couldn't wait for an answer, so she simply turned around and continued upstairs. As he walked, he said, "Cao Mu, I wish you happiness!" After saying that, Aunt Qin went upstairs and closed the door. I wish you happiness, this greeting is too ordinary and ordinary, but there are too many different feelings for the current situation of the Cao family, especially for the father. Sending blessings from Aunt Qin'er's perspective is obviously a naked curse. But for the party at fault, a word of not being interested can ruin her youthful sense of existence, this curse, it is better to accept it, although he is my biological father.
In fact, Aunt Qin has changed from sluggishness to being able to open her heart to face the reality, I think, probably because of the incident between Cao Qi and Zhang Jing that gave her the courage to explain everything, perhaps, it is also called dying to understand and give herself a true explanation.
Aunt Qin's words at that time, no one cared too much. However, when we understand Aunt Qin'er's original intention, when we know how to scrutinize and speculate on other people's thoughts, when we know that we should understand the information contained in everyone's words through the background conditions and current atmosphere of the speech, it seems that it is already too late.
Not long after Aunt Qin went upstairs, I also went upstairs. I don't remember exactly what happened that night. I vaguely remember that Cao Ge was afraid that Aunt Qin and Cao Cancan would be in a bad state and that something would happen, so he asked Mother Wu and Mother Liu to accompany the two of them respectively, as for my father, Zhang Jing and Grandma, what they said or what happened that night, I didn't remember it for a long time.
I only remember that when I got up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, I saw Cao Cancan's bedroom door open. Wu's mother coaxed her to sleep like a child. Cao Cancan's desk lamp was dimly lit, but I could still see that the hair on her forehead was wisps, and she was holding Wu's mother's hand with force. And Aunt Qin, who tossed and turned all night, barely fell asleep. At one o'clock in the morning, there was an intermittent sound from Aunt Qin's bedroom, the door of the bedroom opened and closed, and Aunt Qin either came out to drink water, or got up to go to the toilet, and even walked around the hall on the second floor when she was upset. Although the footsteps were very soft, I could still hear Liu's mother whispering beside her: "Young grandma, go back to sleep, it's too late, or I'll get you some calming medicine." I couldn't hear what Aunt Qin answered, but judging from the fact that she didn't take a nap until four o'clock in the morning, presumably, she didn't take this medicine.
What about me? Needless to say. I was a child with a deep heart, and while I was lying in bed, I thought back to the scene that happened that night, and suddenly I felt haggard. In fact, for a ten-year-old child, it seems that there is a bit of a loss of innocence to describe the state of mind at that time with the idiom of haggard heart, and in fact, I really can't find any other words to explain my state of mind at that time.
It rained in the second half of the night in Nanjing, and the rain was very small, the kind of small drizzle that hit the window and could not be heard. After all, it was late autumn, and the wind blowing in from the window still had a lot of coolness. I put on the quilt and left only my head outside the quilt. Between my side glances, I saw the old sycamore outside the window again, its leaves seemed to be more depressed and lonely than yesterday.
I don't know, God chose the Cao family to have this big change in the autumn, is it for the occasion?
From the first time I came to Cao's house in the middle of summer, the sycamore trees were so dense that they covered the sky and the sun, and they were as thick as the dessert cake that had no worries, until now, crackling down. It was like a vigorous person who suddenly suffered a serious illness, and it was a sudden and incurable illness, from hopeful to desolate. I found that some of the branches of the sycamore tree had already revealed blank branches, and the scattered sycamore leaves were listless and weak on them.
Yes, the world is in chaos, very suddenly and completely.
I woke up early the next morning, and on the way to the bathroom, I saw Cao Ge, who also came out. Cao Ge is very haggard, so many things have happened in the Cao family, presumably, her mood is also very uncomfortable.
When I came out of the bathroom, I turned around and suddenly saw Zhang Jing! As a result, I was taken aback.
At five o'clock in the morning, the woman had already applied her delicate makeup. After seeing me and Cao Ge, she was expressionless, and could even be described as ignorance, turned around and went downstairs, straight into the kitchen. I heard Mother Wu, who was making breakfast, very surprised and asked, "Grandma Da Shao, what are you going to do here?" The meal is not ready, you wait a little longer, you want to go out? ”
"No, I'll make breakfast for Cao Qi."
"To whom?" Mother Wu asked in astonishment. However, Zhang Jing did not speak again.
I closed the door and went back to my bedroom, thinking about what happened to Zhang Jing, when I suddenly heard Cao Cancan and Aunt Qin go out one after another.
"Cancan, did you sleep well?" Aunt Qin's voice was like a person with nothing happening at all, as usual, no, to be exact, more relaxed than usual. I leaned against the door, trying to absorb more information from the outside world, only to suddenly remember, school is closed today, Saturday! My head was dizzy, this was really hiding, there was nowhere to hide.
I dragged my feet down until Mother Wu came upstairs to call me for dinner, and I moved to the table step by step.
"Come, Mu Xi, eat more. Auntie remember that you love to eat this bean paste bun, give! "In the face of Aunt Qin'er's abnormal behavior, I didn't have the courage to take what she had in her hand. She gave me a color: "No, yes, yes, stupid, boy!" I took it tremblingly.
At the whole dinner table, the atmosphere was very abnormal, and I saw with my peripheral vision that everyone felt inexplicable about Aunt Qin'er's actions, including my grandmother, I watched her scoop up a spoonful of porridge and keep staring at Aunt Qin, and actually forgot to drink.
"Mom, you, you're okay!" Cao Cancan asked suspiciously and cautiously.
"Huh? Hehe~ Look at your mother, is there something wrong? Cao Cancan shook his head, and suddenly got rid of the pickles in his hand. Aunt Qin hurriedly picked up the paper and put it aside: "You, you've been hairy since you were a child, you're 13 years old after the New Year, you have to learn to be calm, don't be hairy every day, like a boy, you know?" ”
"Hmm!" Cao Cancan agreed.
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