There was no good night to each other, and after I said this, I hung up the phone directly. Then I threw my phone aside and covered myself under the covers.

For the first time, I felt a heavy feeling of powerlessness, like a drowning person, struggling desperately, but encountering a huge wave that was surging. I turned around in frustration, hoping to fall asleep quickly, but after a long time, my eyes were still wide like lanterns, and I couldn't sleep.

Then I did something earth-shattering.

I actually pulled out the English textbook and started memorizing the words.

So five minutes later I was in a beautiful dream.

After this night, I finally accepted this series of changes and started a normal, routine life. After school at half past five in the evening, I first went to the hospital to accompany Cheng Zexin for dinner, and then went home to read my homework, and finally made a phone call with Fu Chengwen before going to bed.

Such a day sounds a little unexpectedly fulfilling, but on the day Zexin was discharged from the hospital, I felt as if she had been hospitalized the day before yesterday.

I knew that Cheng Zexin's parents would definitely not come, so when I knew that she was going to be discharged from the hospital, I said hello to my parents and asked them to help me ask for leave in advance, and our family went to pick up Cheng Zexin. When I waited until the next day, the reality was really not the same as I thought, and there were only Aunt Wen who had already packed up her things in the ward, and Cheng Zexin, who was ready to go through the discharge procedures by herself.

Without saying a word, my dad went to the nurse with various lists and helped Cheng Zexin go through the discharge procedures, while my mother helped Aunt Wen take all the things downstairs and put them in the car that came to pick them up.

Cheng Zexin and I tacitly didn't speak, and walked slowly behind my mother and the two of them. But I never let go of Cheng Zexin's hand, I just held it so hard, holding it, as if as soon as I let go, she would disappear.

For a long time, I was in a state of dissociation, outside of my classmates, outside of school, living only in my own world. I'm only responsible for taking care of my mood and taking care of myself, and I don't care about the rest. In fact, this is a negative state that is not desirable, if it weren't for Fu Chengwen and Cao Yunxiao, I would definitely have tasted much more bitter fruits than now. However, I didn't care about this at all before, even if Fu Chengwen and Cao Yunxiao forced me so much at the beginning of the school year, I never thought about changing anything. It wasn't until I saw Cheng Zexin lying alone on the hospital bed that day that I suddenly felt that I couldn't continue like this anymore.

I want Cheng Zexin to be happy, I want to protect her, take care of her, and make her happy forever. But if I want to, the first thing I have to do is try to fit into her life.

This matter is almost more difficult for me than ascending to the sky, but in order to be able to Cheng Zexin, I am willing to change myself.

When we were young, our ideals and perseverance were very simple, and for the sake of these simplicityes, we can completely disregard everything and move forward bravely.

Maybe the word brave is only related to youth.

After resting at home for about a week, Cheng Zexin finally returned to school. After coming back, her classmates rushed to ask her about her physical condition, and a few girls who usually had a good relationship with her, and in order to celebrate her discharge from the hospital, they also gave her gifts.

Cheng Zexin dealt with these people with a smile all morning, and it wasn't until the lunch break that the two of us had a chance to say a word.

"Hey, Zexin, you see how happy everyone is for you to come back."

I sat next to Cheng Zexin with a lunch box and took the initiative to break the silence between the two of us for the first time, and Cheng Zexin smiled so that his eyes were bent like crescent moons, and responded to me:

"Yes, yes, but I still prefer to look at Xiaobai."

I didn't expect Cheng Zexin to answer me like this, and immediately I was so ashamed that I almost buried my head in the lunch box, and muttered in a low voice:

"Look at what I'm doing, I'm so ugly."

"Whoever says you're ugly, you just don't know how good you can become. That's good, it's almost the final exam anyway, and this summer, I must make sure you become confident. ”

"Stop making a fuss."

"No trouble! I must succeed! ”

When Cheng Zexin said this, there was a little light in his eyes, as beautiful as the starry sky in the middle of the night. But when these words fell to my ears, they were like an allegory of some calamity, and I could not swallow them, and I could not sit still.

However, after Cheng Zexin's reminder, I realized that the final exam is indeed not too far away. In order to avoid my grades slipping, I had to start studying again. Fu Chengwen still comes to my house every Saturday to tutor me, and because Cao Yunxiao has never come back, on Sundays, I will review with Cheng Zexin.

Time flies, and a month later, we have a tense final exam.

During the exam, I only felt that the teacher who produced the paper must have understood the level of our scumbags very well, because there were few questions on the paper that could be successfully written, except for language and history, which I could answer a little easier, and the rest, I was overwhelmed, especially politics and geography, which were barely finished papers, not to mention, and there were many questions that were not written in a particularly miserable manner.

When I got out of the exam room, I could say that I wanted to cry without tears. Cheng Zexin and Fu Chengwen, who had been waiting for me at the door for a long time, had already guessed that I would have such a reaction, and after seeing me, they didn't say anything, just silently patted me on the shoulder, signaling me not to pay too much attention to it.

The results were not at all surprising, and when the results came out, my grades dropped from the top 10 to the middle of the class because my geography score was too low. I took the report card home with trepidation and held it for a long time before giving it to my mom with trepidation. As a result, after reading it, my mother didn't say a word of criticism for me, and happily decided to cook me something delicious in the evening to celebrate.

I looked at my mom writhing happily in the kitchen, and couldn't believe it was a parent's reaction after seeing her child fail her geography final exam. Seeing me like this, my dad calmly pushed me back into his room, and then explained to me:

"Your mother failed geography all year round, often scoring more than ten points, and your fifty points in the exam this time are enough for her to enjoy for a while, so don't worry, she is really happy, and she won't beat you in the future."

"Oh...... What about you, Dad? ”

"Your dad and I have always been the first in junior high school."

"Really? Are you sure, Dad? ”

"The penultimate is also the first, haha, hahahaha......"