Section 147 Widowhood and loneliness

Cui Dan left in a hurry, if it weren't for the love between her fathers, I guess, she might not have chosen to come to the Cao family at this juncture, so that she would have accidentally become the trigger of the conflict in addition to embarrassment.

As soon as Cui Dan left, Cao Qi and Xue Hao came back.

"Cui Dan is here? I see, why is this still panicking? What's wrong? Cao Qi asked while changing his shoes while looking at the sofa in the living room.

"Heh~ Can you not go, this is Cui Dan, who is more familiar with our family, and if I change someone else, I would have been scared to death." Grandma said in a weird way.

"Huh? What's wrong? What is so serious? ”

"Some people want to play with other people's children, can they not be afraid? Scare it away! ”

"What's the fun? Playing with kids? Cao Qi and Xue Hao frowned, looking puzzled.

"Among young people, this word can represent many meanings, such as rare, like, funny, you can do it. What's all the fuss. Cao Ge explained on the side.

"Hehe~ I'm an old man, this kind of fresh statement is really the first time I've heard of it. I went to the store, I fell in love with a dress, and I told the salesperson, come on, I'll play with that dress, or rather, I'll play with it, what kind of thing will it be? This word, but you can't use it casually, otherwise, it's not a joke to say it?! Grandma said yin and yang.

"Who's laughing? Why are you not this joke or that joke every day? Living in other people's opinions all day long, are you tired~? Cao Ge replied dissatisfied.

"I didn't say that anyone laughed at you, I just talked about it. Who would dare to laugh at you in this family? It is said that it cannot be touched. Grandma got up from the couch and went upstairs.

"Come on, in front of Cui Dan, who said that I didn't have a good life to marry a good man? Who said I don't have children yet? Cao Ge was very excited, she also got up and stood up, and questioned her grandmother directly.

"Me? I'm talking about our family, I'm talking about you? Day by day, I see that since you divorced this marriage, you have been nervous, no, you just go to that mental hospital to see if it is mania or something, oh, yes, there is a relative of Uncle Li's family next door who happens to be there, say hello, and you don't have to spend money on the bed! Grandma turned around and left.

Cao Ge was so angry that his shoulders trembled, and I shrank in the corner and looked at her, for fear that she would suddenly fall to the ground.

"After all, don't you just think that I didn't lose money talking to Cui Dan and her husband about friends?! Seeing that Cui Dan was born in two, I don't say anything about the divorce, I don't even have one, you hold your breath, right? You're ashamed, aren't you? Cao Ge shouted at his grandmother's back.

"Yes! People wanted to be nice to you, but what about you? If you don't agree, forget it, what are you looking for? ”

"I had a child in my belly at the time, why didn't I listen at the door?" Cao Ge cried as he shouted.

"That man's child, you dare to stay?! Let me tell you Cao Ge, you should be glad that the child was gone at that time, otherwise, there might be some chaos now! Just that kind of person, you want to get rid of it? Money is not good. Grandma's words are actually not unreasonable, but what Cao Ge doesn't understand is that no matter what, she is the mother of the child, and the right to keep the child is her, what do others do? The Lord is now turning over the small intestine again?

Cao Ge didn't want to talk anymore, she shed tears, lowered her head slightly, raised her right hand and gestured in the air, as if she was looking at her grandmother, and as if she was helpless about all this. Grandma went upstairs, and Cao Qi chased after her.

Cao Ge's argument with his grandmother, in the final analysis, still poked the sore spot in Cao Ge's heart. Cao Ge's pain of losing a child may be like my mother in my heart, that soft point that no one can touch. She sat alone in the corner of the couch and breathed.

The mother and daughter are like natural enemies, and they will not stop if they don't quarrel when they meet. But seriously, no matter what, when I see my grandmother talking about other people's pain like this, especially her own daughter, there will always be an urge to fight for Cao Ge in my heart. Of course, when I don't have time to take care of myself, I'm just a bystander.

Xue Hao sat beside Cao Ge and patted her on the shoulder: "Actually, when people quarrel, most of them are in a hurry. Your mother won't be angry with you for your pain, after all, it's not like a mother and daughter, right? Don't get into the nitty-gritty. ”

"It's not that I'm the tip of the horns Xue Hao, it's that I don't understand why my own mother always uses me as a thorn in the flesh, isn't it just divorced? Didn't I just disgrace the Cao family? Is that why you want to kill me completely? This is too unfair and cruel to me! ”

"The misunderstanding between you and your aunt is not a day or two, she is also older, after all, there is a certain generation gap between the elderly and us."

"Forget Xue Hao, everyone understands the truth, I am a woman, a woman in her 30s, do you know how sad I felt when I saw Cui Dan? When I saw her, I didn't regret my choice, in fact, this day may be the same as anyone, but the important thing is that no matter who I am with, in the eyes of my mother, it is not good. Cui Dandu already has two children, and what about me? Widowed and lonely, he is not welcomed at home. The second sister-in-law is gone, and Cancan is like this again, I can't leave now if I want to. “

"Wait a while. You're here, I think, sometimes you can make a round. ”

"Yes, I also think I'm still useful to the Cao family."

"Actually, Cao Ge, isn't life like this? A lot of the things and pressures we face at this age sometimes don't necessarily come from society, but probably from your family, or the pressure put on you by your closest people. Xue Hao said, lowering his head slightly.

"What's the pressure on you? You have what you want. Cao Ge asked Xue Hao suspiciously. Yes, this eldest son of the Xue family doesn't seem to have any troubles, his childhood has basically been smooth, and even his mother is so gentle and lovely.

Xue Hao smiled bitterly: "I just didn't say it, in fact, every family has a scripture that is difficult to read." ”

Cao Ge turned his head and sighed: "Yes, some people just don't say it." It's like my big brother. When I didn't know it before, I thought my eldest brother was living a chic life. At that time, like others, I liked to stand outside the door and watch the people in the door, and my eldest brother was the one who put the light, so bright and beautiful. But in fact, during this time, I realized that he was really not as relaxed and happy as outsiders thought, and he just thought he was. He was even under more mental and mental pressure than I was. My eldest brother was very kind to me, and as you know, a large part of the reason why I was able to stay in the Cao family after the divorce was also due to him. He has been good to me since I was a child, in fact, my second brother was also good to me when he was a child, but later, after the ghost became obsessed, the focus of the whole person was not on the family at all, and he began to become selfish. A few days ago, I looked at my eldest brother, and suddenly I felt that he was old, he was only in his forties, but I felt that his mental age was far more than that. I wanted to help him, but I couldn't do it. ”

"Yes, everybody has some unspeakable pain. You women like to vent, but when men are bored, they may just drink some alcohol and smoke cigarettes or something. Men rarely tell others about their pain, and not saying it doesn't mean that life is easy. It's like a lot of people say that most of the people who like to show their optimistic side are depressed. Xue Hao lit a cigarette, leaned back, took a puff, and said slowly.

"Everybody has a story, big or small, and how to see it. But Xue Hao, let me tell you, no matter how you look at it, the matter of the child has always been a pain for me. ”

"I know." Xue Hao said lightly.

"You're not me, and you're not a woman. You will never be able to empathize with the state of mind of a mother who has lost a child. ”

"I know I can't empathize with you, and I don't know how to persuade you about this matter, but I want to say that if you want to have children, it's still too late, and at your age, there is no problem with having children."

"Who are you looking for? The house is in a mess right now, and I'm in no mood to look for it again. I felt that God was a little too cruel to me, and the people I met after the divorce were worse than the other. Just some time ago, I didn't tell my family that I came back from Yunnan because he cheated all the 70,000 yuan I brought. Speaking of this, Cao Ge smiled bitterly: "You say, am I born with feelings?" ”

"Don't talk nonsense! Experience teaches. Your life experience will tell you that we will definitely meet it when we look for it again. Believe me. Eh, I found that you seem to be a lot more gentle than the previous times. ”

"Gentle?"

"It's just not as sharp as before, haha~ I don't know how to describe it, it just feels like you're back in the past."

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