Suddenly, I felt a sense of powerlessness all around me, and it was so powerful that it seemed to have spread to every part of my life. It was a darkness that could be swallowed up by helplessness.

I went from being a tsundere princess to nothing all of a sudden. This disparity is not only manifested in material things, but more importantly, in the eyes of my soul.

After wiping away my tears, I told myself that crying would not solve anything, that tears would not be exchanged for money, that would not be exchanged for self-esteem, and that there would be nothing that could be exchanged for anything that could get out of adversity. It will only make me weaker and more lonely, it will make me decadent, it will make me indisputable, it will make me resigned to the status quo, and it will make me willing to fall.

So, I desperately endured the tears that were about to flow. I sent a text message back to Cao Ge: "I'm very good, sister-in-law, don't worry." The weather here is nice and the people are nice. Everything is fine, don't read it. ”

After the send button was pressed, I turned my head to look out the window, and all of a sudden, I asked myself: Oh my God? I lowered my head again and looked at the photo with Zhao Song on my phone, and asked myself with a wry smile, how are you doing? I looked around the basement where I lived again, and everything was fine.

Pretend, pretend I'm all right.

As Arauy said, there is no obstacle in this world that cannot be overcome. The extremes of things must be reversed, whether it is a trough or a high mountain, all roads need to be walked step by step, and it is useless to be in a hurry.

After tidying up the house, I went back to my basement. Every time I stepped on those steps down, I seemed to feel that my soul had followed the steps slowly to the ground and sunk to the bottom. All my emotions were silent below the horizon, and I couldn't find a trace.

I looked through the half-window at the little light coming in, and I knew that the result was that time was fast and I could accomplish nothing. I want to survive, and I have to pay back the money I owe Arauy. So I need to pull myself together, I need to work hard.

Suddenly, I thought of Zhao Song when he asked me to record that voice, and he once said that the huge amount of money was used as a breakup fee for the two of us! I sat on that bed myself and laughed, breakup fee? It's ridiculous! It's a shame that Zhao Song can figure it out! What kind of person is he, who can have such a generally distorted three views, so that a man will be so ashamed to say that he wants to break up when he is close to 40 years old?

And what is the breakup fee? Youth? Time? Nonsense.

I hunched my legs against the head of the bed. The bed wasn't comfortable, it was probably the most unstable and hardest bed I've slept in in years.

I was thinking wildly, are all the people I've met over the years scumbags? It's still impossible to say whether it's scum or not, but at least, none of the endings seem to be perfect and ideal. I shook my head and refreshed myself.

That's when I decided to look for a job. And because my English is so poor, I can't read the job postings at all. You must know that most of the so-called recruitment information is still some professional words. I looked at the dictionary as I looked it up. From the morning to the evening, less than 20 were translated, and there was no suitable one.

I stuck my fingers in my hair and stirred it so hard that I felt like a mess of mush. I also assumed that if I had listened to the advice of my family at that time, went to the unit they were looking for, and found the person they introduced me, would I not have these tricky things now?

I was thinking that Arauy was back. As soon as she entered the door, she came to the basement to see me. Asked me if I had lunch at noon with concern, and brought back a signature cake from her shop.

Arauy said, "Mu Xi, I'll tell you. The cake shop where I work is very famous in this area and has been around for many years. Especially making this kind of small cake, which is simply a classic of classics, is basically sold out every day. I took the little fork Arauy had handed me, dug a edge along the corner of the cake and stuffed it into my mouth.

"Well, it's delicious!"

"Delicious, why don't you eat more? How to be like a kitten, little by little. Arauy said as he shoved the cake into my hand.

While I was savoring the cake, I was more moved.

I told Arauy about my daytime job search. Arauy heard my distress and smiled playfully, "Look for me!" I'll help you, what kind of job are you looking for? "I didn't hide it from Arauy, I told her that when I first came to Toronto with my boyfriend, I didn't have a job in my plans, so there was all the information about my academic qualifications and so on. And now I don't know what I can do. However, when I was in China, I was the highest, and I was the deputy manager of the sales department, and my performance was not bad.

Arauy's eyes lit up: "Wow! Talented girl! Can you do sales? That's easy to do! In this way, Mu Xi, with your current situation, don't say that you don't have relevant academic certificates, even if you have, your whole state is not suitable for doing too stressful work. You should adjust your mindset first and take your time. Besides, if you find another job, you'll move from here, and I'm still not at ease. Although the security in Toronto is good, after all, you have just arrived, and you don't know a lot of things yet. So, if you don't mind, you can try coming to my cake shop. You only need to provide a health certificate. I don't look at academic qualifications here, I just use performance to speak. And let me tell you, don't underestimate my small shop, there is a large catering company on top of it, and if you do a good job, maybe you will have a chance to go to the head office. ”

I was delighted with Arauy's proposal. In this way, in the next two or three days, I went to the same unit with her after obtaining the relevant documents.

The cake shop was much bigger than I expected, and it basically subverted the traditional small bakery in my impression of China. And the staff is not small. In fact, sales is not a problem for me, but my English communication is a flaw.

In Toronto, I wouldn't say what to sell?

So in the first month of my year, I only got my basic salary. For this reason, the manager of the store also went to Arauy to talk to and try to persuade her to dissuade me. Arauy helped with a lot of nice things about me from the manager and repeatedly said that she would help me with English lessons.

So, during that time, I started to study English every day after getting off work from the unit.

Arauy is the only person I've faced the darkness in Toronto and walked with me. Two months later, my English has improved significantly, and I have improved by leaps and bounds in communicating with others. Coupled with my innate sales advantage, I quickly became a new star in the store.

In the third month of my job, I was already earning twice as much as before.

That day, I gave Arauy a gift as a thank you.

Arauy wanted me to move out of the basement, but I refused. I don't know why, but perhaps, that place can boost my fighting spirit, and can make me go from being uneasy to stable.

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