Xu Shu's words were clueless, Zhuang Li asked, Xu Shu was silent, Zhuang Li was helpless, so he had to send Xu Shu back, in the end, he couldn't rest assured that Xu Shu couldn't pry open Xu Shu's mouth, and turned his head to find Zhou Jin, but Zhou Jin suddenly had no whereabouts, Zhuang Li suddenly felt a little bad, and he didn't find any useful information after monitoring the Fu family for a few days, and he also got new instructions, so he had to give up.

The affairs of the Song family have been settled, Xu Shu is finally relieved, and when she returns to the Xu family, she is locked in the house alone and mixes the medicine given by Zhou Jin into the spices that are ready to be sent to the palace on the winter solstice.

After Xu Shu came back, he no longer mentioned anything related to the Song family, Taxue vaguely guessed, and plucked up the courage to ask Xu Shu, Xu Shu did not hide it, and directly admitted, "It is indeed for the Song family, but this is the last time, I will never look for Zhuang Li again!" ”

It turns out that the person's name is Zhuang Li!

Treadyuki muttered, "Why is it the last ......?"

"There's no why, I won't need him anymore!" Xu Shu half-chipped her head, her neck was slightly bent, half of her face was hidden in the shadow of the backlight, and the expression on her face was not real.

Seeing this, Taxue didn't ask any more questions, suddenly remembered something, and hurriedly said, "Miss, when you went out, the Gao family sent a post, and Miss Gao asked you to go to the hookah pavilion tomorrow to eat vegetarian food!" ”

Xu Shu's expression finally brought a little joy, "Okay, I'll reply to her!" ”

replied to Gao Zhinan, and began to prepare the things he would use when he went out tomorrow, so he finally finished the day.

As soon as it got dark, Xu Shu immediately lay down on the bed, today she felt extremely tired, tired and didn't even have the strength to say a word, but at the moment lying on the bed there was no sleep, mixed thoughts and thoughts rushed in her mind, preventing her from wanting to fall asleep.

"Is this my life?" Xu Shu covered her eyes with her hands and muttered to herself in a low voice, "I've never only believed in fate and didn't accept fate, didn't I?" What can my life do to me? If it had managed to win me, I would have died long ago...... But why is life so tiring, getting more and more tired day by day......"

"That's it, I brought it all on myself...... Xu Shu smiled coldly, "What's wrong with being a blind man?" If you have to go out of that head, it's easy to stretch out your head and it's hard to shrink your head, and probably you won't be able to be that quiet little blind man again......"

It was still pitch black when she removed her hand, and more than seven years had passed, and she had almost forgotten what the world was like...... I don't know if I'll ever have a chance to see the world again......

"Why are you so cruel to me, you escaped death but ended up blind, what did I do wrong......

Two lines of tears rolled down, Xu Shu crouched on the bed and hugged herself tightly, through the thin fabric, the traces of the fire on her back left an abrupt and weird touch on her fingertips, the only thing that was fortunate was that the fire did not damage her face, she could still pretend to be a normal person......

After so many years, Xu Shu still clearly remembers all the details before and after the fire, her mother's satisfied smile, her brother's loud cry, the different faces of her aunts, and her father's radiant posture, everything is so clear that she can't forget it if she wants to.

As a third child who has an older sister above and younger siblings below, Xu Shu was not favored when she was a child. When she was first born, because she found out that it was a girl, Wang didn't look very happy, and she didn't even do it, and Li still had Xu Ting in the house at that time, so Xu Shu was handed over to the nurse within a few days.

It didn't take long for Li to be pregnant with Xu Shu again, and she couldn't take care of Xu Shu even more, Xu Shu was accompanied by the nurse and the girl when she was babbling, and the nurse and the girl were with her when Xu Shu was a toddler.

Xu Shu worked hard for a long time, and finally could go to Chunhui Courtyard on her own two little short legs, but she still didn't have a chance to be with her mother, Li pulled Xu Ting with her left hand, and held Xu Ting with her right hand, there was no place for her, Xu Shu could only sit on a small stool alone and watch her mother feed her sister and tie pigtails for her sister, occasionally her mother would raise her head and smile at her gently, that moment was Xu Shu's happiest time.

Later, her mother finally gave birth to a younger brother to her, Xu Shu knew that her mother had always wanted to give birth to a younger brother, and her wish finally came true, her mother must be very happy, and she would be happy when her mother was happy...... As long as her mother is happy, she is willing to do anything.

But her sister and sister were not happy, little Xu Shu didn't understand why they were unhappy about such a thing that the whole family was happy about, and then she finally understood, but it was too late to understand......

The fire took away not only her eyes, but also the faith that sustained her through her lonely childhood......

Xu Shu hugged her arms, her fingers were about to sink into the flesh, her shoulders shrugged, crying silently and sadly.

She hasn't cried like this for a long time, because her eyes are uncomfortable and she can't cry all these years, so Xu Shu can't even cry less, but once she cries, she can't hold back anymore, thinking about everything she has experienced in just over ten years, she can't help but feel uncomfortable, she is still a child after all.

But some people never treat her as a child, especially when she needs to help......

A blind man, a blind man who is useless, even if she is the only sister-in-law who saved the long house, but she is still a blind man, a blind man who has no use, white eyes and cold treatment are what Xu Shu often suffered when she was blind just now, and the alienation from relatives made Xu Shu at a young age experience the warmth and coldness of people prematurely, and grew up quickly.

She had to get it back all that she had lost in the fire!

Fortunately, she was smart enough and hard enough, and with ten times more than ordinary people, she finally became a useful blind man, a blind man who gradually made the Xu family inseparable.

But the blind man will always be a blind man, in the eyes of the relatives she cares about, she is always just a blind person, no matter how much she does, she will not get half of their excess respect and love, even if it is a sister of the same mother, she does not treat you as a sister, in the eyes of others, she has never considered her use value, relatives are like this, and strangers are the same......

At this point, Xu Shu finally understood it completely, and her heart was cold......

The eyes full of tears were hot and painful, and she was trembling with pain when she closed her eyes and opened her eyes, Xu Shu wiped the tears from her eyes with trembling hands, and finally calmed down after staying for a long time, slowly lying down, with her hands crossed on her chest, there was a small porcelain bottle there before, and the things of that porcelain bottle might one day send her into the abyss of no return, but that day was too far away, so far that she didn't want to think about it......

Some things always have to be done, and helping Zhou Jin is actually Zhuang Li, which is probably the last thing she can do for Zhuang Li......