The two minutes passed quite quickly, and I even glanced back at the mountain with a strong magnetic field not far behind me.

I thought that if I pulled the two of them up at the last moment, they would have told me that it was like an out-of-body moment and a deep tunnel into another dimension or dimension.

And that deep tunnel is exactly what I have been striving for for so many years.

But I didn't count the time, and by the time I looked back, the mother and daughter had disappeared from my sight.

I rushed up to the bluestone, the water was rippling, and I seemed to see Xiaoxing's pink clothes falling rapidly to the bottom of the pool.

In the last moment, I saw her wide-eyed eyes looking at me incredulously.

I knew it was late, and I was too late to reach out desperately.

After that, I ran frantically to the hill not far away, to the tree, and desperately shouted the names of the two of them.

However, there was nothing but startling a number of birds.

August 29, 2015

I've been sitting on the edge of the pool all night, and I don't know how deep it is, but when I threw a pebble into it, it sank without even a whirlpool.

The daytime came as scheduled, and the sunshine of the waterfall was still sprinkled on the waterfall, and two beautiful rainbows rose as usual.

What a beautiful scene, no one would have expected that two fresh lives were lost yesterday under such a beautiful landscape.

In the evening, the afterglow of the setting sun sprinkles down, and a bright rainbow rises above the waterfall, which is extremely beautiful.

When the rainbows went down, two figures, one red and one white, floated on the turquoise pool.

They finally came up.

At first, I even had a glimmer of hope that they would be able to stand up alive.

But that was an extravagant hope, when I laboriously fished them ashore.

Xiaoyun and Xiaoxing, their bodies were swollen.

The hands were still in an upward position, and at the last moment, they should have hoped that I could reach out and grab them and give them hope.

For a moment, I felt like I was the murderer.

But the mental illness instantly made me make an excuse for myself, and I thought they must have gone to that space.

That space must be very similar to our one, and maybe there is another me.

With a bit of luck, I buried them under the tall birch tree in the middle of the platform.

It's the center of the magnetic field, and I still have a glimmer of hope.

August 30, 2015

The night passed, and Peacock Mountain was as usual, as if nothing had happened.

I felt like I should do something and I called the police.

I lied to the police, and I said that Xiaoyun and Xiaoxing sank to the bottom of the pool and never came up again.

Everyone believed me, and of course they tried in vain several times to find the bodies of both of them from the bottom of the pool.

I feel like I'm an actor by nature, and I'm sad and hopeful that they can really get the two of them out of the pool.

Seriously, I'm really sad that the two most important people in my life are going to disappear from the world from now on. It's a personal sadness.

A few days later, the police gave up the salvage and advised me to mourn by the way.

I was really sad and I decided to stay there and I wanted to be there for them.

If they could see me in the other world, they would at least believe that I wasn't so ruthless.

How many great scientists in the world, if they want to succeed, there is no shortcut, they have to pay a number of times more hardship than ordinary people.

I think it's worth paying a little bit for the sake of success one day.

October 1, 2015

When I returned to City B, when I returned to that empty and lifeless home.

I seemed to be in a dream, and when I woke up, I realized that my mental illness seemed to be getting worse.

There is no man in the world who can face his wife and daughter at the moment of life and death, and he is still hesitant to save him, I am afraid that there are not many, and one of them is me.

What a terrible thing that would be.

So I hurried to the psychiatric clinic, and with Dr. Chua, I always get a moment of peace.

After more than two hours of treatment, I feel much better, and I can't sleep at night for the past month.

At this time, I actually slept in Dr. Chua's comfortable recliner for an hour.

When he left the door of the clinic, a very sloppy man came in from outside the door, with long hair and a long beard that almost blocked his entire face.

At the time, I still thought that beggars are really true today, and there is no occasion for begging for money.

Unexpectedly, the front desk of the clinic was quite polite to him, and led the person upstairs directly.

I wondered even more, I didn't expect that beggars nowadays also have a tendency to see a psychiatrist.

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For a few months after that, the professor didn't keep a diary, and the next time he kept a diary, it was the day he met Loya.

March 21, 2016

Today, I met the author named Mandoli at a café on Binhai South Road.

The first time I saw her, to be honest, I was a little surprised.

In my imagination, she should be a chubby, ****** middle-aged woman.

But on the contrary, she is very young, with sharp eyes, revealing the shrewdness and ability of an urban working woman.

She sat in front of the window, a ray of sunlight shining on her youthful face, and for a moment I thought I had seen the dawn clouds of my youth again.

Now that she takes a closer look, there is really a trace of similarity between her eyebrows and Xiaoyun.

In fact, I first came up with this author named Mandoli because of the writer Big Goose, who I had never interacted with in my life.

The man I saw at Dr. Chua's psychiatric clinic dressed as a beggar was actually the legendary long-lost writer Big Goose.

I don't understand the world of literati, just as they don't understand the world of a university professor like me, who studies physics.

Since returning from Peacock Mountain, I have been visiting Dr. Chua's mental clinic more and more frequently.

To be honest, I don't think it matters whether the treatment is effective or not.

I just want to sleep with him, because I can't sleep anywhere else, even if I'm too sleepy.

The beggar basically came in when I went out the door, and I was curious and asked Dr. Chua about it.

But Dr. Chua says it is his duty to protect the privacy of his patients.

Until one day, I happened to meet the beggar in the underground passage.

That day, when I left the clinic, the beggar did not show up.

But when I went to the parking lot opposite the clinic to pick up the car, I passed through the underground passage and happened to meet the beggar who was seeing a psychiatrist.

At that time, he was in a corner of the passage, with a newspaper in his hand and reading intently.

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