When I left the palace, the two guards looked at me with such timid eyes, and I always felt that they were pitying me, and I even wanted to take my anger out on them: "Look, I will never use silver to gag your mouths again!" ”

I guess the two guards were also confused, and I looked back at the palace, and there was no one in the empty city walls, and I went away without hesitation.

My hair was still a little wet, and the ends of my hair were dripping with water. Mo'er was scolding Chu Muxiu for being ruthless all the way, it was really cold outside in early spring, and a gust of wind blew from time to time, which made me shiver from the cold, Mo'er took off his coat and hugged me all the way, but I still felt so cold. Halfway through, there were a few thunderclaps in the sky, and a few lightning flashes brought a heavy rain.

"It's almost home, it's raining outside!"

"Uncle has closed the stall, and it is raining heavily!"

The uncles and uncles who set up stalls on the street all ran home to hide from the rain, and pedestrians on the street were in a hurry. I looked up slightly, and big drops of rain fell on my head and hit me in the face. I suddenly felt that Chu Muxiu was so ruthless, no matter what the reason, he shouldn't have driven me out so mercilessly......

He is really, a man without feelings; I'm serious, it's the wrong feeling.

Chu Muxiu stood on the tower of the palace city in a daze.

"Your Highness."

Chu Muxiu was still looking at the dim sky outside: "Is she gone?" ”

Qian Che seemed a little frustrated: "Let's go!" ”

"It's raining and windy outside, Ah Candle hasn't fully recovered, and they don't need a carriage, so the journey back home may be a little difficult."

"No matter how hard it is, it's always good to be able to get home at the end!"

"Why did Your Highness suddenly want to drive Ah Candle and Mo'er away, didn't Lord Taifu say something to you today?" Qian Che asked Chu Muxiu.

"Taifu is just reminding me, I know that I am not qualified to talk about these things at this time, whoever I get close to will be in danger, I can't even protect myself, so why should I catch someone else."

"By the way, is there any movement on Chu Hanyuan and Empress Dowager Zhao's side?" After a long time, Chu Muxiu asked Qianche.

Qian Che clenched his hands into fists: "Back to Your Highness, according to our spies in the palace, since the border incident, the Zhao family mother and son have not done anything more, and have been staying in the palace peacefully." ”

"Anfen? The two of them are begging to be able to sit still, but the time has not yet come. ”

Qian Che didn't speak, just stood silently behind Chu Muxiu. He was calloused, but he seemed to be used to it.

Later, I finally dragged my heavy body back to the house, I saw Aunt Song walking around anxiously at the door, I knew she was waiting for me, and I also knew that I had made her uneasy again.

Aunt Song smiled when she saw me coming back, but when she saw that I was soaking wet, she frowned again, and ran over to help me in the heavy rain: "Oh, my ancestor, why are your clothes so wet, where have you gone, and you can't go home when it's raining." ”

Although Aunt Song was scolding me, I felt so relieved, so relieved......

"Aunt Song, I'm gone, I've been walking for a long time, and I'm finally back, and I'm ...... back" I have no strength, I feel that my body is so heavy and my head is so heavy, and I fell into the water before I finished speaking.

"Ah Candle, Ah Candle, Ah ......" In a trance, I seemed to hear Mo'er calling me, and Aunt Song was sobbing loudly.

I fell asleep again, in my sleep I curled up in that deserted corner, I didn't feel anything but felt so cold, I saw my mother slowly walking towards me with a lamp, the lamp hit my face and shone me so warm. I reached out and tried to grab the lamp, but it was gone, and my mother was gone. I stood up and searched and screamed with my hands, but I couldn't catch them.

"Mother, mother, don't go, Ah Candle is afraid, I'm afraid......" I was sleeping desperately trying to grab my mother's hand, I had never held my mother's hand.

"Don't be afraid, Daddy is here, Daddy is here!" I felt my hand grabbed, as if I heard Daddy calling me, and I opened my eyes suddenly.

Sure enough, Daddy sat in front of my bed, he held my hand tightly, his brows couldn't be untied, but his eyes were red. I saw Daddy's heart sink suddenly, as if I had returned to that warm haven. No matter how boring the house is, it is always my home, and Daddy will always be the best person for me in the world.

Yes, Daddy is the best person in this world for me.

I opened my lips slightly: "Daddy, I miss my mother!" "I can't believe that a tear will come down my cheek, I don't like to cry, but I am really wronged at the moment.

"Well, Daddy knows, Daddy knows......"

I don't know if Daddy really knows or coaxes me, but then I thought about it and I really shouldn't question Daddy, my mother has been gone for so many years Daddy raised me alone, he doesn't know how many times more painful than me, I don't know how many times more than I miss my mother.

Lang Zhong said that I had suffered from the cold when I was a child, and now I have it again, and the cold in my body is heavy. That day, I was sick with a cold for a long time, and I was either sitting or lying down in the room every day, I wanted to go out but was always stopped by Aunt Song, and this time Mo'er also helped Aunt Song stop me, so I didn't recruit anymore. Every day, Aunt Song would force me to drink those unpleasant Chinese medicines, and if there was no Songhua cake to accompany me, I would definitely not be able to drink it.

I stand at the mouth of the window from time to time, this window is really high, no wonder Qian Che was so angry when he fell. I looked at the osmanthus tree in the yard, and I thought it would bloom sooner, at least then I would have an excuse to go out, and I turned my head to look at the roof not far away, and occasionally a few spring birds stopped on it, and then I was gone in a moment. I think Chu Muxiu is the bird, coming and going without a trace, I can't see through, I can't touch it, and I can't catch it. My biggest dream when I was a kid was to have a pair of wings, because then I could go wherever I wanted, but now my biggest dream is to have someone with wings to fly with me wherever I want to go......

Occasionally, I would quietly go to Daddy's study to get some military books to read, some of which were about the inheritance of the predecessors' military science ideas and the theoretical summary of the military practical experience at that time. These books are too general for me to understand, but I'm just so bored that I don't have anything to do, I don't know why when I read these books, I always think of Chu Muxiu, think of Xuanwu, and think of the peach blossom that Chu Muxiu put on me on Nanshan. I am holding a wooden hairpin, and the peach blossoms carved on it are so exquisite, but the person who carved it is so ruthless......

I have been sick for several months in a row, I have not gone out once, I have not received any news about Chu Muxiu, and he has not come to me again.

I guess he'd forgotten about me.

Daddy came back early that day, and he said he was going to take me to a place, and I asked him where he was going, and he said just follow him.

I thought that my father was going to take me to my mother's grave to incense, but Qingming had already passed. I didn't expect Daddy to take me into his study, I don't know what Daddy thinks, but I really don't want to read the Female Commandments or the Book of Soldiers anymore.

"Daddy, do you have something to tell me?"

"Ah Candle, didn't you say that you missed your mother at that time, and I will take you to see her."

I grabbed Daddy: "See her?" My mother kissed her, is she still alive? ”

"You come with me!"

My face was not very good, half happy and half confused, Daddy walked over to the bookshelf and gently twisted the most inconspicuous stone lump on the wall.

"Pounding ......"

I never expected it to be a facility, and there was a basement in the study. No wonder Daddy usually doesn't let me enter his study at will, when I was a child, I accidentally saw the stone bump on the wall, I thought it looked good, so I touched it, and I was scolded by Daddy. At that time, I was angry and ignored Daddy for several days, and then Daddy came to coax me with those novel gadgets, and I gradually let go.

At that time, I didn't understand, it turned out that there was another mystery inside.

It was so dark in the basement, Daddy was holding me with a lantern and the other, and when I walked inside, it was brightly lit. It was the first time I knew that there was a small room hidden under Daddy's study, and I looked around carefully for a long time curiously, there were many oil lamps hanging on the wall, and Daddy put the lanterns on the ground and walked along the oil lamps. Daddy seems to be very familiar with this place, and I have to say that my mood is complicated now, and I am a little scared when I look forward to it all at once.

Daddy walked in front: "Ah Candle follow up." ”

"Oh!" I couldn't help but quicken my pace and follow Daddy.

Truth be told, it's a bleak place.

Daddy and I walked in and turned a corner and walked into a small room, there was a table in it, incense and candles were burning on the table, there were melons and fruits on the plate, and there was a big portrait hanging on the empty wall, the woman in the painting was really good-looking, wearing a purple carrot skirt, wearing a phoenix tail hairpin, and smiling kindly, I stepped forward to take a closer look at her and dragged a peach blossom in her hand. It may have been some years ago, and the rice paper has been a little yellowed.

I wondered and looked at Daddy: "This is ......"

"This is your mother."

"My mother?" I touched the portrait with my hand, "It turns out that my mother looks like this, it's so beautiful!" ”

I complained a little in my heart: "Why did Daddy bring me to see my mother now?" ”

Daddy began to speak seriously again: "In the past, you were always clamoring for your mother's mother, but when you were still young, I was afraid that you would miss her more and more when you showed you the portrait of your mother, so I thought that when you grew up and became sensible, I would tell you that one day Daddy would be one step ahead of you, and I would leave it to you to think about it later." ”

"Good and dignified Daddy, what are you talking about, it makes me upset......

"Okay, okay, if you don't want to listen to me, don't talk about it!"

Since I was a child, my father was most afraid of me being angry, because I didn't talk to him when I was angry, and he was anxious when I didn't talk to him, and then he had to spend a lot of time coaxing me, which was really worth the loss......

Daddy said that this portrait was painted by his mother, it was early spring at that time, the peach blossoms in the yard were blooming, and the mother picked one and smiled so happily. Daddy said that it was the most beautiful picture he had ever seen in his life, so he took rice paper from the study and completed the painting after a while.

I have to say that Daddy's calligraphy and painting skills are really superb.

Actually, I was still fantasizing about whether my mother was really alive, but I didn't expect it to be a painting, even though it was just a painting, I was also very satisfied. At least I can come and see when I want to be a mother, and I finally know why Daddy can stay in the study all day.