Chapter 40: The Past Is Like the Wind
Walking under the silent night sky, my mood is as calm as the water on the lake. Looking at Eiko who was holding a delicate porcelain doll next to her and looking up and down, her eyes couldn't hide her joy, and she was inexplicably moved in her heart.
"Eiko? What do you think is happiness? I looked at Eiko next to me and smiled.
"Happiness, happiness is to have some small surprises and romance in ordinary life, you can do what you like and love the person you like as you like! I want to have love, and I have a person who can be equal to me and cherish each other to love me! Until then, I will try to be a better version of myself. Eiko's eyes stared at the sky for a moment, and then looked into my eyes and said seriously.
"Yes, when two people are together, they must choose a person at will because of love, not because of loneliness, because of emotion, and because of curiosity. As you get older, you will find that all love and separation begin with a slow understanding and a slow run-in. Some people stay with you because they know you well enough and get along with you better and better. Some people, walking and walking, scattered, also began to understand, and finally understood better. In the baptism of time, you know who is worthy of a lifetime of companionship, and you have also learned a lot of truths from failed relationships. The right person, I want her to be surrounded by joy and surprise for the rest of her life. I will try my best to the point where people will not dare to have the slightest disrespect for her as soon as they hear my name! Looking into Eiko's eyes, I also said solemnly.
A trace of panic flashed in Eiko's eyes, and then she slowly calmed down: "For our dreams, for our future happiness." Come on! ”
A crisp high-five spread far away, and both of us had a kind smile on our faces.
In front of the dormitory, stand still.
"Rest early, tomorrow, I'll wait for you." I smiled at Eiko, who was playing with the porcelain doll with her head down.
"Okay, you have to rest early, good night, good dreams." Eiko smiled at me and hurried into the dormitory.
"Good dreams!" A voice of joy came from afar.
"Good! Go back, Ann! Eiko's little head popped out, and she waved at me and smiled.
"Ann!" The corners of my mouth rose slightly, revealing a big smile. Then he turned around and went back to the dormitory.
After staying in the dormitory for about ten minutes, I peeked my head out to take a look, and after discovering that Eiko was indeed resting, I rushed towards the old man's infirmary while it was night.
The wind is whistling in my ears, but my mood is really hot, Eiko, I will definitely catch you!
trotting all the way, when he was about to come to the old man's infirmary, he suddenly saw such a scene: an old man with gray hair stood quietly with his hands in his hands, and the breeze gently blew on his gray coat, bringing a trace of elegant temperament. His back is a little desolate and lonely, but he can feel that when he was young, he must have been a dream-chasing boy with arrogance and enthusiasm.
The old man seemed to feel something, and I saw him slowly turn his head and smile at me: "The little girl sent it back?" ”
"Uh-huh, she's back to her dorm. Uncle, do you have anything to do with me? I asked, curious.
"Come with me, and I'll tell you a story." The expression on the old man's face was surprisingly serious.
"Good!" I nodded earnestly. He once said that he had a regret that he had not forgotten for ten years, could it be ......
Walking on the quiet path, we walked forward one after the other, and we didn't know how long we walked. Suddenly, the old man stopped, sat down on the steps next to him, and said to me, "Come on, today I will tell you about my heart knot, although you may not understand it too much, but it is okay!" ”
"Okay!" I hurriedly ran to the old man and sat down, listening attentively.
"The story takes place 40 years ago, when I was young and full of spirit. That year, I met her who was also at the peak of her appearance, maybe because of the hormones that burst during puberty, I actually had a feeling of love at first sight for her. The old man didn't say much and went straight to the topic.
"Everyone can't accept love at first sight, let alone at that time. So, I began to frantically improve myself, frantically replenish my inner self, and after two full years, I was already the best among my peers, and in these two years, her body became clearer and clearer. So, with great ambition and infinite longing, I inquired more and knew where she lived. The old man's eyes were a little hazy when he looked at the sky.
"I started to take the initiative and started chasing my dreams, and my first confession ended in failure. She's not the kind of person you will accept as long as you come up. Love is never so simple. Speaking of this, the old man's eyes were surprisingly bright.
"Well, then, old man, have you given up?" I asked cautiously.
"How is that possible? If it's so easy to give up, is that called love? That's just play! I didn't give up, and when I got back, I thought about it and didn't sleep all night. When the first rays of the sun hit my face the next morning, my heart was suddenly full of energy. Yes, if a blow knocks me out, then what right do I have to say love? So, my whole person was full of faith again, and I chased her, even if I gave everything I had! The old man's eyes were shining, and his whole body was trembling slightly.
"I started to be in her life, I started to get in touch with her friends, I started to understand everything she liked, I started to get to know her in all aspects, I understood what kind of girl she was. Luckily, she's the type I like, and she has a personality that I particularly admire. This made me strengthen my belief and what I thought in my heart: she is the right person! I, the slogan that began to charge her, began to create "chance encounters", and accumulated fate. Maybe it's because she sees my obsession, or maybe she thinks I'm not bad, and her friends are also actively cooperating with me. Finally, after two years, she gave me a chance, a chance that made me ecstatic! That day, I didn't sleep all night and sat in front of her house all night. The light in the old man's eyes became stronger, and his whole person was in a peculiar state when he said this.
Later, we began to be inseparable and became a "fairy couple" in the eyes of others, and that time was the happiest stage of my life. The old man's eyes were filled with the taste of happiness.
"Did you end up doing it?" Seeing the old man so happy, I was also suddenly enlightened, and my mood became extraordinarily bright.
"Alas!" With a light sigh, the old man raised his head, his eyes were instantly filled with tears, and he slowly stood up and looked at the sky, and said in a low voice: "All tragedies are due to lack of trust and too much care!" At noon on the third hundred and sixty-first day of our relationship, I went to see her instead.
It was a meal, and I went to her with a good lunch to surprise her. However, when I came to her place of work, I found that she was chatting with a man, and on her face, I saw a happy, sweet look.
My heart instantly ached as if it had been torn apart with my bare hands, and the blood in my brain instantly surged. As soon as the meal was thrown, the whole person rushed up at lightning speed and attacked the man with two critical hits. This scene deeply shocked everyone present, and she even covered her mouth and pointed at me speechless. I took a deep look at her, and the phrase "break up" came out of my mouth softly, and then turned to leave. Behind her was like five thunderbolts, and her heart-rending cry sounded instantly, only to see her crying and running out to take my hand and whimpering: "We are really not what you imagined, you listen to my explanation......"
Impatiently shook off her hand, I looked at her coldly: "Don't explain, I understand, I have never forced you, nor will I restrict your freedom, force you to like whom!" You are who you are, and no one can force you to be anyone's whom, not even me! With that, ignoring the tears on her face that raged like breaking through the embankment, I turned around and strode out.
"Yang Ao, listen to my explanation!" There was a heart-rending cry behind him.
I paused, but never looked back...... "The light in the old man's eyes became more and more dim.
"Didn't you go back to her? Maybe ......" I deeply felt the despair in the old man's heart, but I still raised my head and asked.
"That afternoon, I went straight to the field, and my contact information was lost. In that era when carriages and horses were slow to write letters, and there was only enough love for one person in my life, I finally slowly fell silent.
I was desperate and never got out, but it was only after my parents pleaded with me that I reluctantly got married. However, the figure in my heart has always been bright and uncertain. It wasn't until ten years ago that I returned to my hometown on a whim, and I accidentally heard about her: her life was very hard, and after I left, she seemed to be a different person. began to be silent, the whole person was on the verge of collapse, twenty-eight years, she waited for me for twenty-eight years, during which her parents forced her to marry many times, she swore to death, and even forced each other to die! It's a pity that fate didn't open a door to this stubborn girl, she didn't wait for me, the year before I returned to my hometown, she was depressed and died of illness...... "The tears in the old man's eyes poured down like a flood bursting the embankment, and the whole person curled up there like a helpless child, and the world seemed to abandon him......
With tears in my eyes, I stayed quietly in place, letting the tears linger, looking up at the sky, there seemed to be a shadow in front of me. I've always been an emotional person, since I was a child, but my emotional intelligence is really not that high, it's just simply emotional, and when I hear a tearful story, I will be sad and uproar, people, all have feelings.
Walking slowly to the old man's side, I was speechless for a while, raised my hands and patted him on the shoulder: "She, she must not want to see you like this!" You have to live well! See more of the beauty of this world, and enjoy the sunshine, rain and happiness of this world. I think this must be her last wish that she failed to witness! ”
The old man raised his head, looked into my eyes with red eyes, and said, "She, she has always had a desire to go to the North Pole for adventure, I went, I went to see." My biggest wish in my life is to see her again, even if it's a glance! Do you know why we've become the way we are? Because you don't trust enough, because you don't communicate much? The man who talked to her that day, they were talking about the anniversary between me and her, and her anniversary of a year! She's trying to surprise me......"
"Do you know why I'm saying these things to you?" The old man said while sobbing and staring at me seriously.
"Hmm, do you want me to learn your lesson?" My reddened eyes were fixed on the old man.
"That's right! Learn my lesson, that little girl, a good girl! I can feel that not only did you not affect your studies because you liked her, but you worked harder. So, I'm not against your puppy love! I see in you the shadow of who I used to be. Remember, don't say those three words to her when you don't have the strength to protect her! It's not just a matter of talking, it's a burden, it's a responsibility! The old man stared at my eyes seriously and said.
My head exploded, and my whole body was like being empowered, yes, I couldn't say that to her before I had absolute strength.
Nodding vigorously, I clenched my fists, and my heart burned like a fire, waiting for me to become famous! I'm sure I'll say that to you personally!
"Okay, I've handed over all the things I have expressed to you, go back and rest early, I'm going to sit for a while, you and the little girl can come to see me from time to time, the last thing you need is time." The old man looked into my eyes and nodded with satisfaction, then waved his hand.
"Thank you for giving me advice! I will definitely come to see you more often in the future! Take care! I bowed deeply to the old man, and then stepped into the dark night without looking back.
Tonight, it's a sleepless night......
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