I ran over in a panic, and there was a large crowd of people around the bridge chattering about these things.

"Let's give up, let's go." I ran over and peeled away the crowd vigorously, and for the first time I felt that there was such a great power in my heart, and for the first time I felt that there was such a person who could be protected with my own life.

I was still being squeezed in the crowd, someone patted me on the back from behind, and when I turned around, it was actually Chu Muxiu, who looked at me with a look of surprise. I also wondered if he was not drunk, and he couldn't say a word for a long time.

We stood on the stone bridge and watched the people coming and going on the shore, the scene was quiet like never before, and we all seemed to be brewing and waiting, waiting for someone to speak first.

He suddenly put his hand on the bridge, and then said with a smile, "So afraid that I will die?" ”

I was stunned at first, because I had never seen him smile like this, it seemed to be easier than ever, and my scalp was tingling with laughter, and I didn't know how to answer him politely.

The singer on the bow of the boat in the lake began to sing again, singing how it was again a leaf, "The leaves are pale, the white dew is frost, the so-called Yiren, on the side of the water, ......" A burst of sad singing came into my ears, singing so much that my tears were about to fall.

When the boat sailed under our feet, I said to Chu Muxiu: "You said that these boats are drifting around all day, do the singers on the boat have a home?" ”

"Why do you always care about other people's things?"

"Huh?"

"It's fine." Seeing that I bowed my head and was silent, he asked me again, "Are you really planning to go to Zixu Country?" ”

I lowered my head and said, "Well, I've figured it out." ”

"Do you know how worried and anxious I was when I heard you say that you were willing to go to Zixu Kingdom, I was afraid that I would never see you again, I had never been so afraid, even more afraid than the first time I went to the battlefield. I thought you just couldn't get past that level in your heart, as long as I begged you, you would still stay for me. In fact, after I left that day, I thought a lot, and I think Mo'er was right, I was too selfish, I always wanted to trap you around, never asked you if you were willing, never considered whether you were really happy. I think if you could come today, I might really give up everything here and take you away, regardless of anyone's thoughts. But you didn't show up from daytime until dark, and when I walked out of the Drunken Immortal Residence, I suddenly felt ridiculous, and my love was really humble. In fact, loving someone doesn't have to be possessive, it's hoping that the other person can be happy and the other can be happy, so I think I should let it go, it's a kind of torture for you and me to drag it out like this, if you're not happy by my side, what's the point, if you really make up your mind, do it. From now on, let's be friends, like you told me at the border before, we're going to be that kind of friends. ”

I laughed worse than I cried, nodded and said, "Hmmm......"

"If there's anything you can't put down, you can tell me, maybe I can do it for you."

"Nope."

Isn't it you the last thing I can let go?

Chu Muxiu had never said so much to me seriously, in fact, he knew all these things in his heart, but he couldn't express them. I'm happy and sad in my heart, anyway, it's an indescribable sense of liberation, and we can finally do it without owing each other.

It was already late at night, I said that I was going back to the house, Chu Muxiu said that he wanted to send me but I politely refused, he couldn't argue and then said, "I will send you for the last time." ”

I compromised with just one sentence he said, but luckily it didn't rain tonight, otherwise it would have been very embarrassing?

On the way back, I heard a few vendors shouting at the candy sellers, I paused, looked sideways to see that Chu Muxiu beside me was gone, and when I looked up again, I only saw him walking towards me with two strings of candy men in his hands. He is like a luminous body with its own light, and the wind blows on the sideburns on his forehead, which looks particularly good, just like when he was a child. At that time, I never thought that one day in the future he would bring me to buy candy man, I remember the first time I took him to eat candy man, he was not so active, it was me who soaked it for a long time before he would lick it.

He ran up to me and didn't gasp: "Here, Sugar Man." ”

He shoved the candy man into his mouth with a quick movement, even faster than me, and I raised the candy man in my hand and licked it.

"Is it sweet?" He asked me.

"Sweet, so sweet!"

The mouth is sweet, but the heart is bitter, looking at each other, knowing but unable to say what kind of pain this is.

They used to say I was a laughing girl, and then they said I was a laughing girl.

"I may stay in Huancheng for the rest of my life, if you are not happy there or someone bullies you, you can write to me, I will definitely bring people and horses to save you, I heard that the location of Zixu Country is good, and the mountains are full of green forests, but there are many insects, you remember to go out and bring some medicinal powder, otherwise you will ......"

"I see." There is no doubt that I broke the silence that should have been at this moment, and I have always felt that Chu Muxiu is a refreshing and neat person.

When I was about to arrive at the Prime Minister's Mansion, I greeted Chu Muxiu and said, "I'm here, you can go back." ”

"Well, then be careful."

After saying that, he turned around and left, and I took a look and left. As soon as he entered the gate, he suddenly stopped me from behind, "Ah Candle! ”

I turned my head to wait for him to speak, and he laughed again, "I can still call you that, I probably won't see you again." ”

"It could be so."

He nodded violently and said, "Have a nice trip." ”

"Then, I wish you a bright future." I don't even know what I'm talking about, and if someone next to me is going to laugh out of their big teeth.

"There will be a date later."

"Good friend, the meeting will be indefinite."

For a moment, I wanted to run over, take his hand and tell him that I was going to the Drunken Immortal Building today, and that he could take me away; I wanted to tell him that I had been there longer than he was; I wanted to tell him that my heart hurt like a pinprick; I wanted to tell him how reluctant I was to go to Zixu Country.

I never thought that I would say goodbye to Chu Muxiu as a friend, I never thought that it would be so harmonious and peaceful, I thought that we would have a big quarrel and then never get along with each other for the rest of our lives. Actually, it's good, and there's no burden in my heart.

All the goodness, indebtedness, guilt, and helplessness between us seem to have dissipated on this night......

The first person I saw when I opened the door in the morning was the Queen, and it seemed that she had been waiting for a long time to see that the ground under her feet had been trampled on the ground. There was no entourage around the queen, only the pothos followed, and the pothos saw me open the door and lowered her head suddenly, as if she was very scared.

I couldn't help but close the door and asked her angrily, "What is the reason why the queen is here?" ”

"Hongu wants to talk to you!"

I simply closed both doors: "There is nothing to say between us!" ”

I really don't want to say anything to the enemy, I don't even want to look at her, she probably can't imagine how much I hate her in my heart, and if I had a sword in my hand now, I can't guarantee that I won't kill her.

She blocked the door with her hand and wouldn't let me close it: "Why didn't you tell him when you went that day?" ”

I was stunned for a moment, and then my hand was released. I thought to myself, how could she know, did she see me that day?

"It's none of your business!"

"I know it's none of my business, but this matter involves His Royal Highness King Yi, if you leave, he won't be happy for the rest of his life!"

"But I won't be happy for the rest of my life if I stay here, don't pretend to be a good person anymore!" I paused, turned my face to the other side, and said, "I know you like him." ”

The queen seemed to have seen through everything, as plain as water: "I also thought I liked him, but the more I got to the back, the more I realized that my feelings for him were not like, but a comfort when we met for the first time." At first, I knew he liked me, and I was really angry, but gradually and gradually I didn't care so much that I didn't feel it at all, it was just an expectation, something that I couldn't let go of for too long. ”

Everything I said in my heart was a little fluctuating, but I didn't want to have a good face on her, "What are you telling me about this, I don't care!"

"Do you really not care? If you don't want to, I can help you intercede with Your Majesty......"

"Help me? You say you help me? I interrupted her, because I thought she was really ridiculous, "The queen who tried everything possible to kill me and me in the past actually wants to help me, how can you help me, help me murder my father, help me kill my whole family?" ”

"I admit that your father's death has nothing to do with me, but you must know that the biggest black hands behind the scenes are the Queen Mother and Zhang Weizhi, and you and King Yi are their pawns!"

I leaned up to her and said viciously, "Have you ever asked me if I'd like to be your pawn?" ”

"You are my pawn, but I am my father's pawn. Your father loves you, Chu Muxiu loves you, Lu Huai loves you, you can at least have a few real loves, but what about me, even my dearest people have to use me, once I could also have a pure love, but I didn't cherish it, I am obviously much sadder than you. I'm just like you, my family is ruined, I don't have a home, and the land of Xiliang in Nano has no home for me......"

Yes, they all love me, but they're all dead.

She began to cry as she spoke, and as soon as she cried, she collapsed on the ground, completely losing the dignified posture that the queen should have, I never thought that I would be the object of her confiding, I never thought that she would come to persuade me, in front of me is only a homeless person who floats like a lake.

The green pothos went over to help the queen, and then she also cried so much that she turned to me and said, "Miss Nan, I was wrong before, I shouldn't have treated you like that, evil will be rewarded, and now God has punished us and taken the entire Xiliang away." ”

"Nanyan Candle, I, Shen Suyi, am wrong, I am very wrong, I am willing to use you as a cow and a horse to atone for your sins in the next life."

I silently closed my eyes so that the tears would not fall: "Let's go......"

The queen's last words to me were: "If there is an afterlife, I am willing to be the daughter of an ordinary family." ”

Isn't it useful for them to compensate me now, will my father come back to life, will Aunt Song come back to life, will Lu Huai come back to life? How can I believe the wicked people who have ruined my family? Why did you use me when I believed in you, but then you said you liked me when I became cold? Why did you drive me away when I wanted to stay, and you persuaded me to stay one by one when I decided to leave everything behind?