I sing your praises, and I will not use moving metaphors;

I miss you, and not just because you're beautiful.

- Three Treasures, "The Fire of Butterflies"

The green train swayed, first over the old river bridge, then through the frozen fields, and finally into the edge of the city...... The process was so slow that the teenager leaning against the window of the car was already sleepy.

But when he was about to enter the station, the boy chose to put on his coat and wipe his face with cold water while the bathroom was still unlocked.

As soon as he looked up, he was in the mirror, and the young man in the mirror was still tall and thin, not thin, but slender, and he was not so big that his cheeks collapsed, but compared to the past, the sword eyebrows were still there but the starry eyes were gone, and the stars in his eyes were about to go out, as if his perception of happiness was about to leave forever.

Right away.

But what is about to arrive is the destination - the teenager's destination this time is his hometown, but he is not going home, even if today is the Chinese New Year's Eve, a day when almost everything has already arrived home.

From childhood to adulthood, others think that he has a happy and warm home, but others are others after all, and the happiness they think is only superficially seeing that his father and mother have a good social status and are polite in front of others, nothing more, and they don't know that the teenager just wants to escape.

Since I was a teenager, I have felt that my father is like a fictitious, unless I can't see him on New Year's Eve, and I won't have a good face when I see it; The mother is kind and pleasant in front of everyone, but she is quite unreasonable in private, and she must even grasp what the family eats and meets whom, otherwise she will make a big noise; Also, all kinds of relatives are indifferent and hypocritical, such as the young man's grandparents, he prefers the young man, but just because the young man is a grandson, the young man's cousin is very outstanding, but the grandfather has never treated each other with blue eyes, and the preference of such a person is not good, probably it is not love.

In his memories, the only thing that the boy felt a little warm was the nanny who brought him up, and she was gone early......

But the boy didn't just think about it, he was a man of action, he did flee, he went to college the summer before last and never came back, he fought for a scholarship, he worked part-time after class, he went to various companies for internships during the holidays......

And when he came back this time, the boy just wanted to see the girl he was thinking about.

It was a while ago, the boy happened to take a look at the group of middle school alumni, and learned that the girl was not having a good time after being known by others because of his crush on him, so he wanted to come back to see her, not only because she was the daughter of his teacher, but also because he actually liked girls.

At 2:35 p.m., the train arrived.

The boy put on a mask and goggles before getting off the train and stepping onto the platform.

He didn't want to be recognized.

However, it is unlikely to be recognized, on this day of the Chinese New Year's Eve, there are not many people on the road in third-tier cities, there is a depression, and it is difficult to take a taxi.

So the boy chose to walk, not far, five kilometers, to his teacher's current home.

But the difficult thing is that after all, after all, the New Year, Ruixue Mega Year, the snow fell after a while. On a snowy day, the temperature will not get colder, but it will make people who are already cold feel more sad and slow down.

The teenager is too tired, there is the fatigue of long-distance bumps, and the tiredness accumulated over the years. So the boy went into a café and wanted to order himself a cup of coffee.

As soon as he entered, he saw his father, he took another child, and asked the child to call him father, his face was different from the gentleness he had ever seen, and the gentleness that the boy had never seen before.

This is the thirtieth year of the Chinese New Year's Eve.

The boy didn't say anything, he just retreated and got back on the road.

Eventually, the young man arrived before dark, but before he could approach the door of the unit, he saw the girl and her mother going out together.

They came out to set off firecrackers, after all, the city has not banned fireworks in the urban area.

The young man's eyesight was good, and when he looked at it, the girl's hair seemed to be not as much as before, but it was still black and shiny, and her braids were tied up over the waist and followed behind him...... But she has grown taller than her mother, and her body has also lost weight, and she has lost the baby fat she had when she was a child, and she has probably grown up, and she is already seventeen or eighteen years old.

I think I'll be able to take charge of myself after a while.

The boy stood from afar, watching her hang the firecrackers on the drying rack at the door of the unit - just right, the lights in the community were on, because all the street lamps were covered with red cages, so the snow was red, the light was red, and the whole girl was also reflected very vividly.

Then the girl took out a lighter and lit the cannonball.

But it should be that the girl went back a little slower, and was pulled over by her mother, who was worried about her, and slapped her thigh a few times. It's either force, it's a joke.

And at this time, the teacher also came out, he hugged his wife and daughter, and the family watched the firecrackers explode together, and welcomed the New Year happily.

When the boy saw this, he turned and walked away.

Before the New Year, there would be a train, a direct departure from the city back to school, and the boy thought he was going to catch it.

It is said that a girl is not worthy of a teenager, and a teenager knows that he is not worthy of a girl...... He is the fruit of the bad seed, he grew up in bitter waters, he has not seen the sun before, how can he be qualified to be near the crystallization of love?

At this point, he only felt that he should disappear forever.