A small poem by Gu Cheng:

You don't want to plant flowers

You said

I don't want to see it

A little bit of withering

yes

To avoid the end

You avoid everything from starting

Luo Ya thought that between her and Yi Tian, no one wanted to plant the flower that belonged to the two of them.

Because none of them are so sure that they will go on forever.

If it's destined to end, why start?

Two minutes of silence, the kind of time that counts the seconds in my heart.

It's so hard.

He got up and didn't continue the conversation.

"I'm leaving, you can rest early!"

She silently followed him to the door, waved goodbye to him, and closed the door.

In this small space, she was the only one left.

Pulling the curtain open a slit, his figure soon appeared downstairs.

He turned around and looked up, the distance from the eighth floor.

She wasn't sure if he had seen her.

She was even more unsure of which personality she had in her heart that was the person she was looking at at him at this time?

As soon as this thought appeared, he instantly broke out in a cold sweat.

Quickly close the curtains, sit on the sofa, and hold the glass of water in the palm of your hand.

The glass of water was already cold at this time.

His > came from his mobile phone: Luoya, I know that my request is a bit excessive, but as a people's policeman, this is my duty. If you have any news about the goose, please let me know?

She thought about it for a moment and sent him a message back.

"I'm sorry, I can't help you."

She really couldn't help him, because she didn't know where the writer Big Goose was.

…………

Big goose, that avant-garde writer.

For Loya, she was not familiar with him, and even quite strange.

I know that he only knows that he is one of the most popular writers at the moment.

As for whether her hairy eggs are big geese, to be honest, she is not sure.

And why did she write this article called "The Disappearance of the Writer Mao Dan", which seems a bit supernatural to say.

That weekend, she went to Lu Zheng's clinic.

Lu Zheng had a guest, the receptionist with a charming smile at the clinic, Xiaomi welcomed her into the reception room, added a cup of steaming green tea, asked her to sit for a while, and Dr. Lu came out in a while.

Halfway through a cup of green tea, she saw a stack of newspapers on the table in the reception room.

I don't know how long the newspapers had been there, but they were all dated months ago.

The headline on the front page of the newspaper at the top was striking: The avant-garde writer Big Goose disappeared for no apparent reason.

Lu Zheng didn't come out for a long time that day, and Luo Ya was really bored, so he flipped through the stack of newspapers.

She found that the front pages of the newspapers were almost all about the writer named Big Goose.

Only then did she know that Big Goose's famous work was a book called "The Sorrow of Youth".

The treatment that day was particularly difficult and unsmooth, and Lu Zheng pulled a chair and sat opposite her.

"What's wrong with you today, you're not in shape. The nerves are a little tight, and the treatment effect is not too good. ”

Luo Ya's face was full of guilt: "It's my reason, I've been worrying about the manuscript the most recently." ”

Lu Zheng spread his hands.

"I'm a psychiatrist, so I can't help it."

Seeing that she was holding the paper in her hand, he changed the subject.

"This avant-garde writer, you might be able to write about him. I read his article "The Sorrow of Youth". From the perspective of literary psychology, this book fully reflects the author's childhood and teenage experiences. Why is this book so popular, I think it's because the author's childhood and teenage experiences are different, which paints this book with an obscure tone and background. What I understand from this is that the author's ideal image of beautiful youth is far from the opposite of real life. indirectly shows that he once had a soul that was hurt by some kind of unspeakable injury, so he used words to vent the sad soul in his heart. ”

After Lu Zhengwei's analysis, Luo Ya suddenly became interested in this big goose.

Before leaving, the stack of newspapers in the Lu Zheng meeting room was all removed by Luo Ya.

Lu Zheng was quite empathetic, and found the book "The Sorrow of Youth", saying that taking a good look at this book would definitely be of great help to her creation.

Loya spent a night reading this book that belonged to youth.

Seriously, it looks particularly depressing, and it makes people's hearts tug and they can't breathe a few times.

This book is not so much the sorrow of youth as the price of youth.

A person's life inevitably comes with the attack of youth, and more or less it will pay some price for growth.

But the price paid by the protagonist in this book is the price of life.

To be honest, before Loya decided to write the story of the hairy man, she didn't have any bottom in her heart.

I went to the library and searched for a lot of information about the goose from the Internet.

But for everything about Big Goose, people know that his book is nothing more than a book related to youth, and all the movements after he became famous.

Almost nothing is known about what he experienced before he wrote.

Fortunately, Luo Ya is not stupid, Qian Xiaomao, a woman who has played an important role in the life of the big goose. She should be the one who knows the goose well.

It was easy to find Qian Xiaomao, who now works as an editor at a magazine in City B.

But it was not easy for Qian Xiaomao to open up to a stranger and tell the story of her ex-boyfriend.

In view of the fact that Editor Tang and Qian Xiaomao had a nodding acquaintance, Qian Xiaomao reluctantly met Luo Ya.

Before Luo Ya could speak, Qian Xiaomao said directly that the people who came to her to understand the big goose could be lined up from Wangfujing to the gate of the Forbidden City.

But the person who wanted to pry open her Qian Xiaomao's mouth was probably not born yet.

So she persuaded Luo Ya to retreat, she would not say anything about the goose.

Besides, she was separated from the goose, and it took her quite a long time to heal her wounds.

There was no need for her to tear open the wound she had just scarred for the sake of a stranger, and put it in front of everyone to watch.

To be honest, it really wasted a lot of effort to pry open Xiao Mao's heart.

During this period, Editor Tang also made a lot of efforts.

In fact, the reason why she worked so hard was only because she felt that Luo Ya's story about the famous writer Big Goose would definitely cause a sensation.

To be honest, Editor Tang, as an editor, she is simply a talent.

She can say white into black with one mouth, and she can say that the blue sky and white sun are the eloquence of the eighteen layers of hell. She should be the host, or talk about a talk show or something, it's hard to tolerate it.

In short, that indomitable spirit made Qian Xiaomao, an iron tree, bloom.

On a sunny afternoon, in a quiet café on Binhai South Road.

Xiao Mao sat opposite Luo Ya, and she stated in advance that if Luo Ya wanted to write about the big goose, she couldn't write as a big goose.

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