Daddy took me into the study, into my mother's room, today was supposed to be my wedding, all the whole room was brightly lit, so lively.

"Get on your knees!"

I didn't care about my legs that were still a little trembling, I was not qualified to feel wronged, and immediately knelt in front of my mother.

Daddy flicked his hands and raised his head to look at the portrait of his mother: "I want you to swear in front of your mother, don't see His Royal Highness King Yi again in the future!" ”

I looked up in shock: "Why, Daddy why?" ”

"Because he is a descendant of the emperor's family!"

I don't understand: "What's wrong with the descendants of the emperor's family, don't they accompany them to have their own feelings?" ”

Daddy squatted down and pulled my hand, I saw that he frowned and was puzzled, "Since ancient times, most of the children of the emperor's family have been ruthless, and they can even do it to their relatives for the sake of power and status. That's the high-ranking King Yi, do you know that now the court is mostly in charge of the King Yi, and he has fought countless victories for my Tianyue. Because of the desire of the people, even His Majesty would not dare to touch the King of Light easily. Although His Majesty looks beautiful on the surface, he is extremely afraid of His Royal Highness King Yi in his heart, not to mention that His Majesty only has one heir, the eldest prince, and his power of King Yi should not be underestimated, and the ministers of the court and the central government are all talking behind their backs, saying that Your Majesty's country will not be able to be saved sooner or later. If King Yi ascends the throne one day, even if he has affection for you, you are just a queen, and then King Yi has 3,000 beauties, and you are the only one guarding the empty harem, are you willing? You'll suffer if you follow him! ”

"King Yi said that what he cared about was never the throne, he just wanted to seek justice for Concubine Feng Shu." I pulled Daddy and I hoped he would trust me.

"A soldier who doesn't want to be a general is not a good soldier, who doesn't covet the high throne, who doesn't want to enjoy a lifetime of glory and wealth, will His Royal Highness King Yi really give up his easily accessible throne for you at that time?"

"I believe him!" Maybe this sentence seems ridiculous to Daddy, but in fact, I don't believe in Chu Muxiu, I don't believe in myself.

Daddy shook off my hand and looked like he hated iron but not steel, "Don't you know it's wrong until now?" ”

I stood up sharply: "I'm not wrong! ”

"Smack!"

This is the first time that my father has beaten me since I was a child, and my palm fell on my face and it hurt, and I only covered my face with my hand, and tears flowed down my arm. I didn't dare to speak, let alone blame Daddy, I just looked at him coldly, and at this moment I was actually afraid of Daddy in front of me.

Daddy's palms trembled, his mouth was open but he didn't say anything for a long time, "Ah Candle, Ah Daddy, Ah Daddy, Daddy ......"

"I don't blame you, if this palm can make you feel better, Ah Candle can't ask for it."

Daddy couldn't speak, but I could see that he was also in pain, we never had such a fight, and we never faced each other but couldn't speak.

I turned and walked out, no obstruction, no argument. I just walked out plainly, and the passage was brightly lit, but I couldn't see the road in front of me clearly. I don't regret it, I don't think there's anything wrong with pursuing my own happiness in itself, it's just guilt, guilt, guilt for everyone.

This night I sat in the yard with my legs crossed, in late November, the weather had gradually cooled, the wind blew, the hanging flowers on the trees all fell, fell on my head, fell on my palm, the hanging flowers on the tree have really fallen. The bright moonlight hit the osmanthus tree, and the bare hanging flower tree was not beautiful at all.

I don't know whether to be happy or sad.

Aunt Song helped me put on my favorite pink and white cloak, "It's cold, go back!" ”

"Aunt Song, did I really do something wrong, I feel that everything is my fault, did I disappoint you and Daddy?"

Aunt Song put her arms around me and stroked my hair, and I lay on her waist, which was a warmth I hadn't felt for a long time.

"How can I blame you, no matter how you can't blame an ignorant child, if you want to blame God, everything is arranged by him, and no one can escape."

I hid in Aunt Song's arms and cried bitterly, I forgot the last time I cried like this.

I've never liked to cry.

Master Taifu went to King Yi's mansion, and after entering the door, he asked Qian Che to close the door.

Taifu turned his back to Chu Muxiu: "How are you going to explain today's matter to Your Majesty?" ”

"Uncle, don't worry, I'll take care of it!"

Taifu leaned in, his eyes filled with anger, "Deal with it? How do you deal with it, it is a marriage given by His Majesty, do you know that this is a protest? ”

Chu Muxiu has been: "Your Majesty will not touch me now." ”

"Yes, you want to fight for him and consolidate the country for him, you are still useful to him now, of course he will not touch you, but do you know that you are challenging his limit, once or twice is nothing, as soon as this crime is more, Your Majesty will have reason to condemn you. At that time, even if someone asks for your life, Your Majesty lists the past crimes one by one, you will not be able to protect yourself. ”

Chu Muxiu didn't speak, and let Taifu say these big truths that he was tired of hearing for a long time.

Master Taifu also saw Chu Muxiu's thoughts, "Now it seems that there is only one way." ”

"What does Uncle think?"

"Otherwise, you will ask Your Majesty for your life, saying that you and the girl of the Nan family have already made a private agreement for life."

Chu Muxiu understood that his uncle meant to let him marry me. He was willing, but it wasn't a good time.

"The revenge has not been avenged, and Mu'er doesn't want to marry yet!"

Tai Fu was puzzled: "Why don't you want to, you are eighteen years old this year, and you should also think about it." The other party is the daughter of Nanxiang, and if you marry her, it will not insult you. Besides, his Nan family is powerful, from the first emperor to His Majesty, he has been supported by Nan Xiang all the way, His Majesty is more respectful to Nan than to you, plus Nan Xiang is popular in the court, many people are good friends with him. Nan Xiang is just such a daughter, naturally he regards it as a treasure, and if you marry his daughter, you will marry the entire Nan family. In the future, you can also rely on the Nan family to protect yourself, we have basically gained a firm foothold outside now, but there is still a lack of a capable general in the court, why not use the power of the Nan family to help us avenge our revenge as soon as possible. ”

Chu Muxiu was naturally unwilling: "Revenge is originally my own business, and it is extremely dangerous, Mu'er may not be able to get out in the end, so why involve others and use others, I won't do anything that hurts others and is not beneficial to myself, and I hope my uncle can stop it!" With that, he stepped out of the study door.

"Then do you really treat that girl!" Taifu roared at Chu Muxiu, who was about to walk out, Chu Muxiu didn't make a sound but stopped, Taifu stepped forward: "Nan Xiang is an important minister in the court, the Nan family is powerful, His Majesty is suspicious by nature, he can even do his own father and emperor, how long do you think he will keep Nan Xiang, and now he is completely thinking of the former emperor and assisting his own feelings and the eyes of others." We're not using the Nan family, you're not using that girl, we're completely saving the Nan family, once Your Majesty consolidates the throne in the future, you can just find an excuse to take the life of the Nan family, and then the Nan family will be destroyed, how do you let that girl deal with herself? In the end, she either entered the palace to be a concubine for His Majesty, or married to a foreign country, and when you see her, it will be extravagant, let alone marry her, and you don't want to see that kind of situation. ”

Chu Muxiu was finally stunned, Taifu's words were like a knife stabbing him in the heart, he had never thought about such a long-term thing, and he never thought that one day I would marry someone else.

Qian Che finally couldn't help it: "But one day in the future, Ah Candle knows that His Highness is using her Nan family and using her, according to her temperament, maybe she will hate His Highness for the rest of her life!" ”

"Do you want that girl to live and hate His Highness for the rest of your life or hate Your Highness in hell for the rest of your life?" Taifu's words left Qian Che speechless.

Chu Muxiu was stunned, he was too young to think of such a long-term thing after all, "Uncle...... Want me, how to do it? ”

Taifu squatted down and put his hands on Chu Muxiu's shoulders: "You will go to Nan Xiang in the next few days and explain the reason, Nan Xiang is a person who knows the general situation, he should know how to do it." Mu'er, you don't have to blame yourself too much, you have to remember that although you are using her, you are also saving her, as long as your feelings for her are true, and when everything is over, you will be doubly good to her, and she will definitely forgive you. You're not wrong, it's just that you've deceived someone you don't want to deceive. ”

Qian Che didn't feel good at it on the side, he felt that Chu Muxiu was really the most pitiful person in the world.

Chu Muxiu lowered his head so low that he was about to stick to the ground, no one could see that his eyes were moist, he never thought about who he was going to deceive or who to take advantage of. But many times we have to do things that we don't want to do, and we don't have to deceive people we don't want to deceiver.

As soon as the weather is cold, I am easy to get sick, and seeing that I am in a bad mood, Aunt Song said to take me to the temple to worship the Bodhisattva. I actually don't want to go to those places, if it is useful to worship the Buddha and ask for the Bodhisattva, Qin Shi Wang has not spent all his efforts to become a golden Bodhisattva, why sacrifice so many people to build the Great Wall, and why bother to find the elixir of life.

But there have been so many things that have bothered me lately that I decided to take this trip.

The Buddha said to let go, don't think, feel at ease, and be at ease. I knelt in front of the Bodhisattva with my hands folded and prayed sincerely, hoping that all would be well.

God's mind is really the most difficult to guess, when I came out of the house just now, it was still a clear sky, and when I came out of the temple, it was drizzling outside.

The carriage stopped at the house, and I pulled the curtain to see Qianche standing at the door.

"Qianche, what are you doing here?" I asked him.

Qian Che was a little anxious: "Your Highness, anyway, if you have to be free, come with me to take a look!" ”

I don't dare, if I let Daddy know again, I'm afraid I'll be angry for a long time.

"If you're not at ease, go and take a look, I'll watch it for you, master!"

"Hmmm......"

It was raining, and I didn't ask Mo'er to follow.

"Is something happening to Chu Muxiu?" As soon as Aunt Song entered, I asked Qianche.

Qian Che helped me hold an umbrella: "Your Highness is in a bad mood, took a lot of wine and locked himself in the study, and no one was allowed in, I really had no choice but to come to you, maybe you can persuade him." ”

I wondered: "Why is he in a bad mood?"

Qian Che moved the umbrella past me: "I, I don't know. ”

"You said that Chu Muxiu locked himself in the study and didn't let anyone in, so how did you know that he was in a bad mood."

"I, I really don't know, let's hurry up!"

I didn't ask Qianche again, but silently quickened my pace. Qianche, who has always been cheerful, is also full of sadness today, I have never seen him like this.

When I walked to Chu Muxiu's study, the door was closed, and there was really no one around, so I gently opened the door and crept in.

"Smack!"

"Get out!"

I didn't take two steps before a wine jar hit the ground, followed by a roar from Chu Muxiu. When I got closer, I saw Chu Muxiu half-lying at the foot of the steps of the pear blossom table, looking tired, holding a jar of wine in his hand, and there were several wine jars on the ground.

"I'm telling you out!" Probably hearing my footsteps, he lashed out again.

"It's me." I've never seen him like this before, and I'm still a little scared.

He only looked up at me, but he didn't show a surprised expression, and picked up the jar and drank again. I walked over and snatched his jug, "What's wrong with you?" ”

His face was a little red, probably drunk, and the sharp look in his eyes made me feel a little uneasy, "I'm sorry." ”

My mind went blank: "Excuse me? Why are you saying sorry to me? ”

Chu Muxiu may have really been drunk, so tired that he rested his head on my shoulder, "I'm a guilty person, and I always want to take advantage of those I don't want to take advantage of." ”

"You're a good guy, and I'm sure you must have a hard time." I don't know where I got the confidence to say such a thing.

"Really?" , Chu Muxiu looked at me with that kind of expectant look, which made me feel for a moment that the person in his mouth was me.

"Hmm."

After I finished speaking, Chu Muxiu seemed to be relieved a lot, and then he seemed to fall asleep, Qian Che said that Chu Muxiu didn't drink a drop of alcohol before, and even if he wanted to drink, he only had a few drinks, I don't know what happened to him today, why he had to get drunk.