CHAPTER XLVI
"Mo'er, Mo'er, let go!" Mo'er over there was still holding on to Qianche tightly, and Qianche didn't dare to push Mo'er away hard, so the two kept stalemate.
"If you move again, we'll break up!"
As soon as Mo'er's words came out, Qian Che didn't dare to say another word in an instant, and gradually quieted down.
"Ah Candle!" Chu Muxiu got up suddenly, and the queen grabbed him.
Chu Muxiu's tone was cold: "Let go!" ”
The queen grabbed tighter and tighter: "You like her so much? ”
Chu Muxiu's eyes closed, and he shook off the queen's hand suddenly, and the queen fell on the table.
The green pothos hurriedly came up to help the queen, "Princess, why are you so troubled!" ”
The queen still looked blankly at the door that was knocked open, "He likes her so much, I have been with him for more than ten years, and I have been friends for more than ten years......"
Pothos sighed helplessly: "Princess......"
I ran out of the Drunken Immortal Residence, and Mo'er walked up, "Has Miss found His Highness?" ”
I didn't speak, I ran away in a puff of air.
"Miss, what's wrong with you, where are you going?"
Chu Muxiu ran out after me: "Where is Ah Candle?" ”
Mo'er was confused and a little anxious: "My young lady, she, she ran away!" ”
Chu Mu didn't shake his body, and he chased after him vigorously.
"Your Highness, where are you going, Your Highness?"
Downstairs in the Drunken Immortal Residence, only Qian Che and Mo'er were left in a hurry.
I ran all the way without stopping for a moment, in fact, I really didn't know where to go, but I just couldn't stop. I endured it all the way, and I didn't let the tears flow, because I wasn't one of those crying girls. I think the faster I run, the happier I feel, and the happier I feel, the more I think about it. In the past, the queen said that the two of them must be destined to hold the wolf beads, and I think maybe at that time the queen had already begun to hint at me, but I was too stupid to understand her words. It turned out that it had always been my wishful thinking, it turned out that the person in Chu Muxiu's heart had always been the queen, it turned out that I was inserted between them, and it turned out that I broke up their pair. I seemed to have figured it out in an instant, and my heart hurt as if it had been hollowed out, but I couldn't go home, I couldn't let Daddy see me like this, and I couldn't find Lu Huai, I didn't want to trouble him with anything.
Later, I actually ran to Beipoling without saying anything, I was chased by the big man in the morning, and I was also running in the afternoon, I suddenly felt so tired. I couldn't help but squat on the wooden bridge physically and mentally exhausted, I looked up, thinking that just yesterday I was making a splash with Chu Muxiu, but today we have become like this, this is probably what Aunt Song said Sure enough, the world is unpredictable.
Looking at and thinking about it, these tears came out unconsciously.
I heard the man's hurried footsteps getting closer and closer to me, and he reached out to touch my head, but I felt uncomfortable now. I gasped and carefully wiped away my tears with my sleeve, and I got up and lifted my feet to leave, as if we had nothing more to say.
Chu Muxiu still grabbed my arm, "Are you crying?" ”
I pulled my hand out and wiped my face, "I didn't, I ran too fast and the wind hurt my eyes!" ”
"But there's no wind today!"
"I said yes, yes!" I thought to myself, why is this man so annoying.
"I think you're mistaken!"
Is this his explanation, how difficult it used to be to listen to his explanation, but now I think what he said is a bit ridiculous, and I myself can laugh.
"Yes, I misunderstood, I misunderstood that you saved me so many times because you liked me, I misunderstood that you helped me copy women's training because you liked me, and I misunderstood that you said that you would always be good to me because you liked me, and it was not until today that I realized that it had always been my wishful thinking."
Chu Muxiu pressed his hand on my shoulder, "No, it's not what you think, everything I say to you is true, and it's never your wishful thinking alone!"
I looked up with a vacant look in my eyes, "Then have you really treated me, will you take care of me for the rest of my life?"
I looked at him blankly, it was the first time I wanted to hear an answer from a person so much.
Chu Muxiu was stunned for a long time, and then his eyes slowly drooped, and he couldn't say a word. He is like a caged bird, he can't fly out and can't escape, he was born with too much burden, how many times on the battlefield he is nine deaths, he doesn't know what will happen to him after everything is over, he can't even think about the future, how can he easily promise others!
Looking at that hesitant Chu Muxiu, I sneered, "You can't speak!" ”
He pressed my shoulders tighter and tighter, and blue tendons were already appearing on his forehead because of anxiety, "Ah Candle, I have to do many things, many times I can't do things according to my own wishes, I can't do what I like to do, I can't love the people I love, do you understand?" ”
I used my fingers to break Chu Muxiu's hands off my shoulders one by one: "Your so-called last resort is that the person in your heart is the queen, and the person you want to love but can't love is the queen, because she is the queen, so you can't be together." Then why did you give me the token, why did you give me the wooden hairpin, why did you do this, you never liked me, you have always been pitying me, right......"
He was annoyed with a hint of begging: "I didn't, I and the queen are innocent!" ”
"You have!" Tears were pouring down the wooden bridge, and I hadn't cried out loud like this for a long time.
He came up and hugged me, this was the first time he hugged me, "When I take care of things, when this is all over, I will definitely give you an explanation!" ”
I didn't feel a trace of warmth in his arms, but even so, I was still greedily attached for a while, but I saw through all this, and I was not a fool, he behaved so intimately with the queen, how could he be innocent?
"What's going on in your heart?" I asked him.
"I can't say!"
I suddenly thought that if he chose to confess to me, I think I would still want to forgive him, and at least say hello when we don't meet as a couple. But now he still turned me away, and the heart that had just been covered became cold again.
A person who has someone else in his heart, a person who has something to hide from me, I probably won't forgive him.
I felt a softness under my feet, staggering and supporting, "I have been looking forward to you for ten years, and then I finally found you, I originally thought that even if you were a piece of ice, it would be covered by me after a long time, I thought that if I tried to be good to you, you would like me." I used to want to put all my energy and all my thoughts on you, and I used to think that you were the one who wanted to live with me for the rest of my life, but I thought wrong, I paid for my feelings wrong. I'm not the kind of person who has a dead face, I don't want to do this kind of hot face and cold ass thing anymore, I will never like you again in the future, we will be ...... It's as if you've never known ......"
I left, he didn't catch up, and we were completely finished. Actually, it can't be said to be the end, because we never started.
I walked faster and faster, and then I just ran. How much I was expecting at the beginning, how disappointed I am now. My heart is now like someone has cut a hole with a knife, sprinkled with oil, salt, sauce and vinegar, and finally a handful of salt. It turns out that loving someone hurts so much and has to bear so much. No wonder Aunt Song is always the only untouchable thing in this world is a love word.
I told my dad that I wasn't feeling well, and I didn't have dinner tonight and went back to sleep as soon as I came back. Although Mo'er didn't know what was going on, she still brought me food to eat, I said that I couldn't eat it because of my stomach upset, and then Mo'er sighed a few times and went out.
I felt so bad that I couldn't sleep at night, I touched the pillow, and it was already soaked.
Aunt Song sat on the edge of my bed and patted me on the back: "Ah Candle, what's wrong with you?"
I spread out the futon and straightened up and pressed my heart, "Aunt Song, I'm uncomfortable here, it's like a big stone pressing on my chest, I'm almost out of breath!" ”
"If it's uncomfortable, just cry, just cry!"
"I don't cry, I don't want to cry and I can't cry......" the words say, but the tears are still disobedient and flood like a flood.
I leaned on Aunt Song's arms: "Aunt Song, woo woo woo...... I don't want to forget, I really don't want to forget......"
Aunt Song didn't say anything but patted me on the back, she could see my mind if I didn't speak, she was always the one who understood me best.
I'm not in good spirits these days, I used to hear others say that getting drunk relieves a thousand sorrows, maybe I should also give it a try, that night I dragged Mo'er to the drunken immortal residence.
"Little Er, bring me two pots of wine!"
I took a sip from my glass, "Ahem......
I haven't drunk wine before, it turns out that this wine is so spicy and bitter, but now I actually think it's quite delicious, I drank many glasses in a row, and my brain is still sober, so sober that it is Chu Muxiu inside.
I sigh that this wine is not intoxicating!
I turned my head and stretched out my hand: "Xiao Er will have a few more pots of wine, I want that kind of big pot!" ”
Mo'er took my hand: "Miss, don't drink, go back and let the master see it, and you'll die!" ”
As soon as the wine came up, I was a little dizzy, "It's okay, I, aren't we going to climb over the wall......"
"Come, drink, drink, drink......"
I was addicted to drinking, and then I felt that my face was hot, my hands and feet had no strength, and my head was dizzy.
I'm glad I finally got drunk, finally drunk for the first time.
"Miss, Miss, wake up!"
I felt that someone always slapped me in the face, and I stood up violently in disbelief, "Dare to hit me, I call me Daddy, kill you!" ”
After a "snap", I was lying on the table.
Mo'er couldn't lift me alone, for fear of being seen by Daddy and didn't dare to go back to the house to find someone, and finally found King Yi's mansion, Chu Muxiu was not in the mansion, Mo'er actually went to find Lu Huai.
Lu Huai walked in and saw me slumped on the table, "How much did she drink?" ”
"Three pots!" Mo'er said.
Lu Huai swallowed his saliva: "Take her back home first!" ”
Lu Huai and Mo'er came over to help me up, I always felt that someone was moving me, I stood up in a daze and raised my fingers, "Drink!" ”
Lu Huai pulled my fingers down: "Don't drink, go home, otherwise the prime minister will be worried!" ”
I glanced at Lu Huai in a daze: "Go home, huh...... Go home! ”
Lu Huai and Mo'er supported me all the way, but I was not at ease, always moving around and yelling to drink.
As soon as we got out of the gate of the Drunken Immortal Residence, we met Chu Muxiu and Qian Che, it turned out that Mo'er had gone to find Chu Muxiu, but he was delayed by something, and now he came to take a look.
Everyone was stunned, I looked up and glanced at the person in front of me in a daze, and it was a little familiar.
I opened Lu Huai and Mo'er's hands, staggered over to him, and then poked his face with my fingers, his face was expressionless, his face was stiff like an ice cube man.
"You look like a person, you're the one, who's the one......" I slapped my palm on the door of the head, "Big bastard, you're the big bastard, hahaha......"
He liked to put his arm on my shoulder: "How much did you drink?" ”
He grabbed my shoulder very painfully, and I subconsciously avoided it, "Not much, just three, three pots, that wine is not delicious, bitter and spicy......"
Later, I lay on Chu Muxiu and grabbed his collar: "Daddy, I have a headache, I want to go home, I want to sleep......"
Lu Huai came over and put my hand on his shoulder: "Your Royal Highness, although I don't know what happened to you, if you really like Ah Candle, you should take good care of her and don't let her be wronged......"
"General Lu, you ......"
Chu Muxiu stopped Qian Che: "You let him say!" ”
"But look at what she has become now, is this how you love her, a good girl like her, there are more people who like her, if you don't know how to cherish it, don't bother her again!"
After Lu Huai finished speaking, he helped me go, and Mo'er glanced at Qianche and left.
I left, Chu Muxiu stood motionless, he silently lowered his eyes, obviously a little wooden......
Chu Muxiu was already annoying enough, and Qian Che didn't plan to say anything more. This time, not only Chu Muxiu and I are finished, but he and Mo'er may also be finished.