I don't want to go home, but where do I go without classes on the weekend? I seem to have missed two days of class this week, and the professor called me and Alice called me, but I didn't answer any. During this time, I need to be alone and wait for a while to digest it.

If you think about it, love can be really blind sometimes. I even wondered how hard my heart should be in order not to be hurt by love. I don't think about the indifference that the two people in my family used to be towards me, I have the ability to ignore them, and I don't think I'll be hurt by them anymore. But what can I do now to keep myself from being hurt by Jay?

I walked aimlessly to the W Hotel, went in for a meal, and met Ming again.

"Haven't reconciled with your boyfriend yet?"

"He's gone to France."

"Tourist? Or eloped with another girl. He laughed at me.

I was not in the mood to joke and cried in front of him.

"Don't cry. So, let's go outside. ”

W has a back garden where the gardener mows the lawn regularly, and we sat side by side on the grass and I smelled the grass after the sun was shining, which wasn't really good.

"If you'd like, you can tell me about it. Don't worry, I won't tell anyone without your consent. ”

"Thank you. Can you stay with me for a while? I'll be there later. ”

"Okay, whatever you want."

"Actually...... "I'm a little hard to say," I said, "Am I naïve to you?" ”

“Yes.” He said, "Every day there are a lot of Chinese people coming and going to this hotel, and there are countless college students like you who study here, and countless people who come here to stay overnight." ”

"If there are so many people, why did you help me?"

"A girl's reputation is important if you're bullied in a bar...... You should take care of yourself, I was just a handful of people that night. I didn't think you'd come over. ”

"It stands to reason that I should have treated you to a meal in return, but I'm not in the mood right now, I'm sorry."

"No, no, no, I'm not here for this."

"I know." I said, "I met my boyfriend last September, we've been together for almost a year, he's funny, but always like a kid, I'm tired, but I'm already in love with him." I didn't know what to do with our long-distance relationship. ”

"Has he been studying in Paris?"

"No, he just graduated from xx university in London and went to work in France today. I didn't want him to go, but he wouldn't even give me a chance to discuss. That's what makes me the angriest, you understand? ”

"I see. Did you see him in the morning? ”

"No, he wasn't there when I got home, and he was about to board the plane when I got to the airport...... I was so disappointed in him. ”

"Communication is very important for us business people, and a good sales sale must be exquisite, so I suggest you two sit down and have a good chat."

"It's going to be a long time coming, and I don't even know when I'll see him."

He suddenly laughed, "Study hard, this is also very important." ”

"Got it!"

We laughed face to face.

"Thank you for your advice. It's time for me to go back and stop disturbing your work. ”

Jay texted me when he arrived in Paris, and that's how we started our long-distance relationship.

When I woke up alone, there was no smell of fried bacon, no morning kisses, only my eyes were still swollen and painful, only longing, thicker than the black night. Naruda said, you are like the night, with loneliness and stars. Am I like the night?

I went downstairs and knocked on Mrs. Doris's door, hugged her, and suddenly began to cry, and for a long time.

"Kid, what's going on?"

"Jay went to France."

"Is it your boyfriend?"

"Yes."

"I've never seen him before."

"I can't see it."

"You broke up?"

"No, separation, or rather, a foreign relationship."

I cried again, and it was very ugly.

Mrs. Duris hugged me, and she didn't say many comforting words, just hugged me until I was tired of crying, and handed me a hot towel and a cup of hot tea.

In the evening he finally called me, and I didn't say a word about the quarrel, and asked him to settle down there. He was also in a good mood, we chatted for an hour, said goodnight to each other and hung up.

He has just left for the past few days, I miss him very much, I have been writing his name in class, both Chinese and English, and his voice is out of tune when he sings, and his state is extremely poor.

When I came back from school, Alice came to me for dinner, and I was depressed, staring at my phone, hoping that he would send me more texts.

I started going to dinner alone, shopping alone, and even going to the movies alone. I thought that I would not miss him after I got used to living alone, but in the crowds, in the London subway with no signal, in the dark cinemas, and in the campus with flowers, his voice, his temperature, and his shadow always flashed in front of me.

My thoughts are overflowing.

We use MSN video every weekend, and he turns on the camera, and in the video he is a little haggard, and he says that he is tired from moving these days. After ten minutes, the avatar turns gray.

The next morning he sent another apologetic text message: I'm sorry dear, I have to meet new people every day, I'm too tired these days. I'll fly back to London next weekend to find you.

I replied to him: "Okay, I'll wait for you!" ”

I began to count the days waiting for him, and I found that I couldn't lose my love, and my love for Jay was a flood, a beast, and a tornado that couldn't be stopped.

I can't stop my passion, and I'm passionate about love because I love my life. Even though Wilde said that loving himself was the beginning of a lifelong romance, I was still stubborn about tying Jay into my life, and I thought that he and I were all there was to life.

After class, the professor called me out and scolded me.

"Hua, what's the topic of your dissertation? Do you know how many classes you've missed? Do you know ......?"

This old man is afraid that he has been mad by my depravity, once I was his hope, and now his hope has changed.

I came out of the classroom listlessly, went downstairs, and saw the two rows of woods, and I was alone with a few etudes to the school gate, and a very energetic man stood in front of me.

"Let's go." I didn't lift my head, but I spoke weakly.

"Long time no see, Hua!"

Hearing him call my name, I looked up at him, the person in front of me was familiar and unfamiliar, he was carrying a black backpack, his hair was not short, his face was refreshing, I was 170cm, but I could almost look at him level.

"You are?" I really can't remember him.

"I'm Sano, we met last year at a bar night event, I was an exchange student here, do you remember?"

"I remember, long time no see!"

"Are you going to dinner?"

"Yes."

"Alone?"

"Yes."

"I'll treat you to Japanese food!"

"Yes." I suddenly reacted, "What? Dine? ”

"I remember you weren't an exchange student? Why ......"

"Last year I came here as an exchange student, this year I'm here for tourism, and I love London."

"Have you ever been to New York?" Sitting in the Japanese restaurant, I asked him.

"Not yet." He said, "Interesting there?" ”

"I still want to go there, New York is a very cold place."

He nodded, and we didn't know what to talk about.

The waiter served a plate of saury, and the presentation of Japanese food was always so exquisite, I always felt that it was no less than a Michelin restaurant.

"You can squeeze the lemon juice, it will be more delicious."

"Okay."

I squeezed the lemon wedge so hard that the lemon juice came out.

"Wrong." He said, stopping me, took out the lemon wedges from his plate, and said, "Can I squeeze it for you?" ”

"What about you, you're gone."

"It's okay, you can ask for another one."

"Okay, thanks."

"Are you from Kanagawa?" I asked Sano.

"It's not." He laughed, "It's really strange why many Chinese I know think I'm from Kanagawa." ”

I chuckled, "Maybe everyone had Slam Dunk in their childhood." ”

"Okay." He was helpless, "I came from Hokkaido, Otaru, have you heard of it?" ”

"Otaru? Is it the Otaru from "Love Letters"? ”

"Yes. It turns out that you have also seen that movie. ”

"Famous, isn't it?"

"Otaru is beautiful, my parents opened a Japanese restaurant next to the canal, and you are welcome to visit my hometown in the future."

We sat and talked for a long time. When I went out, I was a little chilled by the early autumn wind, and he insisted on sending me downstairs to his house, and when I said goodbye to him, I noticed what he was wearing: a gray cardigan with a few black stripes on it, brown buttons neatly buttoned, a black backpack, and black pants, a very standard Japanese student style.

"Thank you, goodbye."

I went back and got my computer and sat at my desk, but Jay was still not online. From London to Paris, it took more than an hour, plus the time to enter and exit, and it still took half a day to meet him. I don't like long-distance relationships, not at all.