Chapter 126: Finding Yourself
Here I am today, so to speak, half of the time I brought it upon myself, because I fell in love with the son of the devil.
If I had been more sober at that time, to ask a little more, to be a little more suspicious, to ask a little more, maybe I could have found some clues, and I could have been less hurt today.
I was in pain because of the white ink because I loved him. Even now, I can't forget the love I had for him. So many years of feelings, family affection, friendship, love, so the feelings are entangled together, this strong affection is like Lun Hai said, it is a mellow wine that has been brewed for many years, how can you forget it?
I want to forcibly deny that the end result is my own collapse and collapse. Because I don't want to accept the facts, and the facts exist in front of me so*, naked, that I have to accept them. Eventually, I collapsed in the midst of this struggle.
I want to thank Qingtian for pulling me out of that world in time when I collapsed, allowing me to vent all the pain in my heart, but at that time, I still did not calm down, but chose another path, which is to turn love into hate.
But can hatred really keep me going? Hate turned into a blazing flame that no longer burned my heart, burned my body, made me irritable, irritable, crazy, and even gnawed at the white ink pictures like a mad dog.
That's not me, that I am still broken, just forced to paste the pieces of myself with hatred, and that self is still fragile and fragile.
Until...... Teacher Leng Ya woke me up......
He told me that I had to be calm, that I had to put out the anger in my body......
Just like now, I sit quietly in my cell, my gaze is no longer dull, my mind is no longer scattered, and my body is no longer empty. I calmed down, and I felt the pieces of myself slowly merging and the flames in my body slowly extinguishing.
My hatred for Bai Mo is still there, because my love for him is still there. However, the encouragement and efforts of my friends slowly extinguished the dark fire that burned me, scorched me, and made me miserable. Their affection for me turned into a pool of cool spring water, slowly soaking my whole body, allowing me to return to reason, return to myself, see reality clearly, and find clues little by little from all the truth in front of me, looking for the footprints of white ink.
Now, we know that everything we have seen before is an illusion, and that the real truth is hidden under the illusion that is not much different from the truth.
So, is Bai Mo's love for me true?
If it's fake, then what kind of role am I in his whole game? If Xiaobai and Xiaomo are both people I know well, then it is impossible for Baimo to use a useless chess piece.
And I didn't see my role in his whole game. Originally, I thought that Xinyan would block the whole island, I wouldn't go to the Black Nest, and we wouldn't meet. That way, he can carry me behind my back and leave calmly, because he doesn't have to face me anymore.
So, from this argument, can I inference that his love for me is true?
If it's true, with Bai Mo's character, it is impossible to leave me like this. Moreover, before he left me, he repeatedly asked me if I would wait for him, and he also repeatedly emphasized that he would come back.
So! He'll come back to me when the time permits!
However, he himself doesn't know when this time is. Because, he told me, this time, he will be away for a long time......
It turned out that he had already revealed bits and pieces of information to me, but I ignored them like that. Even though I thought it was strange at the time, I joked that I didn't come back.
That bastard of white ink put me down, maybe, I can take advantage of it.
I took a deep breath and my thoughts began to clear. I remembered that dream, the dream I had in the dark, carrying a lantern to find a way out.
At that time, Bai Mo appeared, and he said three words to me: believe me......
He told me again that he didn't have time......
I learned from Teacher Leng Ya that Bai Mo's mother's ability is a spiritual dialogue, so will Bai Mo also inherit this ability?
According to the genetics of the Star Clan, there are many possibilities regarding the inheritance of the Star Clan.
Most of them are inherited from the abilities of one of the parents. A few have not inherited any abilities, or have inherited the abilities of both parents.
Among those who inherit the abilities of both parents, there is a very small probability that there will be evolution, that is, on the basis of the parents' abilities, the child has the evolution of ability, such as Baimo.
Regarding Bai Yu's ability is to absorb energy, and Bai Mo has evolved, he is not only simpler in form, but also evolves in transformation and release in ability.
If Bai Mo is the existence of such a special star clan, then, is it possible that he will also inherit the ability of his mother's spirit summoning?
So, it wasn't a dream, it was him talking to me in the spirit world.
Suddenly, I remembered one more thing, something that was so far away that I almost almost forgot that it was the out-of-body phenomenon that occurred after I fell unconscious during the battle with Fang Neng!
At that time, a mysterious man appeared, pushed me back into my body, and he said to me: You should go back......
At that time, was I hallucinating? Or did you meet someone who was capable?
I still remember when I told Bai Mo about this, his expression was a little strange. Of course, I didn't think it was strange at the time, but now that I think about it, he seems very quiet, and his expression is very flat, as if he is trying to hide some expression.
Will he know anything?
A lot of the time, it always feels like he's knowing things very quickly. For example, if Qingtian gave me artificial respiration, and he prevaricated for other reasons, could it be that he was actually there at the time? Could the man I saw when I was out of body have something to do with him?!
When I boarded, my whole body shivered, and my back was cold, and I actually had the same feeling as when Qingtian saw Bai Mo.
Suddenly, I felt that Bai Mo had become so strange and terrifying.
What exactly is he capable of? I do not know.
What does he want to do after that? I don't know.
And he, who is so strange and terrifying, now has the Shadow Troupe! I can't imagine the future. Because, I don't know what he's thinking in his head.
But from his cold and cold gaze towards others, he can faintly feel that he has no love for the world......
For a long time, I pondered every detail between me and Bai Mo, and did not let go of anything that I felt suspicious now, to find important clues.
What I care about the most is that picture.
Bai Mo is so rigorous in his work, and the raid on the Black Nest can be planned for thirteen years, so why do you want to leave that picture alone? Doesn't that leave some clues? And, why leave it to me? And what does he want to do? What do you want to tell me? Or...... And what are you planning?