As a nightcrawler, I follow the principle that I am an emotionless machine, and every business can only be an accident.

However, I did not follow this principle to the end.

So I lost.

Now I don't need an accident.

I walked over and familiarly fetched the next bottle of red wine from the wine cabinet.

"The old rule, have a drink first."

Paul smiled, "I mean, it's been a long time since I've had a drink with you, and I really miss it." ”

He was very cooperative, and took two red candles and lit them.

The red wine in the goblet revealed a trace of scarlet color under the cover of red candles, as if a bloody mouth was about to devour people's souls.

Blooming round and round, I thought, it's time for the soul to return to its place.

A in the other world, probably waiting very impatiently.

After a glass of red wine, Paul's face was very evil, and he leaned his moldy body against me.

I hid and hid until I reached the edge of the couch.

He seemed a little upset.

He said, "B, you are a little uninteresting, your love for me is not as strong as my love for you." ”

This scumbag, is he still worthy of love?

I tried to squeeze out a smile and patted my sleeve.

"Come on, let's have another drink."

After this glass of wine, Paul leaned back on the couch, very quiet, as if he were asleep.

I turned and closed the door, and the elevator went down.

I love the feeling of walking in the night, step by step.

The heart is ticking like the hour hand is beating on the heart.

For every second that walks, that person's life is one second less.

When I got home, I took off my shirt and put on a T-shirt.

I don't want to carry the smell of that person.

Although I haven't called my hometown once for so many years, it is deeply in my heart.

I dialed that number, and my mother, all mothers in the world, were worried about her children wherever she went.

It has been said that a child is a debt collector.

They came to this world to collect debts from their parents, who were eager to feed them with their own blood and flesh.

And they are not satisfied, they suck up the blood of their parents, and they have to pull out their intestines one by one until they become a pile of bones.

I didn't have much hope, but the call went through.

The mother's voice did not change at all, except for a taste of anxiety and exhaustion.

I said, "Mom......"

My mother was years late, and she was crying instantly.

"You, do you remember that you have my mother!"

My throat choked, and as a mother, she didn't do anything wrong.

It's me who is wrong, it's me who ruined everything.

I tried to calm down: "Mom, are you okay?" ”

"It's still the same old way, there's nothing good or bad."

"Mom, you have arthritis, pay more attention to it, don't be reluctant to heat it in winter."

I remember my father once said that arthritis was a problem caused by my mother's confinement in a low bungalow.

"I know my own faults, and it's hard for you to remember."

I said, "Yes, I always remember." ”

If you don't talk about it at this time, I'm afraid there will be no chance.

I probably inherited my mother's temperament, and I am not very good at expressing myself.

It was as if the time was silent, and it was cold for about ten seconds.

The mother said, "Son, what have you done outside?" Just now the police called me and asked for your news. ”

I knew it would be superfluous to defend myself at this time, but I still comforted her.

"It's nothing, it's just that a friend had an accident and the police are doing a routine job."

There was a visibly relieved sigh of relief on the other end of the line.

"That's good, that's good. Son, is there something wrong with calling so late? ”

Mother's heart has always been very delicate, and she may have sensed some signs of not being good.

"Mom, it's past 12 o'clock now, your old man's sixtieth birthday, I just want to make a phone call to greet you, how to spend your birthday."

Mother sighed.

"What birthday I have alone, as long as you are good outside, I will be satisfied."

I said, "Mom, can I sing you a birthday song, just like when I was a kid." ”

My mother didn't say anything, and I started singing, and I burst into tears.

"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you......"

Mother's voice trembled.

She said: "Little A, you never sang a birthday song to me when you were young, but Little B, he has to sing every time, if you don't sing, you can't do it, after singing, you still want me to make a wish." ”

I was about to cry.

"Mom, Xiao B is gone, you can treat me as Xiao B."

Mother: "Whether you are Little A or Little B, you are the meat of your mother's heart." ”

Mothers in the world are wise and foolish, she sees everything, but she still pretends to be confused.

I said, "Mom, make a wish!" It's like when I was little. ”

She squirmed a little, but still spoke up.

"It's still the same as before, of course I hope you are all well, Xiao B and your father in that world, and you in this world, are all well."

I said, "Mom, we're all right." ”

The phone call took a long time, and many times, it was the mother who was talking.

She told a lot about our childhood, and surprisingly, she remembered a lot of A's.

She also praised A for being a smart child.

Outside the window, the night was even darker, and the sound of sirens could seem to be heard not far away.

I said, "Mom, don't talk about it, I still have work to do tomorrow, I'll go back to see you when I'm done with this." ”

Turning the phone away, the sound of the siren seemed to be getting closer and closer.

I live in an apartment building with a higher floor.

Standing on the rooftop, you can see the sea not far away.

I was standing on the edge of the rooftop, and I was afraid of heights.

Looking downstairs from the rooftop, I felt dizzy.

I knew it would be a crushing thing to fall from here. There will be no chance of survival.

As I trembled and took the first step, stepping onto the edge of the rooftop.

A gust of night wind just happened to blow, and my body shook.

It was that moment that made me retreat.

All of a sudden, I was scared, I was scared of how I would explain to my father and A in the other world.

There are many more people who have gone to another world because of me.

I suddenly hated myself, no matter how hateful those people were, but I only have one life.

How can I dominate the lives of others?

Just as I was hesitating, a voice rang out behind me.

"Jump, you're jumping?"

It's that person, I know it's ready to fly, and I have to send it.

I turned around and looked at him.

He pressed forward step by step.

I said, "Please give me a little time, and I'll take care of it." ”

The sound of sirens is getting closer and closer, and from the rooftop, several police cars have already driven into the gate of the community.

He said, "Do you still have time?" Since you can't make up your mind, I'll give you a boost. ”

I was even more frightened, and he reached out and broke off my fingers on the guardrail, one by one.

The last one was broken off, and my body lost its center of gravity and fell straight down.

At that moment, I seemed to see the scene when I stood on the side of the ship and pressed A's head into the water.

Like a fast-forward shot, the girl has a crystal clear eyelid, father, mother, A, Mike, Paul......

And the guy who pushed me down.

Eventually, I will disappear from my life.