After Tang Yue said that he was leaving tomorrow, Zhang Xiaomao was silent, and when he finally spoke, he also asked with a smile: "Then what does Sister Xiaoyue want to come back?" ”

"I'm not coming back." Tang Yue raised his head and smiled until the pear vortex on his face was revealed, just to make himself look more relaxed.

Zhang Xiaomao didn't have many surprises, as if he had already known this result in advance, perhaps during the period of silence before, he thought about all the meanings of the word "leaving", and thought about it with the language knowledge that still existed in his head, including the meaning of never coming back.

He was extremely calm: "Why leave. ”

"What else could be the reason for leaving?" Tang Yue looked down at the mobile phone with a call coming in, and pressed the sleep button on the side of the phone, "I just don't want to continue to stay in this desert, I can't bear this hardship, it's too difficult." ”

Zhang Xiaomao saw the name of the caller on the mobile phone screen, and he heard Tang Yue call the name of the man the day before yesterday: "The man who came that day was Sister Xiaoyue's person, the one who harassed you." ”

Tang Yue touched his mobile phone: "My senior from college came to pick me up." ”

"Have you ever liked me?"

"Yes."

"Then if I confessed again, would you say yes?"

"No, it won't."

The nineteen-year-old boy innocently asked, "Then why do you like me?" ”

Tang Yue panicked, she had never thought about such a question, and she would not think about it, she thought about it carefully a lot, and then she understood the difference between this question: "In your heart, as long as you like someone, you want to be together." ”

"Yes." Zhang Xiaomao couldn't understand, "If you don't plan to be together, then why like it." ”

If you like it, why not be together.

Tang Yue's face was full of helplessness: "You always say that age is nothing, but age is just a big problem, what we are short of is not the middle four years of life, but four years of experience and experience, and when you have more experience, you will know that liking is not the key factor that determines everything, and when you begin to understand this truth, I have begun to look for what the meaning of life is." ”

"You can't catch up with me, and I can't wait for you, this is the mountain among us, not age, but life experience."

Zhang Xiaomao approached a few steps, Tang Yue subconsciously retreated, he approached again, and when he realized that Tang Yue still wanted to retreat, he grabbed Tang Yue's wrist, like an angry little lion: "Is that man the right person for you?" ”

Tang Yue wanted to break free, but he couldn't.

When she thought she was breaking free, it was Zhang Xiaomao who took the initiative to let go, and before she could react, she heard a voice "Where is he, does he live in the city", her eyes blurred, it was Zhang Xiaomao running out.

"Zhang Xiaomao!"

Tang Yue hurriedly chased out, but he couldn't catch up with a boy's energy and speed.

Chen Qiong came out of the shower, and the thirteenth phone call from Guan also came in: "Zhang Xiaomao, that kid quarreled with Tang Yue, turned around and ran into the desert, I drove to chase after me, you go to the gate of the research institute to accompany Tang Yue, she stood there and refused to go back to the dormitory." ”

Just said a word in a hurry, and then hung up the phone, Chen Qiong also hurriedly put on a down jacket and walked outside the dormitory.

Because Zhang Xiaomao didn't run fast on two legs, Guan Ji found it in the desert near Mogao Grottoes not long after he drove out.

"Running out at night because you want to die?" Turn off the steering wheel, brake after a drift, and "Hurry up and roll up." ”

Zhang Xiaomao ignored it and continued to walk.

Guan Ji turned off the fire, got out of the car and punched Zhang Xiaomao a few times, picked up Zhang Xiaomao's collar and dragged it to the side of the car, but when he got to the car door, Zhang Xiaomao directly put his hand against the car door, and refused to get on: "I'm going to the city to find that man." ”

"Go and fight with him, or sit down and discuss letting the family give Tang Yue to you." Guan Ji pulled Zhang Xiaomao back, opened the car door directly with the other hand, and threw the person directly into the car, "Why don't you want to think about why Tang Yue didn't agree to be with you, and tossed it on others." Look at what you're doing tonight, and you're starting to do this if you can't win. ”

"Are you a man?"

Zhang Xiaomao quieted down dejectedly.

The two women at the gate of the research institute had been waiting in the night when Dunhuang was cooling down, Chen Qiong saw that Tang Yue was only wearing thin clothes like during the day, and she didn't know the cold, so she just wanted to take off her down jacket and put it on Tang Yue first.

Suddenly, Tang Yue ran into the distance, Chen Qiong looked curiously, and there were two beams of headlights in the distance, and Guan sent it back.

She also hurriedly walked over, and as soon as she approached, she heard Tang Yue's voice that was cold to the bone, and she didn't know if it was blown by this cold wind: "Didn't you ask me why I like you, but refuse to be with you, I'll tell you now." ”

Tang Yue no longer dodged his gaze like before, but looked directly at Zhang Xiaomao, who was a little swollen at the corner of his mouth: "Because I don't want to raise a son, I don't want to have no one to take care of me when I get sick in the future, but I also have to go out to find you who ran away from home for a little thing, I don't want to quarrel with you all day long because of a little disagreement." ”

"The most important thing is that I don't want you to be unmotivated under the banner of loving me, and when you don't love me anymore in the future, you will blame me in turn, pointing at me and saying, 'It's because of you that I've become the way I am now'."

A string in Zhang Xiaomao's brain was pulled, and he explained to himself emotionally: "I won't love you." ”

Tang Yue thought of her ex-boyfriend, and that person also said that she would never fall in love with anyone but her, but the four-year relationship disappeared in an instant within a month: "No one will always love only one person." ”

Because of this sentence, Chen Qiong and Guan Ji glanced at each other, Guan Ji turned around and got into the car, drove the car out and parked it.

Tang Yue panted, and poured out everything in a hurry, as long as he could make the person in front of him die: "He understands what I think in my heart, and more importantly, he and I are in the same city, and my work and life in the future can be perfectly coordinated." ”

"Me too!" Zhang Xiaomao blurted out without thinking about it, full of sincerity, "I can also go to your city!" ”

Tang Yue swallowed: "Give up everything now? ”

He nodded.

Tang Yue smiled again: "Don't you like Mogao Grottoes very much?" ”

He was silent.

After a long time, he said: "For your sake, I can give up." ”

Tang Yue was stunned, a little fear began to appear in her eyes, and finally she pulled out a smile, which was a sneer, laughing at Zhang Xiaomao, and also laughing at herself: "Zhang Xiaomao, can you stop being so naïve and unreasonable." ”

She didn't give Zhang Xiaomao a chance to speak at all, turned around and walked back, rubbing her arms unbearably, and finally felt the cold wind biting.

Yishu said in the book "Xi Bao" published in 02: I am most afraid of others sacrificing for me, anyone who uses this kind of word, will regret it afterwards, and there will be a person who will mention to me every day how to sacrifice for me every day, I can't stand it.

Tang Yue is also most afraid of this feeling, she never needs others to give up anything for her, let alone take on other people's responsibilities, everyone only needs to be responsible for their own lives, the three words "for you" are too depressing, these words... Her mother has been telling her since she was a child, accompanied by a white-eyed wolf.

She wiped her moist eyes, but they became more and more wet.

Chen Qiong looked at Tang Yue's back in the moonlight, and when she was about to leave, Zhang Xiaomao cried and asked, "Am I really that bad?" ”

The words of comfort went back and forth in her mouth, and finally swallowed it, Chen Qiong shook her head and left.

Guan Ji, who came back from parking the car, only glanced at it faintly: "If you are tired of crying, hurry back to the dormitory to sleep." ”

Then, just left.

After making such a fuss tonight, I got up late the next day, and I didn't have time to eat breakfast, so I took a few buns and went to the cave.

Yesterday, after the news that the middle mural of the west wall is the guide to the Bodhisattva, the institute decided to carry out a full 3D information technology collection on the west wall for the study of Dunhuang scholars around the world.

At noon, when the man came to pick up Tang Yue and leave, all the people who were familiar with Tang Yue came to say goodbye, but Zhang Xiaomao didn't come, and it was Lao Li who said goodbye instead.

"Ahh

Tang Yue has been sneezing non-stop today, it should be that she caught a cold from the wind last night, as soon as she sneezed, the man came up with the medicine she had just bought: "Why did you accidentally catch a cold so much." ”

"Thank you, I don't kick the quilt honestly at night." Tang Yue was not reckless, pouted, stuffed the medicine into his mouth, poured the medicine into it with mineral water, and then took out a glass jar from his bag, which was a colored three-dimensional triangle, "Sister Chen Qiong, you can help me hand over this trouble to Zhang Xiaomao." ”

Chen Qiong took it and said hello.

Tang Yue looked around, folded his hands and made three gestures in the direction of the nine-story building, and then got into the car and left here with a gesture of no regret.

On the way back to the dormitory, Chen Qiong looked down curiously at the glass jar, the three-dimensional triangles inside were all made of sugar paper.

At half past six in the afternoon, Tao Ran took a taxi directly from the city to pick up Chen Qiong in Mogao Grottoes.

Not a word, not a word.

The face is like Dunhuang in the rainy season in July, low and thunderous.

"Teacher Guan, are you going to the city?" Zhang Xiaomao, who finally appeared, had two dark circles under his eyes.

Guan Ji remembered what happened last night and walked away directly: "What are you running to the city, stay in Mogao Grottoes obediently." ”

"Drink." Zhang Xiaomao was a little anxious, hurriedly caught up, and quickly said the whole purpose in two words.

Guan Ji stopped and threw the car key to Zhang Xiaomao: "Go and drive over." ”

Zhang Xiaomao took the car keys and happily made a fist celebration gesture, Guan Ji is not a person who likes to drink, especially in Mogao Grottoes, almost no wine, this time he readily agreed to drink, he seems to have basically figured out what it is for.