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My name is Ye Tengluo, but my father doesn't like to call me that, he said that my name is 'Tengluo', and it has nothing to do with the surname Ye.

I know that my surname is Ye, and when I was five years old, my father's grandmother, my wife. My grandmother died, and one of my cousins, who can also be called cousins, came to worship my too. Grandmother, tell me that my surname is Ye.

On that occasion he not only came himself, but also brought his wife and his nephew and his son.

He is also surnamed Ye, and he said that my father is actually his cousin, and my mother is his mother's eldest niece.

Ye is the surname of the country, I still know this, and I also know that this cousin of mine is the second son of the current saint and one of the military generals in the current court.

Another outstanding military officer was my cousin, who came to see me more often than my cousin.

After learning these news, combined with some of the things I usually hear, I pieced together the identity of my father, and by the way, I also learned about my own background.

I know that my mother died when I was born, but I didn't know that what happened at the beginning was so scary, if it wasn't for my mother's insistence, I might not have been born.

Although my Aunt Cuihua has always told me that my father also loves me.

Of course, I doubt that.

It wasn't until I grew up year by year that I became more and more different from my father, and one day, my mysterious third uncle brought my third uncle to see me.

Speaking of my third uncle, he is really powerful and mysterious.

It is said that a few years ago, the current saint wanted to promote him, but who knew that he took a long vacation, and the reason for the long vacation was that my third uncle was going to give birth to a child.

Later, after my third uncle gave birth to my first little cousin, the third uncle said that his mother was old and wanted to support his mother, that is, my mother's grandmother, to go back to a place called Xiahe Village to retire.

Later, my third uncle completely stayed away from the court, and took my third uncle and his family to live in Xiahe Village.

It is said that my mother also lived there for nearly ten years.

The third uncle is very gentle, she likes me very much, she told me that I look like my mother.

Know this when it's because too. When my grandmother died, my father had no scruples and lived alone next to my mother's grave for five years.

I really wanted to go to my father, but my third uncle said that I was only ten years old, and I was still too young, and the most important thing to do now was to grow up and become a wonderful little girl.

I asked the third uncle, what kind of little girl is outstanding, is she like my Aunt Yuan Xi?

"Huh? Your aunt Yuanxi is a little skinned by your third uncle, more skinny than your other two cousins. ”

I know the two little cousins that the third uncle said, the two younger cousins who are obviously younger than me, but they are a generation older than me, and the two sons of the third uncle.

I'm very curious about my mother's affairs, and Aunt Cuihua will also tell me some things, but what she said is about my mother and my father together, and I want to know my mother's childhood.

"Third uncle, what did my mother look like when she was my age?"

I looked at the third uncle, and after asking this sentence, I looked at her expectantly, waiting for her answer.

I thought that the third uncle would know, but after hearing my words, the third uncle shook her head at me and said, "When the third uncle met your mother, she was already eighteen years old. If you want to know about your mother's childhood, you can ask your third uncle, or, when you grow up, ask your father. ”

Thinking of the third uncle, who was only gentle to the third uncle and was not affectionate to others, I decisively decided to ask my father when I grew up.

I've been waiting for three years.

When I was thirteen years old, my aunt and grandmother, who lived in Beijing, wrote me a letter and asked me to live in Beijing for two years.

I understand what my aunt and grandmother mean, I'm thirteen years old, and a girl of my age should think about family affairs.

The day I went to see my father was at the height of the wisteria flowers.

I didn't let Aunt Cuihua accompany me, I walked alone, step by step, to a mountain that my father bought.

On this mountain, there are now four graves, in addition to my mother, there are also my wife. Grandmother and my other two too. Grandmother.

Well, they're me too. Grandmother's sticker. When I was young, they also raised me.

I looked at the wisteria flowers all over the hillside, and walked step by step to my mother's grave.

I first arranged the offerings in the bamboo basket in my hand and kowtowed to my mother, and then walked to the door of the house made of wood and thatch next to the grave.

"Dad, I'm here."

I haven't seen my dad in years, and I feel like I've grown up and learned to be strong.

But the moment I saw my dad in the next moment, I couldn't help crying.

My dad is old.

I raised my hand to wipe my tears in a panic, but my dad was stunned when he looked at me.

I could see his nervousness, and after he stared at me for a while, he suddenly smiled and said, "I heard that you look like your mother for a long time, but I didn't expect it to be so similar." ”

I could hear that my dad was happy.

Maybe it's because I look like my mother, my dad is in a very good mood that day, and he says almost anything I ask.

He told me a lot about my mother's childhood, and at the same time, he told me their stories.

I can hear that my father's heart is full of my mother, and I envy the relationship between them, but at the same time I am also a little unhappy.

If you like my mother so much, why don't you like me?

Thinking like this, I asked at the same time.

My father was obviously stunned, he probably didn't want to hit me and ask this, he stared at me for a long time, then shook his head and said, "I didn't expect that your mother's temperament is not like your aunt, but your temperament is like your aunt." After saying this, my father hesitated for a moment before continuing: "When your mother was about to go, she saw that I wanted to follow her. But she stopped me and asked me to raise you. ”

"Tengluo, in fact, it was your mother who insisted on giving birth to you at the beginning, if I had to choose, I might let the doctor ignore you and directly detoxify your mother first. But I know that if I do, even if your mother survives, she will hate me. Because she said she loved me, that's why she loved our children. ”

"Tengluo, Dad knows that he has ignored you for so many years, and it is not good for Dad to do so. If it weren't for the fact that you weren't born at the time, and your great-grandmother was still there, Dad might not have lived. ”

"Tengluo, my father has sent away many people in his life, father, wife, and grandmother. At first, my father thought that he was very strong, but one day, my father realized that my father was not strong, and my father was just an ordinary person. ”

"Tengluo, my father is an unqualified father, but your mother is a qualified mother. She loved you so much, and she was looking forward to your birth every day and wondering what you would look like. Now that you're leaving here, you may not be able to come back in the future, but Dad doesn't regret it. ”

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Dad said a lot of things, I didn't understand what he said at the time, I just felt that he had a sentence that was right, he was not a qualified father.

I stayed in the mountains for the night that day, and the next day I kowtowed to my mother and left here.

I also left the place where I grew up and went to the capital.

After arriving in the capital, I was named the county lord, the county lord of Fujiluo.

I was raised by my aunt and grandmother, and she taught me a lot, and she kept me as my own granddaughter until I was about to get married, when my second cousin gave birth to a little granddaughter.

From that day on, my aunt and grandmother had a new heart, and after I got married, I slowly understood what my father meant by what he said to me that day.

Maybe on the day my mother died, my father was already dead, and what was alive in the world was just a shell of him.

Whether it is your father or your child, they can only accompany you for a while, and what can really accompany you for a lifetime is your other half, your lover.

The moment I figured it out, I suddenly felt that my father was so pitiful.

At that moment, I suddenly wanted to go back and see him.

It's just that I didn't expect that the time I went back again would be a farewell for me and my father.

I knelt on the edge of my father's bed with a son and a daughter, trying for my father to look at me, to see his grandson and granddaughter, but my father's eyes were staring straight at the wisteria flower in his hand.

Just when I thought my father would not look at me again, he suddenly put down the wisteria flower in his hand and looked at me.

"Tengluo, your mother has been waiting for me for twenty years. Although I haven't been by your side for 20 years, I know everything about you. Dad is also afraid, afraid that if I get too close to you, you will suddenly walk in front of Dad one day. It's good now, you have a husband who loves you, and both children are complete, so that your father has no regrets, and you can go to your mother. ”

"Tengluo, your mother has been waiting for me for twenty years, and I don't want her to wait any longer. Wait any longer, I'm afraid that she will dislike me too old and won't wait for me any longer. ”

"Tengluo, my father is sorry for you in this life, and my father will repay you in the next life."

Hearing my father's words, I couldn't help it anymore, and asked him in confusion with a crying voice: "What about your next life, Dad?" ”

"Next life?" Dad paused for a moment, then looked at me seriously and said, "Of course, my father will be with your mother in the next life, and if I owe her in this life, my father will compensate your mother in the next life." ”

Listening to my father's serious speech, I couldn't hold back any longer, threw myself on him, and began to cry.

Later, I felt my dad patting my back, like when I was a kid and I couldn't sleep at night, gently patting my back one at a time.

Originally, I planned to take my husband and children to spend my father's twentieth birthday with me, but on this day, I sent my father away.

From this day on, my father and mother have left this world.

Later, I occasionally heard my aunt's most favored little granddaughter talk about it.

The wisteria flower that my mother likes, the flower language is born for love and died for love.

At that moment, my body froze, and then relaxed.

I think that after this life, my father and mother will definitely be happy together in the next life.

Just like my father muttered before he died, I hope that in the next life, you and I will be white-headed and love each other for a lifetime.

Yan Ye (Ye Yan) VS Xu Yanzhu

Wisteria flowers, born for love, died for love.

May in the next life, you and I will love each other for a lifetime.

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