During the winter vacation, Chen's mother took Chen Yue to run around and visit several old Chinese medicine doctors.

Because, since she came to her first menstrual period more than half a year ago, Chen Yue has never been here again.

Most of the words spoken by the old Chinese medicine doctor are similar, the pulse is weak, the qi and blood are not smooth, as if they have a serious illness. The girl is too stressed, isn't she? Relax, as parents, don't keep putting pressure on you.

"No, I don't have any pressure", Chen Yue denied for some reason, "My parents didn't put pressure on me, I eat and drink well every day, go to bed early and get up early, I don't stay up late, many students in our class still stay up late to brush up on questions......"

At this time, Chen Yue always thought that the so-called pressure was forced by her parents or teachers to study hard, staying up late and working overtime to study. And her parents have always only persuaded her to work hard and do her best, and they will not force her regularly and quantitatively.

So, where does her stress come from? No, her family has always been fine, they don't know anything, but they never persecute her, they really just persuade her...... No pressure.

So, it's so helpless that there's not even an excuse to fall.

Chen Yue didn't know that stress included everything and strength that made people feel depressed and depressed.

The so-called eating and drinking are good, but she even has a hard time swallowing.

The so-called waking up early and going to bed early, but she was always woken up by nightmares in the middle of the night, and the quality of sleep was not as good as that of a person who only slept for two hours.

There was no pressure, but she was invisibly overwhelmed by this father's love.

And she needs to live for others, which is her biggest pressure.

There is no doubt that if there is no mother who runs around with her and will shed tears for her, if there is no father who earns money to support her, if there are no people in the family who are good for her, she will definitely choose to be willing to fall, and it is better to die.

Because it's so tiring to live, I can't even be an ordinary person, eat and sleep like a normal person.

And these people who seem to support her to live, in fact, are her biggest pressure, her most irresistible pressure.

Willing to fall will make them sad a lot, how irresponsible it is to die like this.

When the time comes, everyone will say so.

However, she wanted to leave like this because she was irresponsible.

Maybe what others need is warmth, a spiritual pillar that supports him to live, but for Chen Yue, warmth will already stab her, this is pressure, all of it.

Because she can't feel the warmth anymore, and she can't forget the hurts.

Perhaps, she can forgive those who have hurt her, but she can't forgive herself, she can't forgive herself for being weak and incompetent. Could it be that if I was stronger at that time, I wouldn't have let myself get hurt and wouldn't have lived such a garbage life? So, it's all self-inflicted.

The so-called theory of victim's guilt, isn't that it, if she is not guilty, how can she be hurt?

Forget it, don't think about it anymore.

Anyway, as long as there is a shred of sanity left, it is impossible for her to unload her burden and die.

It's too painful to live, but she can't let others feel pain because of her.

For the sake of this responsibility, she did not dare to cry loudly, to go to the river to relax, to go into the kitchen, to go to the top floor, or to cling to the balcony...... Not daring to touch anything that would make her can't help but embrace death in the next second.

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