Chapter 59: The Heart Is Like Ashes
Everything after his death was too peaceful, as if it were the tranquility of the night before the storm.
She drank wine that day, for the first time in twenty-one years, and she had heard that wine could drown her sorrows, but the more she drank, the more painful it became, and the more painful it was, the more her tears could not be stopped, and her heart was like thousands of ants scratching, and it was very painful.
Gradually, she fell asleep. In her dream, she saw the young man outside Xiahou's Mansion and told her: If you want to go home, come in. I saw him go to the Qi Mansion with ten miles of red makeup and tell his father: I want to marry your daughter to be the wife of the prince. Seeing the candle night in the cave room, a glass of wine carries the happiness of her life, and listens to him: In this life, I will never fail you, and I will remember you forever.
And she seems to have given up everything, hoping only to stay by his side, even if it is her own dignity. But when she saw the man lying in a pool of blood, she wondered for a moment if she had really understood him for so many years, and that those hands that could only slash and kill enemies were stained with the blood of the people she cared about.
Vaguely, she seemed to feel someone holding her hand, a pair of warm hands that hit her heart, but when she saw the person clearly, she shook it off violently.
Xiahou Jingyuan's hand hung beside him, and he looked at the person in front of him blankly. He is not a perfect person, nor is he a person who has no desires and no desires to be at the mercy of others, although Xiao Chenfan has never betrayed them, but in his heart, on the first day he came here, from the eyes he revealed, he had already sentenced him to death. Torture him was only to punish him, and at the same time to test her......
She hadn't woken up yet, and the flush on her face hadn't dissipated, so she got out of bed and staggered to him, "This time, what do you want to say?" Obviously, you personally promised me not to kill him. ”
Xiahou Jingyuan looked at her crumbling body, wanted to help but didn't dare, when did he become so submissive, "There's nothing to say, I didn't want him to live." Letting him go has touched his bottom line, but he doesn't know what to do, and he doesn't take him seriously at all.
"Okay, good, you get out of here now!" She pointed out the door and stared at him viciously, seeing that he didn't move for a long time, she endured her breath and patiently pulled him to walk out of the door, but he easily broke away.
Qi Yunshu's heart seemed to be dripping blood, and she covered her face and cried, I just want you to explain, but I didn't think that in your heart, I also became a person who casually told two lies if you wanted to deceive.
Eleven years of relationship, I finally paid the wrong one.
But this time she didn't even have the courage to die, if she met Xiao Chenfan under Jiuquan, how would she tell him, saying that she would save his life, but in the end it was her own stupidity that hurt him.
Qi Yunshu hid her face and wiped away her tears, and walked out step by step. didn't think about it in the next second, but he picked him up, and her whole body fell into his arms as soon as her feet were empty, until her back was pressed against the cold bed board, and when she saw him quickly pressing over, she was shocked and hurriedly pushed him away, "Are you crazy?!" ”
Seeing his bloodshot eyes, she seemed to wake up all of a sudden, but she didn't take a few steps before her wrist was grabbed, and then his breath came to her face, straight to the wall, her whole body was encircled in the crook of her arm, and his silent accusation sounded in her ears: "You really care about him so much!" "For eleven years, I've never seen you drink for anyone......
A tear crossed her cheek, and it turned out that being misunderstood was like this, and it was misunderstood by the person she loved the most.
Qi Yunshu's hands hung weakly beside her, and her back was also in pain on the hard wall, she seemed to have never been so angry, biting her lip and saying word by word to the person in front of her: "Yes, I care about him, what?" Just if you are only allowed to spoil others, you are not allowed to like other people? She looked at him and flinched for a moment, but the next moment she regained her strength, "In your heart, I am just a tool for you to fight for power, but in his heart I am all." ”
He didn't give her another chance to speak, and kissed her on both petals, swallowing all her words. She turned her face away, dodging his kisses, her hands pushing wildly, and she had never resisted him as she did today.
Xiahou Jingyuan's hand against the wall pulled out one and clamped her hands, and the other hand wrapped around her waist, so that she couldn't move even if she wanted to turn her face away. He didn't give her a chance to speak, and swallowed her whine. Then she bit Xiahou Jingyuan hard, Xiahou Jingyuan relaxed for a while, and only felt that half of her face was hot and painful.
"Xiahou Jingyuan!" She yelled.
Xiahou Jingyuan withdrew his body, slowly wiped the blood stains from the corners of his mouth, and then smiled. He raised his eyes and took a deep look at the person in front of him who was staring at him viciously, and for no reason he carried her to the bed and bit her bozi, and for a while the two of them had a bloody taste in their mouths. She saw the confusion in his eyes, and resisted desperately with pain, "Xiahou Jingyuan! If you use a strong one today, I will hate you for the rest of my life! ”
He really stopped, she clearly felt the body pressing on her tremble, he put his hands at her sides, and said to her in a voice close to seductive: "Whatever you want, but I forgot to tell you, I didn't even have his bones left, and it must be impossible for you to see him in your dreams." Then, I didn't look at her expression, and I didn't pay attention to her resistance and warnings......
Qi Yunshu never knew how she became what she is now, and she even had to resist the joy of fish and water with the person she loved, but his words, her despair at that time, did clearly tell her that he was no longer the same as before. Perhaps, this is the real Xiahou Jingyuan.
She hadn't seen him for a month, maybe because she had locked herself in the house all day, or maybe he hadn't set foot in the Broken Pavilion for a month.
Later, Xiao Tang came to tell her that Xiahou Jingyuan decided to let her leave, and at that moment, she understood that she didn't want her in a dignified and unambiguous manner......
Maybe all this is fate, she can't blame others, let alone Xiao Chenfan, maybe she has to thank him for letting her see all this clearly. Eleven years of flounder love is just wishful thinking on his own.
She was sent to a pavilion, the owner of it is called Zeng Nian, I heard that he was a comrade-in-arms who accompanied him to fight the enemy back then, but he was not interested in fame and fortune, so he only wanted this pavilion, which was different from Xiahou Jingyuan.
Zeng Nian sighed when he saw her, and then set her up in a room. But I have to say that this place is remote enough, and she can't hear half of the noise, she just drinks tea, appreciates the snow, sometimes pounds medicine for Zeng Nian, and listens to him talk about Xiahou Jingyuan from time to time.
She didn't really want to hear it, but she couldn't refuse it openly, so he said, and she just listened to a few words.
At that time, she realized that what she said about losing her mother since she was a child was actually his father who kicked his mother out, just because his mother was from a poor background. So he, the only son of the Xiahou family, was passed on to his stepmother, who was his father's wife. And he has been very withdrawn since he was a child, he has not spoken to outsiders for a long time since his mother left, and his family once thought he had autism, and then somehow he suddenly began to interact with people, and began to practice martial arts hard, until he was later admitted to the martial arts champion and was crowned the king.
Zeng Nian looked at her unwavering face, and sighed helplessly: "I'm going out for a few days, and you must remember not to leave half a step while you stay in the pavilion." ”
She nodded, smiling wryly, where else could she go now besides here? Go home? When she went home, she told her father that she had been abandoned by her husband's family, and that he cared so much about her reputation, how could he tolerate her like this. Maybe Xiahou Jingyuan placed her here for this reason...... She seemed to be deceiving herself, and he was still reluctant to give up on herself.
She didn't think about it, Zeng Nian had been out for nearly two months, and she faintly felt uneasy. When she arrived at the gate of the pavilion, she found that there were many guards guarding the door, she had been here for so long, but she had never seen so many people in this pavilion, and she dared to come to see the door?
She walked over and wanted to go out, thinking that she hadn't seen the outside world for a long time, but she didn't expect to be stopped by those guards, she suddenly remembered that she had said that she would not be allowed to go out, and now she was blocking her with these people...... A very bad thought haunted him, and she felt that something must be going on outside.
"Miss Qi, Grandpa Zeng said that you can't go out."
"Why? There's a reason why I'm stuck here. ”
They looked at each other, as if she had embarrassed them, "Great-grandfather will come back today, and you will ask him personally when the time comes." ”
Qi Yunshu thought that it would be impossible to break in, but the more time passed, the more uneasy she became, and she had to take a look.
She wanted to climb the wall by the tree next to her, but found that her hands and feet were so clumsy, just climbed a little foot slipped, and the whole body hung on the branch, she really regretted it, this time it was really better to break out just now, this time it was okay, there was no strength in her hands, and the whole body fell, she was surprised that it didn't hurt as expected, but she heard a wail under her: "I said brother and sister, you can get up." ”
She hurriedly stood up, pulled Zeng Nian up on the ground, and apologized repeatedly.
Zeng Nian helped his waist, and just wanted to say something, he saw her show a painful expression, and an unexpected premonition came to his mind, and then saw her squatting down holding her stomach, so he was even more sure, and a horizontal hug carried her back to the room.
Qi Yunshu didn't know what was wrong, suddenly her stomach hurt unbearably, she grabbed Zeng Nian's sleeve tightly and asked, "What's wrong with me, why does my stomach hurt so much?" ”
A large bead of sweat appeared on Zeng Nian's face, comforting her: "You hold on, and you will know if you get through." "You and him must not have anything to do, otherwise Xiahou Jingyuan can kill me.
When she woke up again, she knew that she was more than three months pregnant, and she was calculating the days, it should have been the one that strengthened her, how ridiculous and ironic.