Chapter 223: You Have Given Me Joy
Long Qianye's world is falling apart in a drastic way.
The eyes were so hot that they almost burned a hole in my face.
"You have made me happy, but I didn't expect love to be in vain. After being born again, I am disappointed. ”
After saying this, Long Qianye left with red eyes and no return. Helpless, desperate, like a lost child, unable to return to the place where he can be safe.
What do you have to do to start all over again?
I froze in place, like a statue. My mind went blank.
The heart counts the seconds, and the blood flows backwards.
That pain, no matter how often it was, as long as it appeared once, could invade all my senses.
At that moment, all the shattered dreams about himself and him that woke up from the ice coffin were torn out of the rift in time and space.
Looking at his silent back, it was like returning to the past, and I was still a moth in his palm to the fire.
I especially remember in my dream, the man who kept saying that he loved me, said that he didn't want me, he didn't want me, he said he would give me away, he would give me away, and he said to leave...... He left, even if I begged him in a low voice, but he refused. I dreamed that I had cried and asked over and over again, Long Qianye, why did you do this to me? How can you, be so ruthless? He froze in place, just as I did, with nothing to say.
I kept wiping my tears, and the tears fell one by one, and when all the pictures overlapped together, Long Qianye's back began to blur.
I dreamed that I had lost myself and fallen for him, and it was he who pushed me into the abyss over and over again.
The scenes in my mind are all about how Long Qianye hurt himself at the beginning, countless violent and verbal ridicule, which made me miserable anytime and anywhere, holding hands with another beautiful woman in front of me, but now he likes and loves like a psychotic here, why the fuck did he go earlier?
Are men so cheap? When you grovel to him, he ignores you as air, and when you get tired of him and ignore him, he is like a dogskin plaster that you can't tear off! One of the reasons I strongly rejected his proximity was that.
In the blink of an eye, his mind was pulled back to this moment by the cold reality. When I came back to my senses, I suddenly realized that the pill he threw me when he was leaving had been crushed into powder by me.
I opened my fingers and watched in amazement as the powder I crushed leaked straight through my fingers and spilled onto the floor like fine sand.
I think, maybe people are nostalgic for the old love, he may be reluctant to let go of the cruel words.
But Long Qianye, I'm willing.
I hate to always dream of the cowardly self I used to be, the self at the mercy of others.
In the same way, I am 10,000 repulsive to think of the dripping past with Long Qianye.
Every time it passes, it can't be repeated. It's okay to forget. Whatever hurt and pain, he will suffer alone. I'm calm, and he's heartbroken.
I have given him joy.
Unexpectedly, love is in vain.
So be it.
I hope I don't think about anything.
Hopefully, he will give up his attachment to me.
Hope...... I jumped out of the cage and started over.
Hope...... He and I found a lover in the years that followed, and we never saw each other since. After a few years of separation, he set up a new wife, and I married someone else, and since then...... Earn your own living.
As I expected, it was late at night, and he didn't come to Yimeng Pavilion again, so he must have been really angry, right?
After waiting for a long time, he still did not come, and the boulder hanging in my heart finally fell to the ground. It's good not to come, I'm clean, I wish I could pay it back.
Let Chunmei and Autumn Leaves add water to my bath, I just want to take a bath and sleep quickly, and rest my mind to better think about how to break through the incident when I went to Moxi.
Just as I was finishing my bath and putting on my clothes to put out the candle, the window door creaked and —————— sounded.
I hurriedly walked by the window with a lantern, but when I raised my eyes, I saw a man in a dark robe sitting by the window, especially the terrifying butterfly-like mask on his face, which frightened me and shouted: "Ah------!! ”
It's time to go to Moxi!
He's coming...... But she's not the same person she used to be. He shook his head desperately, trying to deny everything he had in front of her.
The clothes she wore were all the stranded clothes of Xiao Han's junior brother with gold threads. Her tiara, too. Even......
This...... Is this really the woman he misses in the depths of his heart?
But...... But......
It's still that touching face, just the eyes...... It's very different from what she used to be. If she remembered, she wouldn't have looked at him like that. Countless thoughts passed through his brain, all of which were denied by him———— and the rest must be the truth, even if it is impossible.
Forget it, forget it, it's good to remember everything with the wind for so many years, it's because he is too greedy, his dear little apprentice, forget him, and definitely forget the man who is rumored to be dead in Beihai Dragon Palace, it's not a bad life.
So, when all the words came to his lips, they all became just one sentence, "What are you yelling for?" ”
I don't know why, but even though he was wearing a butterfly mask, I recognized him almost immediately. Because in response to such a scene at this time, it seems that it has appeared before. It's just that my memory is vague and only has a rough outline.
"You...... You were right when you went to Moxi, right? ”
He was visibly stunned, "How did you recognize me?" ”
"Intuition ......"
It's really intuitive, almost subconscious, because there are some places between his eyebrows that really make me ...... How to put it, it is familiarity, in short, I can now be 100% sure that I have been with him certainly, and absolutely, is acquainted, absolutely!
He had a lazy look, but the words he said were very strange, "It's true that I went to Moxi, but ...... You can't call me that. ”
He just admitted it. Only, why can't you call him that?
As if to see my doubts, he smiled.
Watching him move silently and quickly in front of me, looking down and approaching me, squinting makes people feel that he is having evil thoughts at this time, and at the moment when I want to be angry, he suddenly stood up straight, "You should respect me...... Master. ”
Master? What's the situation? Am I his apprentice?
"What do you mean?"
When he went to Moxi, he said in a trembling voice from his throat, "You really don't remember anything?" ”
He seemed to realize that the original ...... She really forgot. I forgot that she had sworn to herself
I looked up at him in a daze, "Yes, I'm sorry. What the...... I don't even remember, master. ”
In this situation, I have to believe in him.
Only he can pull me out of this predicament. So there is a reason for a once cheap master, how can I not use it.
Hearing me call him master at the end, he was stunned for a moment, understanding what had happened, his lips squirmed, and he lost all his strength at once, "Since you don't remember anything, aren't you afraid that I'm lying to you?" ”
"But you don't."
He pulled me into his arms, tears overflowed in the next second, and he said to me in a hoarse voice, "If you say it, you miss you very much...... Would you believe it? ”
My expression froze suddenly, "Letter." ”
If you don't believe it, you have to believe it......
I just don't know if it's my delusion, how does it feel like something is wrong when I hear this sentence? But I can't say exactly where.
Anyway, facing him is much more nervous than facing Long Qianye. Long Qianye, at least I have been with him for so long, and when I went to Moxi, for me now, it was a wordless book that made it difficult for me to understand for a while.
"What the hell is going on with you and Xiao Han?"
"I know Su Luohan because when I woke up from the ice coffin, the first thing I saw when I opened my eyes was him. He took good care of me every day, and he took care of me several times before because of palpitations and was about to suffocate, and he took care of all my food, clothing, shelter and transportation,...... He saved me, and I know him now. ”
The pace of my speech was flat, as if I was explaining it as if he was serious about it.
God knows that I am calm on the surface, but I am already turbulent on the inside.
This is the first time I've met someone I've ever known, except for Su Luohan. At this moment, all the loneliness in my heart seems to have been released after completing my sentence, and it turns out that I am not alone. I have a lot to say, I want to tell him the panic I felt when I woke up from the ice coffin, I want to tell him how good Su Luohan was to me, I want to tell him that Su Luohan is dead, I want to tell him about Long Qianye's bad deeds, I want to tell him everything that happened to me. But I was so emotional that I didn't know where to start with him.
I didn't have the strength to clench my fists, and I cried directly in front of Shang Moxi, but I didn't dare to lean on his shoulder and cry unscrupulously, so I could only bury my face in the palm of my hand and let myself choke.
There is nothing more terrible than clenching hope and turning to despair. My chances...... Is it finally here?
He was a little dazed and didn't know what to do with my emotions and said to me, "Don't cry. You'll remember it slowly, you've just been in the ice coffin for too long, so ...... But this doesn't seem to be permanent, and you'll remember it when all the cold in the ice coffin has completely melted into your body. ”
I don't know why, what I said when I went to Moxi suddenly reminded me of the pill that Long Qianye threw to me when he left today, could it be that he wanted me to ...... as soon as possible What do you remember?
Such thoughts are fleeting, and I have no time to care about them, except that I know, I only know, that the person who is standing in front of me now is the salvation of my deep predicament at this time.
I wish I could tell all the facts and the truth at once.
"That'...... Did you marry him out of gratitude or ......? ”
I cried bloodshot eyes, "No, I just want to be grateful to him, to him for taking care of me, and nothing else but this." ”
"It's fine. You've forgotten the past, but you're living a little more like yourself. ”
"I ...... I have one thing I have to tell you, you ......"