Tired.

I've never been tired.

My life seems to have been stormy.

I seem to have always revolved around others, and I haven't lived a day for myself. Those short-term psychological constructions, those unattainable goals, are all self-deception in order for me to escape from my own heart.

Sitting on the bed, the tears never broke, and when he closed his eyes, he was full of the old dragon king's hideous expression and the tender and sweet appearance of Long Qianye and the woman looking at each other.

I thought that my relationship with him was different from others, whether it was in the previous life or in this life, there should be a deep bond, and I didn't know that I was thinking too much until the appearance of that woman yesterday.

In my eyes, Long Qianye gives people a sense of calm even if he talks about love. It was rare to show the same dazzling smile he had yesterday at that woman. Now I know that he is not unsmiling. It's with me, basically nothing to talk about.

Between me and him, I have always tried to find a topic, and then I tried to attract his attention and attention so as not to be cold.

Clothes are not as good as new, people are not as good as the old, that's probably what it means, right?

During this period, the queen mother went out. I thought to myself that I was probably talking to Emperor He about something, or what to do, I was just so spineless, knowing that I would bother others like this, but I really had no place to stay except here.

They must have done a lot of good things in their previous lives, so God favored them. And I, maybe I did all the things that lacked virtue in my last life, so I would have lived so hard in this life.

Later, there was a pounding knock on the door, I thought it was the queen mother, but I didn't expect it to be the emperor who came in.

"Xiao Fan, he's coming for you."

"Who?"

As soon as I heard that someone was coming to me, I immediately thought of Long Qianye, but I didn't know because of the awkward pretense I saw with my own eyes today.

"You know."

"Didn't I say don't tell him I'm with you?"

The emperor took a moment to joke with me, "You yourself know that there is nowhere to go except to come to Qianqian, he didn't see you when he returned to the palace, he is not stupid, and he can guess that you are here in Qianqian, without us saying it." ”

"But I don't want to see him now."

"Why?"

"I said I don't want to see you, but I don't want to see you, are you deaf and can't hear!"

Because he was afraid that he would say the answer he didn't want to hear, for fear that he would say that he was tired of it and wanted to leave, so that he was annoyed by the emperor's question, and he was a little speechless for a while. By the time I came back to my senses, the words had already been spoken.

"Right...... I'm sorry, I didn't mean to, I just ......"

"No matter what happens between you, it is always necessary for the two of you to speak clearly, and what knots in your hearts can be untied. Blindly avoiding things can only exacerbate the deterioration of things. Xiaofan, you might as well try to calm down and think about the contradictions and problems between you. ”

"Okay, I got it."

The emperor spoke these words to me in a serious tone as if he had come from a past. Although I know that his intentions are good, after all, he and Long Qianye care very well, maybe he is an undercover agent sent by Long Qianye to spy on the enemy......

Whether there is a misunderstanding or not, I'm angry right now, and if I could calm down so easily, I wouldn't be able to stay here like a wooden man.

It's because I can't calm down that I want to calm down even more, but once Long Qianye appears, it will completely disrupt all my thoughts, and it will only make me more crazy and inexplicably angry.

The emperor probably felt that I didn't understand the true meaning of his words, so he sighed helplessly at me and left.

After a while, the emperor knocked on the door again and came in, telling me that Long Qianye had been here for a long time, and that he was waiting for me outside and had a lot to say to me.

I don't know how the emperor communicated with Long Qianye, and I don't know what they were talking about outside the door behind my back, in short, my first reaction was that I didn't want to see him.

It was a second ago, and I was afraid that as long as I saw him, I couldn't help but feel sad and soft-hearted. And then I asked him a lot of stupid questions. What I am most afraid of is that he doesn't say it on the surface, but in his heart he says it thousands of times, people's hearts are separated from their stomachs, and who knows whom.

The emperor saw my hesitation and resistance, so he said to me, "As soon as he returned to the palace this morning and found that you were not in the palace, he immediately went crazy looking for you, and you, even earlier in the morning, scarred and disheveled, appeared at the junction of the Beihai Dragon Palace and the outside world. ”

Scold! Deceitful!

If I hadn't seen that scene this morning, I wouldn't have hesitated to believe what the Emperor said. But I saw it!

After the emperor finished speaking, he turned around and went out again, and after a while, Long Qianye walked in haggard, standing in front of me in a daze, but he didn't dare to look at my face.

I was obviously very angry, but I couldn't see Long Qianye's depressed appearance, so I couldn't help but ask him, "What's wrong?" ”

See, that's how I am, I was angry with him a second ago, but when he actually stood in front of me, all my anger and unhappiness in my heart vanished.

It's just that he still hasn't looked up at me.

He looked tired when he first came in, what was going on?

Why does he look worse and more depressed than I am?

Obviously, I walked side by side with that woman this morning, and I was talking and laughing, but I was lifeless at this time, so why didn't I get angry in my heart?

I knew very well that he was walking side by side with that woman and said those sultry words, but I couldn't help but try to convince myself that the so-called tenderness and sweetness, those were all my imaginations, and I was still fighting fiercely in my heart, hoping that what I thought was wrong, but just looking at his current expression was enough to make me think about it. He, isn't he silently acquiescing to something?

The thought that I was almost eaten by the old dragon king last night, while he was happily with another woman, felt sour and astringent.

As the emperor said, things have to be solved after all, and perhaps, I am looking forward to Long Qianye, who will refute all my next interrogations of him, so as to prove that all this is really just my cranky thoughts, and the truth of the truth is not as crooked as I thought.

"How far is the place where that Genki Venerable lives from the Beihai Dragon Palace?"

"Not very far."

"That'...... Then how did you go to Genki Venerable to practice spells, and did it go well? ”

"Very good."

"That'...... So, does that Venerable Yuan Qi have a daughter? ”

"What do you mean?"

"It's not interesting, I'm just curious to ask."

He pondered for a moment before nodding to me, "Yes." ”

He's honest......!!

"And where were you when the sun came out this morning?"

Long Qianye grabbed his hair and said with a puzzled face, "Xiao Fan'er, what do you want to say?" ”

It was his non-answering rhetorical question that made the anger that I had just subsided begin to rekindle.

What exactly do I mean to say?

As soon as he came in, he didn't ask anything, didn't say anything, just drooped his face, lowered his head and asked him anything, so he could answer weakly, and he didn't say anything if he didn't ask. So what did he come to me in a hurry? Continue to accompany his delicate beauty, what kind of face are you throwing at me here?

I don't ask, he doesn't say, that's the distance.

I asked, but he didn't say, this is the estrangement.

"Long Qianye, you really disappointed me."

Hearing this, his whole person was stunned for a moment. I didn't seem to expect my tone to suddenly become so heavy. After thinking about it, he opened his mouth and said, "I was rushing to the Dragon Palace when the sun came out this morning. ”

Scold!

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I'll see what kind of flowers he can make!

"Did you come back alone?"

"Or how many do you think there are?"

Long Qianye didn't say yes, nor did he say no, but he didn't answer the rhetorical question again, which made me feel completely cold.

Is this a lack of heart?

"I rushed for a day's journey today, and I can't wait to go back to the Dragon Palace to see you, and I only found out after returning to the Dragon Palace......"

Long Qianye was only halfway through his words and I couldn't bear to interrupt him, his words were intermittent, and his tone was also very excited, I was not in the mood to guess what he had discovered, I only knew that he was lying!

I closed my eyes weakly, and the disappointment was like a cold sheet, covering me to death, unable to struggle, unable to escape. I'm afraid that if he continues, I can't help but lose my temper at him, "That's enough! Stop it. I don't want to hear it. One! Piece! Word! All! No! Think! Listen! ”

I just want to save face, my self-esteem is very heavy, I can lie to me, but don't take me as a fool, if a person doesn't even care about deceiving people, then I really don't know what to say.

The process of discouragement is the most difficult, the birth of various conjectures, the faint expectation in his heart, has been lowering his bottom line, in his eyes I am afraid it is just a superfluous move.

We were silent like this for a long time, and finally Long Qianye spoke, "Xiao Fan'er, did you ...... with my father last night?"

In a word, the question was cautious and stopped. So after returning to the palace, he heard a few female palace people outside my palace gate privately discussing the news that I fled in panic last night?

"Did he do something unforgivable to you in a madness? You tell me, you tell me if it's okay, as long as you say that even if I cut off blood relations with him, I will seek justice for you, that is, don't be silent to bear what you shouldn't have to bear alone, I will feel distressed. ”

God, I never expected him to say this, and threatened to uphold justice for me even if he severed the father-son relationship with the old dragon king, so that my grievances could have a vent point, and suddenly the flame that had just sprouted quickly rushed back.

He said he would be distressed.

I believed. I don't know why, I can't help but believe every word that comes out of his mouth.

I wiped away my tears and looked up at him, and was surprised to find that he had a face of guilt and pain, and crystal tears slowly slid down his face and fell to the ground, splashing layers of dust.

I panicked, and his tears dripped down my heart like hot lava, overshadowing my pain, for everything I had experienced was nothing compared to his tears.