Yan Shanshan opened her eyes and looked at the white surroundings, smelling the disinfectant water that made her nause.

She thought about what had happened that night, her pupils slowly dilated, and she felt chills all over her body, and she couldn't stop shivering after a chill.

What about people?

Why is there no one around!

She vaguely remembered that it was Yan Haoyu who saved her in the end, and she could be sure that she had been hearing Yan Haoyu talking to her since she fainted.

But why, why didn't you see her when you woke up?

Don't want her?

Yan Shanshan looked at the water cup on the bedside table, she picked up the cup and threw it to the ground.

There was a snap, and water and glass splashed on the ground.

Having long forgotten the pain in her body, she pulled off the infusion in her hand and bent down to pick up the glass shards on the ground to scratch her wrists, and at this moment......

"Shanshan, what are you going to do!"

Yan Haoyu pushed open the door of the bathroom and looked at Yan Shanshan with horror on his face.

He has been taking care of Yan Shanshan for a few days without sleep, and a blue beard has grown on his chin, he has no head or face in the past few days, and his clothes have not changed. In his body, he has long been unable to see that he was very sloppy in the past, and his wind is excellent, and now Yan Haoyu is very sloppy in addition to being sloppy.

Throw him under the overpass, and it is expected that someone will think that he is a homeless man.

"Shanshan!"

Yan Haoyu's heart rose to his throat, he just went to the bathroom, who would tell him how such a thing could happen, how could his Shanshan hold the glass shards in his hands?

"Shanshan, don't scare Uncle, put down the pieces in your hand, okay?"

Yan Haoyu's heart was about to jump out, but his tone was still very gentle, and gentleness could drip water.

He slowly took two steps forward, God knows how nervous he was now, he felt that he could have heart palpitations at any moment, and fainted on the ground because of the lack of oxygen to his brain.

But he knew that he couldn't faint.

If he faints, what will happen to his Shanshan?

"Don't come here!"

Yan Shanshan shouted loudly with emotion.

"Okay, okay, I won't go, I won't go."

Seeing Yan Shanshan go crazy and wave the fragments in his hand, Yan Haoyu's soul was about to be frightened.

He stopped and comforted Yan Shanshan, as long as Yan Shanshan didn't hurt herself, he could do whatever he wanted.

However, there is a limit to his sanity and his patience.

If Yan Shanshan still didn't put down the fragments in his hand and still wanted to hurt himself, Yan Haoyu really didn't know what extreme things he would do.

"Shanshan, don't hurt yourself, good, don't you listen to your uncle the most? Come on, shall we put the pieces down?? ”

Yan Haoyu coaxed Yan Shanshan like a child, but Yan Shanshan laughed, she smiled poignantly, and the tears of laughter flowed down.

Seeing Yan Shanshan like this, Yan Haoyu's heart really hurt, as if his heart was being slashed by someone one by one.

"Shanshan!!"

Yan Haoyu was almost pleading, how much did he hope that Yan Shanshan could beat him and scold him??

"You can hit me, you can scold me! But don't hurt yourself like this, okay? Shanshan: I know ......."

"Shut up, Yan Haoyu, shut up!"

Who wants to see him so heartbroken, where was he when she was sad?

Where was he when she was wronged?

Where was he when she was humiliated again and again in the bar? Where is it?

Even if he returned to Jiangcheng, he had never come to the imperial capital to look at her, what qualifications did he have to stand here and look at her affectionately and infatuatedly?

"Yan Haoyu, you really make me sick, you make me sick like Su Shaochen!"

For her, Yan Haoyu and Su Shaochen are the same people, they both want her body, her body is so good, do so many people want it?

"Shanshan!"

Yan Haoyu looked at Yan Shanshan with pain in his eyes.

He knew that Yan Shanshan's heart was uncomfortable, and he also knew that what Yan Shanshan was saying now was angry, but could she not tear his heart like this?

Even if you rip out his heart, you can not speak in such a tone that is cheap to yourself?

His heart hurts, he really hurts!

"Enough Yan Haoyu, don't you all want me? Now that you've got it, can you let me go! ”

She didn't explain whether she was really with Su Shaochen yesterday, but she said something like this that made Yan Haoyu misunderstood.

"Shanshan, how could I possibly let you go?"

Yan Haoyu smiled bitterly, he would never let go of Yan Shanshan for the rest of his life, he had never moved this thought, why did Yan Shanshan think like this?

"Huh!!" Yan Shanshan sneered, and she continued: "Haven't you already left me? ”

For her, leaving is equivalent to abandoning, no matter what his reason is, in short, he is gone, and he leaves without leaving a word.

"Yan Haoyu, do you know how I've spent the past three years?" Yan Shanshan thought for a while and said with a smirk: "How could you not know? I have so many of you around me, how could you not know it? ”

"Shanshan."

Yan Haoyu walked cautiously towards Yan Shanshan step by step.

"Don't come here!!"

Yan Shanshan slashed the shard to his wrist once, and this time the cut was a little heavy and actually scratched his wrist.

As she watched the red blood flow down her wrist, Yan Haoyu's brain went blank, and even her breathing was painful.

"Shanshan, what do you want me to do without hurting myself?"

Yan Haoyu was helpless, what did he have to do to stop these self-harming actions?

"Shanshan, I know, I'm sorry for you. I know you hate me, and I know you won't forgive me no matter what. Because I owe you a life, you can't tie the knot in you, so you think I'm a murderer, so you want me to die, don't you? ”

Yan Haoyu took a deep breath, and he slowly continued: "Is it that I am dead, is it that I gouge out my heart to you, so that you are willing to forgive me or not blame me?" ”

He got it...... He even knew it all!

Who told him?

"It's the second sister-in-law, you are so emotional, how can I not go home and ask the second sister-in-law? My heart didn't feel much better than you when I knew that you had an accident with our first child, and when I knew that you had depression because of that child, do you know how much I wanted to kill myself? ”

Yan Shanshan is all the motivation for him to live, if even Yan Shanshan doesn't want him anymore, then why is he still alive?

"Shanshan, damn it's me and not you!"

If it weren't for him, Yan Shanshan wouldn't have happened so much, if it weren't for him, Yan Shanshan would still be the little princess held in the palm of the Yan family's hand.

Everything is his fault, and he single-handedly contributed to everything today.

"Okay, can you put it down?"

Yan Haoyu smiled bitterly and coaxed Yan Shanshan, Yan Shanshan didn't say anything, just cried and shook his head.

He tried to take a few steps forward, but Yan Shanshan didn't resist loudly, but just looked at him like a thief with a pair of eyes.

He opened the drawer of the bedside table and pulled out a fruit knife from inside, which he held in his hand and held in his heart.

"Shanshan."

Yan Haoyu stabbed slowly into the heart, he felt that the tip of the knife had pierced into the skin, but he didn't feel the pain, maybe he was numb to the pain, right?

"As soon as you nod your head, I'll stab it right away. No matter what others say about me being cold-blooded and ruthless, I just want you to know...... I give you all my tender patience. If even you want to leave me, what am I going to do alive? ”

It's better to die!

Yan Shanshan wants to die, why doesn't he want to?

Seeing her tormenting himself like this, he should really have dealt with himself with his own hands.

"As I said, I won't give up on anyone who hurts you, including me. I wanted to repay you for the rest of my life and give you double all my love, but ...... You don't want it anymore! ”

"Yan Haoyu"

Seeing the blood dripping from the fruit knife, Yan Shanshan panicked.

What she knows, what she has always known, Yan Haoyu has always been a person who says the same.

"Shanshan, I don't want to force you, but I'm sorry today. Do you put down the glass, or do you want to see me die here! ”

Forgive him.

Just this time, he promised that this was definitely the first and last time he forced Yan Shanshan, and he would never do such a thing in the future.

Of course, the premise of this in the future is that he is still alive.

"Why are you pushing me!"

Why!

Why force her, and why save her, isn't it good to let her die?

"Because I love you, Shanshan, I love you, and this love has never stopped!"

And because of what?

What a silly girl.

Is there any other possibility than to love her?

"But I'm ...... Yan Haoyu, you know, right? See it! ”

He won, and Yan Shanshan gave up.

She threw away the pieces in her hand, smiled and unbuttoned her hospital gown one by one, and took off her blouse.

"See? Do you still want me like Yan Haoyu? Don't you feel sick when you hug me, kiss me, or even want to do it with me? ”

Yan Shanshan raised his head and looked at Yan Haoyu with cold eyes.

This body even she dislikes herself, and she will be nauseous and want to vomit as long as she thinks about the events of that night.

"Shanshan." Yan Haoyu really didn't expect her to say this and do this, he said: "Why do you say these words that belittle yourself? ”

"Huh!!" Yan Shanshan smiled, she was laughed at angrily, she said very meaninglessly: "This is the truth!" All of this was left by Su Shaochen, Yan Haoyu, do you still want this broken body? ”

"Yan Shanshan!"

Yan Haoyu was furious.

He was really angry, he roared and said, "Lao Tzu wants you, and I love Yan Shanshan." Do I just want you to live? I'll just have you alive! ”

He doesn't care, he doesn't care!

Do you care about what's there?

It's clearly happening!

"Yan Shanshan, you're stabbing me in the heart, don't you think you're very upset that this knife didn't stab you!"

With a slight force on his hand, the tip of the knife was completely gone.

"Ahh Yan Shanshan screamed in fright, and she said with tears on her face: "Don't! ”

She wanted to get out of bed, but the ground was full of glass shards, how could Yan Haoyu let her down?

"Don't move!"

Sure enough, Yan Shanshan didn't dare to move.

She cried and shook her head, she didn't want Yan Haoyu to die, she really didn't want to do it at all.

"Shanshan."

Yan Haoyu pulled out the fruit knife and threw it away, he was afraid that Yan Shanshan was picking up the knife, but he remembered that the doctor said that Yan Shanshan had suicidal tendencies.

He walked over to the bed, knelt on the ground, and let the shards of glass stab into his legs.

"I don't ask you to forgive me, but please give me a chance. Shanshan, I really regret it. Would you like to give me a chance to atone for my sins? ”

What is self-esteem?

Fuck off!

Can this thing allow him to chase Yan Shanshan back?

Because Yan Haoyu could see that Yan Shanshan had him in his heart, he came up with a bitter plan.

If he wants Yan Shanshan to soften his heart, he has to hate himself, and the more he hates, the better.

"Yan Haoyu!"

Yan Shanshan had tears in her eyes, she admitted that she had always had Yan Haoyu in her heart, and it had become a habit for her to love him, and she couldn't forget or quit.

But...... Now she is.

"Don't say it!" Yan Haoyu gently hugged her in his arms and said, "I don't care, how many times do you have to make me say it before I believe it?" ”