Chapter 134: Myself
When Kong Lingci entered the door, Wu Sanji was still whimpering and crying.
"Can crying solve this? You girl is also stubborn, what's wrong with choosing a concubine? That's it. Seeing this, Kong Lingci said preconceivedly.
Calmly let Wu Sanji go out, took care of Kong Lingci and sat down, but said with a smile: "Have you all heard about it?" ”
"Haven't you been anywhere else to ask such a thing? If it's a big fart, it will spread throughout the harem in an instant, not to mention that someone is looking for death for such a big thing. Kong Lingciwu poured himself a cup of tea and sneered.
"I called you here because I wanted you to do something for me, and I don't want to thank you, the grievances between the two of us can be resolved in that life." Calmly added a few jasmine flowers to her tea and said slowly.
Kong Lingci laughed: "Want me to help you make that dress?" This is not possible, although I can order clothes to sew, but I can't make such a formal dress, this kind of dress pays attention to details, one mistake, the crime of killing the head, you are not dead, how dare I die first? It's really hard to do. ”
Calmly shook his head: "I didn't say that you should be the queen mother's dress, I wanted you to help you make a hand-painted light gauze shirt."
"Hand-painted? What do you mean? Kong Lingci asked curiously.
Calmly pointed to the satin on the table: "This plain satin, making a coat is not monotonous, you have good painting skills, can you help you draw a pond lotus on it?" ”
Kong Lingci was stunned for a moment, looked at the satin, and nodded: "Although it is a bit difficult, I haven't painted this kind of satin before, and I can help you with this." ”
"And don't tell others about this, if others ask, you just pretend not to know, we haven't done anything today, just eat tea and chat here." Calmly grabbed a handful of melon seeds from the basket on the table and gave them to her.
Kong Lingci nodded, looked up at her, and lowered her voice: "Calm down, you have changed, I don't know what you want to do, you weren't like this before." ”
"People will change, I used to be stupid, I advise you to let go of hatred and live well, that's because things haven't happened to me yet, I feel empathy now, I can't bear it, I can't just be used by others like fools, I want to get it back, what I owe me, what I owe Sima Nan, I have to get it back." Said calmly and coldly.
Kong Lingci shrugged his shoulders: "Actually, if you think about it again, it may not be that someone else has taken advantage of you, it is he who is stupid, if he wants to leave, who can stop him, it is he who threw himself into the net, and he is willing to do so, who can save him." ”
"Lao Kong, what I do is my business, but what you do, that's your business, I do what I think is benevolent and righteous, because I think you are also a benevolent and righteous person.
But what happened in the end? But you have yin against me, and you really risked my life to buy fame, do you think I will be willing to bear it? Calmly asked.
Kong Lingci pursed his mouth: "Calm down, you think too much, how do you know that he is not willing to bear it?" If he wants to take you away and go back to Peach Blossom Town with you to live a leisurely life, why bother with this matter that shouldn't be his care?
Therefore, in his mind, Jiangshan Sheji is much more important than you, and he did not give up Jiangshan for the sake of beauty, he would rather sacrifice his life for the sake of his Xia family. ”
Calm flashed his eyes, sucked his nose hard, and was silent for a long time: "I don't want to care about this, even if it's not for him, I want to get justice for myself, I don't like others to use me like this and use me as a tool." ”
Kong Lingci laughed again: "Calm down, maybe it's not that you don't like it, but that you are such a competitive person, you have been suppressed for a long time, and now you have finally exploded, and finally begun to face the desire in your heart, and you began to exert your strength, not because you are at the mercy of others, but because you want to manipulate others."
We are born in this world, we are either at the mercy of others, or at the mercy of others, you are used as a tool by others, and you, why don't you treat others as tools?
How did Concubine Wan fall out of favor? How did Han Zhi die? Why didn't Zhao Yue have it? Who discovered the secret of Empress Dowager Liu? Who caused the death of the first emperor?
Think about it, even though you are not directly involved in these things, everything that happens has something to do with you in some way.
Calm down, don't think you're a good person, you're actually a careerist. As long as it is what you want to do, you must succeed, because you are too confident and always feel that you have the strength to succeed. ”
Calm and calm, his voice was so light: "Whether what you said is right or not, you have to admit that I do have strength." ”
Kong Lingci shrugged his shoulders and was speechless.
Calmly said that she is right, although she is in danger repeatedly, she can turn danger into relief, not only can she turn danger into disaster, but she has to rise step by step.
"Calm down, I'm not afraid of offending you, you can get to where you are today, not because you have strength, but because the most powerful men in the world like you!" Kong Lingci gritted his teeth and said.
Calmly sighed: "This is also a kind of strength, isn't it?" ”
Kong Lingci scoffed.
Calmly sighed: "I called you, either to quarrel with you, or to ask you to help me do something, do you do it or not?" ”
Kong Lingci took out a soft ruler from his arms and walked to the table to measure the satin.
calmly stuffed a thousand taels of silver tickets into her sleeve: "Take it, if you want to make it into Si Zhen, you have people, but money is also indispensable." ”
"I'm not polite to you, everyone just uses each other." Kong Lingci spoke coldly.
calmly sat down on the chair on the side, took a sip of tea, and spoke: "Lao Kong, do you still remember the maid Liang Qiushi next to Pei Shaofen?" ”
Kong Lingci nodded: "Of course I remember, since she entered the palace, this Qiu Shi has followed her, and the two of them are very good, not like master and servant, but like sisters." ”
"After Pei Shaofen committed suicide, all the palace maids and eunuch guards in the middle hall should be convicted, but I heard that a few of them escaped the death penalty because of their meritorious reporting or what, and were only expelled from the palace?" Calm down.
"Your information is very well-informed, Si Zhen Si has a female history and the deputy Si Shi of the Execution Division, I only got one or two such words from his mouth, you actually know all of them?" Kong Lingci took a breath of cold air.
"If I didn't know, I might be more comfortable than I am now." Calm down.
"Do you suspect that there is something wrong with these guys who have been expelled from the palace?" Kong Lingci said: "I thought that they were able to survive because of the way at home. ”
"For such a big thing, what kind of way can you survive? If there is really such a way in the family, do you still need to be a palace maid and eunuch? Calmly said.
Kong Lingci swallowed his saliva, his face frightened.
"Lao Kong, there is a devil living in each of us, if he is not released, he is a good person, but once he is released, he is a demon.
Pei Shaofen was not that kind of person originally, but since she entered the palace, her whole person has been full of anger, I thought she was injured by love, so she became so unreasonable.
But since I knew that after the assassination of the first emperor, several people escaped the death penalty, and I felt that this was a conspiracy at all, Pei Shaofen became like that, not because she wanted to be like that, but because someone instigated her to become like that. ”
Kong Lingci shivered and hugged his arms.
"Lao Kong, we don't know which of these people around us is a good person, which one is a bad person, which one is here to help us, and which one is here to harm us, if we are not strong enough and psychologically strong enough, it is easy to fall for them, listen to them, and do what they don't want to do according to their wishes." Calm down.
Kong Lingci burst into tears, her voice desperate: "Then for me, you and Empress Dowager Liu, which one is a good person and which one is a bad person?" ”
Calm and silent, it took a long time before he said in a dumb voice: "This, it is up to you to distinguish, I believe that at the moment before Shaofen died, she never felt that those who instigated her revenge were bad people and wanted to harm her." ”
Kong Lingci folded the cut satin, put his sleeves up, wiped away his tears, and walked outside.
Calmly sat down, drank the tea in the cup, and his eyes became deep and bottomless.
Nan You suddenly broke in, and his angry voice said: "Master, go and see that little hoof, I don't know what medicine to drink, fortunately I found it early, otherwise I would have drunk it, shouldn't I think about suicide?" ”
Calmly got up and followed her to the side hall, Wu Sanji was lying on the bed crying bitterly, a broken porcelain bowl was lying on the ground, and the soup and medicine flowed everywhere, and there was nowhere to put his feet.
Nan You drank the palace maid to come in and clean up, and only then did he help calm in, and calmly smelled the herb, and knew what kind of medicine it was.
"Nanyu, I forgot to bring the handkerchief, you go to my room and bring the handkerchief." Calmly find a reason to support the south.
Nanyou went out, and calmly said again: "You want to have an abortion?" ”
Wu Sanji cried silently.
Calmly sighed: "No one wants to die, not to mention that the lives of your younger brothers and sisters are still in the hands of others, if you don't do what he says, do you want your family to be dead?" ”
"I can't do such things, I really can't do it, even if I choose a concubine and see the emperor, I will show my flaws because of my weak heart, and dying early and late will be a death." Wu Sanji cried.
"Wrong, if you choose a concubine and die at that time, at least your younger brothers and sisters will be saved, not to mention, now that you are just pregnant, you don't know whether it is a man or a woman, why should you worry about it, thinking that your child will definitely become a prince, and it will be as people wish in the future?" Said calmly.
Wu Sanji raised his eyes and looked at her: "What do you mean, do you want me to be a concubine?" ”
"Why not? It is only right to rescue your brothers and sisters first, and you can't harm their lives because of you. As for the child in the womb, the decision is in your hands, you can keep him if you want to, if you don't want to keep it, isn't there a hundred ways not to want him? Why bother? ”
Calmly fiddling with his finger clips, he said lightly.
Wu Sanji stopped crying, stared at his calm face tightly, and only occasionally sobbed.
"You think clearly, who is the one who can really help you, if one day you really become a favorite concubine, do you think the biggest person in the world will be afraid of a commander of the inner guard? With him supporting you, what are you afraid of? Calmly said.