Li Chengcheng stayed in the study for a long time.

There was a dead silence in the study.

It wasn't until the phone suddenly exploded that the eerie dead silence was broken.

When Li Tingcheng heard the voice, Leng Buding shivered in fright, and then raised his head and touched his phone blankly.

But when she saw the caller ID, her eyes flashed with evasion, and even guilt.

I don't want to answer, I really don't want to answer Su Jinsheng's call.

Because she really didn't know how to face him.

For the first time, she found out that she was really a rotten person.

Just grabbed the phone like that, didn't answer, and didn't hang up until the call automatically hung up.

But in the next second, the call came again.

She bit her lip, very embarrassed, it seemed that if she didn't answer, he would keep beating.

After hesitating for a few seconds, he finally answered.

"Why don't you answer the phone?"

Before she could speak, Su Jinsheng's slightly cold voice came.

"The phone was just muted." When she opened her mouth, she was lying, and her tone was still so natural, and now she was simply comfortable lying.

Thankfully, he couldn't see her expression.

Otherwise, it will be a goof.

"Did you find it? It's on the table, not in the drawer, you don't have to rummage through the drawer, you know? He reminded faintly.

If she hadn't known what was in the drawer, she really couldn't hear the unmarked nervousness in his words, as if she was afraid that she would find out what was in the drawer.

Her eyes inadvertently glanced at a black folder that fell under the soft chair, she quickly picked it up and said, "I found it, I'll ask Lao Liu to send it to you immediately, my stomach hurts, so I won't go out." ”

"Well, you have a good rest, let Mother Lin boil you some brown sugar water again." His tone was very gentle, and Li Qingcheng's heart suddenly became more uncomfortable when she heard it, she avoided the general "um", and then hung up the phone quickly.

Thinking about it now, it's no wonder that Su Jinsheng was so extreme and bad to her before.

It turned out that everything was brought on by herself.

She now felt that he was not as fierce as he had always been to her, and in this way, she could feel a little better.

There were still many letters in the drawer, but she didn't have the courage to read them, for fear of seeing anything that would make her even more uncomfortable.

She carefully put back each letter she opened, then put it back in the drawer, locked the drawer, and put the key back in its original position, so that Su Jinsheng could not notice that she had touched the drawer.

I walked out of the study with a heavy heart, and fell to the bed weakly.

With her mind in a mess, she closed her eyes and let out a long sigh.

recalled a lot of things, thinking of the first time I saw Su Jinsheng, thinking of every time I was angry with him, fixing him every day, and embarrassing his mother, I instantly felt that my face was so disgusting.

Thinking about it, I fell asleep.

It's just that she didn't sleep well at all, and she felt like she was in a state of half-dreaming and half-awake all the time, until she felt that someone was touching her, so she slowly opened her eyes, and what caught her eye was Su Jinsheng's enlarged handsome face.

She shrunk her neck in shock, she dreamed of Su Jinsheng just now, but he appeared in front of her, could it be a dream within a dream?

Because she had just woken up, the whole person was a little blindfolded, and in order to find out if she was dreaming, she raised her hand sleepily and twisted Su Jinsheng's face fiercely.

The flesh on his face was twisted three hundred and sixty degrees by her.

His face instantly darkened, and he even snorted in pain.

The touch was so real, and then she could clearly feel the cold breath that belonged to him.

Sleepy was scared away instantly, she withdrew her hand in shock, and laughed dryly: "I'm sorry, I'm sleepy." ”

Her palms were sweaty and hot.

At this time, I realized that I was wrapped in a quilt.

No wonder she felt that someone was touching her just now, it turned out that Su Jinsheng was covering her with a quilt.

Su Jinsheng's white and pure face was pinched by her with red marks, which looked obvious, as if she had been beaten.

He looked like he had been wronged, and she felt guilty for a while, "Or, you pinch it back??" ”

Are you willing to pinch, pinch, are you willing to pinch?

Hahahaha.

"Ahh She wailed. "Pain, pain, pain!"

As soon as I thought about it, I felt a pain in my face

Su Jinsheng looked at her expressionlessly, pinching her face with a lot of strength, and pulling up the flesh on her face.

"You're really pinching! Wow I'm going! Li Qingcheng's eyes widened, staring at him resentfully, with an incredible and shocked face, this product can actually be handled! She's talking and playing!!

Su Jinsheng didn't say anything, just raised her eyebrows provocatively, looking in a good mood.

"Does your stomach still hurt?"

After a moment of silence, he asked.

Not to mention menstrual cramps, she forgot about them.

"It doesn't hurt anymore." She shook her head, her hands on her head, and looked at him.

The distance between them was very close, so close that she could feel his exhaled breath, she looked at him carefully, her eyes suddenly became ethereal, and then she couldn't help but say, "Su Jinsheng, I'm sorry." ”

"Huh?" She suddenly apologized to him, and he was confused.

Only then did she realize what she had said, she quickly lowered her head and diverted her gaze a little unnaturally, "I just think you are very hard and tired from work, right?" ”

"It's fine."

Her sentence made Su Jinsheng even more confused.

But I was so happy in my heart that Li Qingcheng actually cared about him? Is there any mistake?

"Would you like to give me a massage?" He drilled at the crack and said with a ruffian.

But Li Chengcheng still didn't change his face, and he didn't want to refuse directly: "Don't." ”

Su Jinsheng pursed her lips.

Li Chengcheng lay down, looked at him slightly, and asked tentatively, "Can you tell me who your first love is?" I was suddenly curious. ”

Su Jinsheng once thought that she was really not dreaming? Li Chengcheng cared about him for a while, and tried to understand his past for a while, was she stupid because of menstrual pain?

"You don't know each other." He desperately held back the excitement in his heart, pretending to be disdainful.

"And what kind of girl is she? Isn't it very, very, very beautiful? (Boasting hard.) ）

"Prettier than you anyway."

“。。。”

I can't talk anymore, this thing is really a topic terminator.

She covered her face, not wanting to see Su Jinsheng.

But then, Su Jinsheng said to herself lightly: "She is like a spoiled little princess, with a very bad temper, but I know that in fact, she is very soft and fragile in her heart, and she is a person who longs to be loved." ”

Li Chengcheng was covered with a quilt, his nose was sour, and he was taking a deep breath all the time.

"Then why don't you tell her you like her? Tell her that there is actually someone who loves her all the time. She tried to maintain a calm tone, restraining the ripples in her heart.

Then, Su Jinsheng was silent.

She listened to the movement outside through the quilt, as if Su Jinsheng, who had just spoken to her, was just her fantasy.

Just when she couldn't help but want to pull down the quilt to take a look at him, Su Jinsheng finally spoke, his voice was heavy and bitter, and he smiled helplessly and bitterly, "She doesn't like me." ”

His five words, mixed with grievances and astringency, really made her extremely uncomfortable, and her eyes were wet.

She knew that Su Jinsheng's first love was her.

Because she read the letter.

The letters in the drawer are the love letters he wrote, love letters that have never been sent.

She had probably only read six or seven, the earliest of which was in 2009, when she was 14 years old.

It turned out that he had been liking her since then.

*

September 28, 2009: Now it seems very popular to write love letters to confess to the person you like, I think it's very vulgar, and very naïve and stupid, but I just committed stupidity, just like I know that I shouldn't like you, but I like it so much that I can't help myself, because you are a swamp, the more I struggle, the deeper I sink, and when I am tired of struggling, when I come back to my senses, I have already fallen into it, powerless, helpless, and there is no way back.

The feeling of liking a person is not good at all.

Let me rejoice, let me be excellent.

I don't know, how can I like you? You're probably the person I hate the most.

It may be that you hid in the back garden and cried that day, and it was so ugly that I was ugly, so you are such an ugly person, don't keep it to harm others.

I want to learn from those romantic poets and write the most beautiful poems for you, and I want to learn from those love princes to prepare the earth-shattering surprise for you, but after thinking about it, what I want most is to stand in front of you and say to you, "Li Qingcheng, you don't like me, but don't hate me!" ”

I forgot how you don't like me.

So it's a love letter that can't be sent.

That's why I like you and it's only visible to me.

November 27, 2010: Every day in the hospital is so tormenting, every day there are eyes staring at me all the time, arguing, blaming, crying, laughing, constantly echoing in my ears, but I am still waiting, waiting until the day when I open my eyes and you are in front of me, every day is spent in waiting and disappointment, because I have not waited for you.

In the dead of night, I listened to my own heartbeat, and for a moment, I hated myself for being self-inflicted.

I've done so much that you don't even look at me, and tell yourself in anger that you won't come.

But the next day, I still had the backbone to continue looking forward to it.

It's been looping endlessly.

Maybe God has mercy on me, on the day I was discharged from the hospital, I saw you, but what I was waiting for was not "thank you", but "abandonment".

I'm wondering, are you still angry that I didn't care about you that day?

I want to explain to you that I didn't leave you behind, and if I could, I would just kill the person who hurt you, and never suffer again.

But in the face of your indifference and ruthlessness, I choose to be silent.

If it is your greatest wish to leave, then I will fulfill you.

December 25, 2010: Merry Christmas.

You're sure to have a great time without my Christmas.

January 1, 2011: Happy New Year.

January 15, 2011: The day before yesterday, it snowed heavily in New York, and when the snow melted, it was really cold, and the basement was as cold as an ice cellar.

February 3, 2011: Today is the Spring Festival, and I vaguely heard your cheerful laughter when I was talking to my mother on the phone.

I think this is the best New Year's gift I've ever received.

The thing I regret the most now is that I didn't like you sooner.

If I liked you in the first year of our life, I would definitely cherish the days when I could have a Chinese New Year's Eve dinner with you on Chinese New Year's Eve and watch you bounce and set off firecrackers.

But at that time, I didn't care.

If I could go back to the past, I would definitely beat myself up at that time, and I would dare not fall in love with you at first sight.