Chapter 75: Heart, Dullly Painful
"No matter what others think, you and I are the existence of 'unparalleled in the world'. The painting I painted in the past, I can show you, but not now. You're right, I do have too many secrets to carry on my own, but you'll learn them all one day. When the time comes, if you still insist on leaving, I will say the same as today, even if I am reluctant, I will never force you to stay. Because, I am always reluctant to hurt you, no matter what. ”
As if all his strength had been exhausted, Long Yucang sat on the chair, like an old man in the last years of the wind and candle, and raised his arm very slowly and stretched out his hand to Feng Huanling.
"The future is very long, and I can use the time of my life to let you know slowly. But this life is too short for us, but even if I am reincarnated again, I still have the confidence to find you again, just to continue to live and die with you. ”
Mo said that it was in front of outsiders, even in front of her in private, Long Yucang rarely said so many heart-wrenching words at one time.
Feng Huanling's vision suddenly blurred, as if the man in front of her, who was more and more upset, the more cold his face became, and he looked cold and inviolable, but in fact he was as blazing as fire, as if he would disappear in front of her eyes at any time, making her inexplicably flustered and faintly painful.
She was originally just an unpopular lady in the Prime Minister's Mansion, so why did a man like him spend so much effort?
Even if it was really because she had some resemblance to someone at first, but then he gave everything he did to indulge and dote, and sacrificed himself many times, is it really just because she resembles that woman?
The past, he said, is gone.
He said that he was reluctant to hurt her at any time, both physically and mentally.
He said that he would like to spend his life letting her understand slowly.
He said that even if he was reincarnated again, he still had to find her, just so that he could continue to live and die with her.
From gifting Yu Jue to sacrificing himself to block the sword for her, he has never been a person who only makes empty promises, more often than not, he is weightless to give everything he can for her, from the money outside his body to his own life.
Even though the portrait that Long Jingming said really exists, since he dares to admit it frankly, does it mean that he has regarded that woman as the past? Will he say this, does he really just want to spend the future with her? If he had already identified her, why should she be a woman who had already died, and cut off their feelings for each other, so that relatives and enemies could be happy?
"I ......"
Only when he opened his mouth did he find that his voice was hoarse and abnormal, Feng Huanling avoided his overly focused gaze, and did not meet his outstretched hand, but gently pinned a strand of broken hair on his cheek behind his ear.
"I'm a little messy and a little tired, can the prince let me be alone for a few days and think about it?"
"Okay."
Long Yucang's voice was not stiff and hoarse, "Then I'll move to the study to sleep for the time being, and I'll talk about it when you think clearly." ”
Since the wedding, except for being sent by the public and unable to return home, the two have never slept in separate rooms.
It was obviously her own request, but Feng Huanling's heart was inexplicably sour when she heard him agree, so she lowered her eyes and didn't say another word to him, and left the study silently.
In this way, in the huge study, only Long Yucang was left alone.
His gaze wandered straight into a certain part of the void, and he didn't move for a long time, until the sky was approaching dusk, and then he suddenly opened his mouth and called "Luo Xian".
Luo Xian, who had been guarding the door, immediately walked in with his head bowed, "What does the prince command?" ”
"There must be something to do around me, you don't have to make a noise, secretly observe who is the most suspicious." Long Yucang's gaze was still fixed on nothingness, and his voice was so ethereal that it seemed to come from another mysterious space, "This person must have been by my side for many years, and he may still be quite trusted and reused, if he can't find out, I'm afraid that something bad will happen in the future." ”
Luo Xian was slightly startled when he heard this, but he didn't ask much, but just answered "yes" firmly.
"Also, secretly arrange more people to protect the princess, and use all the top masters who can be used, so that she can't miss the slightest mistake."
Before waving back Luo Xian, Long Yucang confessed again, and then waved his hand and slowly closed his eyes.
Feng Huanling, who returned to the bedroom of Fengyi Pavilion, waved away all the palace people and lay down on the bed alone to take a nap, but between tossing and turning, his mind was full of what Long Yucang had just said.
The words of the mountain alliance and sea oaths that she once thought were just men's deception were said in his cold and lonely voice, but they were extremely real and moving.
He has never been a person who deceives women with sweet words, even though he has said many sweet words to her when the two are entangled, but none of the promises have ever been broken. Therefore, she believes that what he said today must also be sincere, and if she really wants to make this decision, she will say it.
But when she thought that he had really painted a portrait of a certain woman and that it had survived to this day, her heart couldn't help but be sour and sad, like a grumpy little beast breaking into her chest, which made her heart uncontrollable and difficult to live in peace.
"Princess, it's time for dinner, the prince is already waiting in the dining hall."
Su Yue's cautious voice sounded at the door of the inner and outer rooms, "The prince also said that if the princess doesn't want to come out for dinner, let the slaves and maids bring dinner." ”
Hmph, he doesn't want to face her again at this time, right?
Feng Huanling didn't notice that he had always been calm and self-controlled, and when he encountered something about Long Yucang, he would become a little unreasonable, like a young and willful little woman who only knew how to vent her petty temperament.
After pondering for a long time, Feng Huanling said, "I'm not hungry, I don't want to have dinner." And thou shalt say, I am married, and I am asleep. ”
Although Su Yue didn't know what was wrong between the prince and the princess, she had already seen some clues from the face on the face of the master who had just come back, and now she saw that it was really awkward.
But she already knew the master's temperament, but if she didn't want to say more, it would be useless for others to ask and persuade again, so Su Yue had no choice but to say "yes" and ran to talk back to the prince.
After about a cup of tea, Feng Huanling, who was still lying with his back to the door, vaguely heard someone open the door, but the footsteps were very light and not weak, so he knew that it was not Su Yue, and guessed that this time he might have ordered Yushu to come over and deliver dinner.
Thinking of Yushu's deep eyes every time she looked at Long Yucang, and the appearance of being fearless of death for him in the cave prison on the mountain, she immediately felt a little restless in her heart.
"Didn't I say I'm not hungry and want to rest early and not have dinner? Why are you still ......?"
When Feng Huanling twisted his eyebrows and got up to look back, he suddenly found that it was not Yushu who came in with the food box, and he was immediately dumbfounded.
"If the lady is still angry with me, even if she beats me and scolds me, why should she treat her body badly? Since you used lunch with them at Yi Xin Xuan, you must not have eaten well, if you don't use it for dinner, how can this body stand it? ”
Putting the food box on the small table next to the bed, Long Yucang sat on the edge of the bed, raising his hand as if to smooth out the wrinkles between her eyebrows, "Good, eat first, they are your favorite dishes on weekdays." If you just don't want to see me, I'll go out, but you have to eat dinner, do you understand? ”
Looking at the unattainable brilliance that seemed to have faded, just like an ordinary man coaxing his own angry little daughter-in-law like Long Yucang, Feng Huanling suddenly had some hot eyes, and felt more and more wronged.
"I don't want to eat it."
"Do you want your husband to feed you?"
"I'm not in the mood to mess with you right now, let me be quiet, okay?"
"What do you want to eat? Let's drink some hot first. ”
"I don't eat it!"
"The mushrooms used to make soup today are all freshly picked in the mountains."
“……”
Long Yucang scooped up a spoonful of soup and personally sent it to Feng Huanling's pursed lips, his eyes were as gentle as the clear moonlight on a summer night, but his movements were very persistent, as if if she would always refuse to drink, he would keep holding it like this.
And that's exactly what happened, Feng Huanling pursed his lips and looked at him like this, stubbornly persisted for nearly half an hour, and he maintained the action of dragging the soup cup with one hand and holding the spoon with the other, and it never changed.
"Lady, the soup is already cold, it seems that the husband has to change the method."
After all, it was Long Yucang who opened his mouth first, and the curvature of the corners of his lips was not only helpless, but also hidden a trace of cunning.
"What do you want to change ......?"
Feng Huanling watched in surprise as he drank the cold soup before he asked, and his lips were pasted, and it turned out to be the soup that had become slightly warm in his mouth, and all of it was delivered to her mouth when her cherry lips opened.
Lips and teeth are intertwined, lingering and compassionate.
Some people couldn't help blushing, and some people licked their lips unsatisfactorily.
"Dragon Yucang!"
It seems that the lady still prefers to use this kind of meal, and it happens that her husband also likes it very much. Next, what does the lady want to eat? The husband can chew it first before feeding it to the lady, so that the lady can save even the strength to chew. ”
"I don't like it! You, you...... Okay, can't I eat it? ”
"Okay, then I'll let them heat up the food first."
“……”
In the past, Feng Huanling always thought that Long Yucang was a typical humble gentleman, although he was a little indifferent and indifferent to others, he would never be rude for no reason, let alone maliciously calculate and murder, and he was even more tolerant to those who cared about him.
But now it seems that she really doesn't know him too well, it turns out that when he wants to achieve his goal, he can also use such "scoundrel" means to force people to comply!
So after dinner, Feng Huanling drove Long Yucang out in a huff, and slept until dawn on the entire mandarin duck couch, perhaps more precisely, just lying with his eyes closed until dawn.
I didn't want to get up early in the morning, but it was His Royal Highness King Cheyue who personally brought breakfast in, Feng Huanling hadn't forgotten the "bad method" he used to let himself eat obediently last night, so he didn't struggle in vain anymore, and used the meal honestly.
"I want to go to the back mountain by myself today." Feng Huanling sat in front of the makeup, but lowered his eyes and did not look at the snow-colored figure reflected in the bronze mirror.
"At least bring Yushu with you." Long Yucang's hand that was curling her hair only paused slightly, and then continued to wrap the wisps of green silk around her fingers.
Feng Huanling did not object, because she also knew that the mountain behind the summer palace was very dense, in addition to hiding many fierce beasts, there were also many traps built for hunting beasts.
Either they will be reduced to the meal of wild beasts, or they will fall into the trap of catching wild beasts.
Although the noon sun is not as blazing as noon and afternoon, it is also very bright and dazzling, and before entering the jungle, Yushu holds an umbrella for his master to shade the sun, until there is a shade overhead, and then puts the umbrella away.