My body gradually got better under the care of Lu Chengying, Zou Moyan never appeared again, and when I was fully recovered, Lu Chengying also began to be busy and often couldn't see anyone for three or two days.

I moved out of Zou Moyan's house, in other words, I didn't move out, I never went back.

I took half a month's vacation, and after the injury on my body healed a little, I started to work, and the unit is a New Year's group meeting every year, Lao Yu under the care of the leader, we all sent red envelopes, He Changan's money was saved, this month my performance salary is the first in the bank, the number is very objective.

I took out 400,000 yuan to Lu Chengying, and he accepted it directly without refusal.

My brother couldn't get the money, so I had to pay it back to him, because between me and Lu Chengying, I didn't want to owe him too much.

Lu Xiaoxiao also became silent, many times she looked at me and didn't say a word, I never saw Pan Yiming come to her again, all as if nothing had happened.

Lao Yu is very satisfied with the completion of the performance, and will praise me every time I have a meeting, Yu Xiaomai signed a formal employment contract, came to our department, and went in and out with Song Li every day, discussing fashion and caring about the trend, and others looked at him with his girlfriend.

When Lao Yu gave me any work, I became more and more lazy, as if I had seen through all this, and I didn't go to any entertainment, I went to work and got off work numbly every day, and went home to eat, my brother I never went, and he didn't get me back the money, which was what I expected, my sister-in-law was his pillow person, and my brother's ears were soft, after all, he did it first, so naturally there was no reason to ask for money.

After I returned my savings to Lu Chengying, I didn't have much left, and the matter of buying a house was delayed, and I couldn't help but think about the recent expenses when I thought that the house had changed to rent again.

"Jiajia, Fu Xuan said to invite the two of us to dinner in the evening." Lu Xiaoxiao shook her phone in front of me, she had lost a lot of weight recently, and she didn't have any look, "Let's go together after work." ”

Fu Xuan, Lu Xiaoxiao's blind date?

I politely refused: "I'm not going." ”

"I don't want to go either, but Fu Xuan asked me to thank him for his help in the last blind date, I thought about it for a long time, let's go together, as if it was to accompany me."

I didn't have anything to do when I went back in the evening, so I came down.

"Xiaoxiao." I asked him to come out with me, and we both went to the private room, "I've always wanted to ask you, why did you kill yourself?" ”

"I just want to forget about Pan Yiming and start over, I don't have the courage, so I chose this way." Lu Xiaoxiao looked at me and smiled hard, "But, what should I do?" Jiajia, I still can't forget him. ”

I can understand Lu Xiaoxiao's current mood very well, and I know that I can't do anything, so I can only comfort her: "Pan Yiming is serious about you, I can see that there may be some realistic resistance in front of you, it depends on how you face it." ”

"I know all of that." Lu Xiaoxiao looked at me at this time, her eyes were instantly filled with tears, sobbing and refusing to speak, in the face of the so-called love, Lu Xiaoxiao's innocence paid for Pan Yiming's hatred.

Lu Xiaoxiao suddenly came over and hugged me, her tears flowed wantonly on my shoulders, those words that couldn't be said were not so important at the moment, her grievances, her dissatisfaction, at this moment, silently vented out.

"Lu Xiaoxiao, if it was so easy to forget, you wouldn't love him so much."

"Pan Yiming is a good person, we have lost to reality, if he proposes to our family, we may still have a chance, but he refuses, I think, we will be here." Lu Xiaoxiao's eyes were filled with deep despair, "It's as if Zou Moyan hurt you so much, you still love him, otherwise you wouldn't have left him now." ”

Zou Moyan's appearance appeared in my mind, and I smiled bitterly: "The so-called love is just drinking arsenic with a smile." ”

Fu Xuan came to pick up the two of us in the evening, he should have just gotten off work, he looked very energetic in a suit and leather shoes, he drove to the restaurant of a five-star hotel nearby, Lu Xiaoxiao was still depressed, Fu Xuan asked her what she said, when it came to ordering, Lu Xiaoxiao said that she had no appetite, as long as a dessert, I said that it was good to eat anything, Fu Xuan took it upon himself to order according to his own taste.

"Can you two women who have been hurt by love not do this? I watched it all affect appetite. Lu Xiaoxiao, the whole world knows about your suicide, and you, He Jiaran, you and that Zou Moyan... It's really overwhelming! Fu Xuan cut the steak elegantly, his gaze kept wandering between me and Lu Xiaoxiao, "Didn't anyone tell you that if you are angry, it will be very easy to get old?" ”

Lu Xiaoxiao sighed leisurely: "You don't understand. ”

"Why don't I understand, it's not me who I said, you two look at the object you are looking for, Pan Yiming, I don't understand, that Zou Moyan is different, he is a dead pervert with a high IQ."

Fu Xuan looked like he was familiar with him, chatting with us in a variety of ramblings, Lu Xiaoxiao didn't pay attention to him, and I didn't know what to say, Fu Xuan quickly realized this problem, picked up a tissue and wiped his mouth, pursed his lips and left.

Lu Xiaoxiao ate dessert and looked at the person in front of her in a daze, "Jiajia, are we going to start a new life." ”

I nodded.

But how easy is a new life? If it was really that easy, why did Lu Xiaoxiao commit suicide, and I, why should I be so depressed?

Lu Xiaoxiao snapped his fingers, and the waiter immediately walked over, Lu Xiaoxiao ordered a few bottles of wine, and when I heard that year, I drank one bottle less than one bottle.

The waiter quickly prepared the red wine, and during the process of decanting, Lu Xiaoxiao kept looking at the crimson liquid in a daze, "Jiajia, do you know, why did I choose to take sleeping pills?" Because I think it hurts too much to cut my wrists, and this red color is really like blood. ”

Lu Xiaoxiao felt that death could solve everything, because he had never had such a hurdle in his peaceful life, and she also knew clearly that as long as she wanted something, Lu Chengying would definitely give it to her, this Pan Yiming was an accident, and it was also a pain that Lu Xiaoxiao would never reach.

But I'm different, I don't have the courage to die, Lu Xiaoxiao's incident completely sobered me up, in the painful torture that Zou Moyan gave me, death is the easiest way to get rid of it.

And what he gave me, in addition to the pain in my body, was also the fear in my heart.

Each of us tasted a glass of red wine back and forth, chatting at first, but then neither of us spoke, Lu Xiaoxiao had something in her heart, and I was not happy, and when Lu Chengying finally came to pick me up, we drank nearly ten bottles of red wine alone.

I wasn't drunk at all, I looked at Lu Chengying very soberly, after he put Lu Xiaoxiao in the car, he carefully tied my scarf, "Don't drink like this in the future, it hurts your body." ”

"Hmm." I lowered my head, "Lu Chengying, let's go sing, I want to sing now, especially the one I miss, is it okay?" ”

Lu Chengying didn't hesitate at all, and drove directly to Blu-ray, Lu Xiaoxiao was already asleep, Lu Chengying opened a room for her on top of Blu-ray to let her sleep, we sang in the private room downstairs, Lu Chengying called some meals over, I took the microphone, and sang the love songs that could be sung when I was sad.

Especially that one, which I miss, I sang it ten times.

In the end, I was hoarse and speechless, squatting on the ground and hugging my knees and crying, my head was full of the past between me and Zou Moyan, I was uncomfortable, and I couldn't tell the bitterness in my heart.

"Jiajia, you can start a new business at any time, as long as you want, I will always wait for you."

I looked up and met Lu Chengying's deep gaze, and the emotion in my heart gradually spread, but it was just a touch about companionship, and it had nothing to do with love.

"Lu Chengying, I can't consider your feelings after these things happen, whether it is fate or sin between me and Zou Moyan, you also see it in your eyes, you are different from him, he gave me the best love, and also gave me the deepest pain, and you are the only friend I can trust, I don't think that in the end, I will lose even you."

Lu Chengying snorted coldly, "Then don't call me again next time you want to die, it will affect me to pick up girls." ”

"Well, as long as you have a girlfriend, I will definitely keep my distance, fade out of your life, and not block you."

"Okay, okay, why are you talking so seriously?" Lu Chengying pulled me up, "Let's go, there is a room above, and I'm sleepy." ”

I let Lu Chengying pull me on the elevator, and when I got to the door of the room and was about to swipe my card to enter, the door next to me suddenly opened, and this time was about three o'clock in the morning, I instinctively looked up and saw Zou Moyan coming out of the room on the side.

Zou Moyan is still as radiant as before, with a decent suit and a delicate shirt, without any expression after seeing us, Lu Chengying took me into his arms, brushed the magnetic stripe, and the door in front of me opened.

As soon as I took a step, Zou Moyan grabbed my wrist violently, and his tone was cold, "He Jiaran, let's talk." ”

Lu Chengying grabbed my other hand at this time, I stopped, looked back at Zou Moyan, and the corners of my mouth rose slightly, "Moyan, I'm sleepy, I'm talking tomorrow, okay?" ”

Zou Moyan didn't seem to expect me to be so calm, the corners of his mouth twitched, and the words that came to his mouth didn't come out, and Lu Chengying took my hand and used a slight force, as if he wanted me to sober up.

Lu Chengying, do you know? I'm very sober and serious now.

"Not good." Zou Moyan grabbed my hand hard, my wrist hurt very much, just like every time he hurt me, tightly bound, the pain of scaly wounds all over my body. When he couldn't get my answer, Zou Moyan's eyes lowered, and his gaze was on my already reddened wrist: "Jiajia, my patience is limited. ”