When I was a child, I read a poem that I remember saying at the beginning, "It is as white as snow on the mountains, and as bright as the moon among the clouds." Wen Jun has two intentions, so he decided to break up. ”

At that time, I felt that women should be so free. If the person in your heart changes her mind and breaks up, she can save some face for herself, why be such an abandoned resentful woman, crying and grabbing the ground, crying, making trouble and hanging herself, losing her identity, how worthwhile it is.

Later, I learned that it was standing and talking without back pain. Because at that time, I had Azhao. I am convinced that Ah Zhao's heart for me, even if the heavens, the earth and the mountains and rivers are exhausted, he will never leave me. He will love me, love me, and cherish me all his life, but then he ......

The impression of Ah Zhao and I in my childhood has been very faint, because I was raised to the Song family since I was a child, and was taken care of by my aunt, and later my aunt went, and I depended on Ah Zhao for my life.

That's right, it's dependent on each other.

My useless parents have no value other than the life they gave me. They were even implicated in party struggles, and they were convicted of raiding their homes, which made me a crime for the rest of my life.

I was supposed to be the daughter of a noble family, but because of the sins of my parents, I could only send people under the fence and look up to others.

Since I was six years old, I have understood a truth, Ah Zhao is my protective umbrella, with him, even if the people of this country despise me in their hearts, they have to be good to me.

I know that it is difficult for me to be Ah Zhao's side room with such a humble background, but so what, I must work hard to make Ah Zhao like me and rely on me, forever, forever......

Since I was six years old, I have had to live a life of observing words and feelings, and how hard life is, who can understand, who can know?

When he was eight years old, the niece of the second lady's mother's family came to the house, and they all joked, saying that the girl was good-looking and wanted to match him with A Zhao.

Hmph, the daughter of a small official's family, just because she is very innocent, she can enter the Wei State Mansion, she doesn't think about it. I deliberately fooled her to tease my puppy Cher, and I knew that Cher was the most protective of food and would never let people snatch it. Sure enough, the little slut was bitten by Cher.

She deserves it, she deserves it!

But the second lady is such a sweet-mouthed and bitter-hearted person, and when she killed Xue'er, I felt very uncomfortable. But Xue'er can only die at my hands, and none of them deserve to dispose of it, because it is mine.

Ah Zhao saw me crying with Xue'er in his arms, and immediately went to the second lady to settle the account and make the decision for me, and since then he has ignored the little slut again.

At that time, I understood that as long as I was wronged, Ah Zhao would always protect me and feel sorry for me.

Later, he fell off the rockery, faked escape from the Wei Mansion and lost Lingzhu's life, so that Bizhu climbed onto Ah Zhao's bed and went to meet those women who had a marriage contract with Ah Zhao, all like this, he felt guilty and distressed, and he was getting better and better to me and cherishing more and more.

I realized that Ah Zhao liked me and cherished me. He won't let me be wronged in the slightest, and for this reason, he'd rather be the enemy of the world.

If he cherishes it so much, those who lose it will be lost, and there will always be something to gain.

But all this, until Shen Qingrong appeared, all changed.

From the Liang monthly report that helped Li Yuqing's slut speak, Ah Zhao gradually didn't care so much about my grievances. He has changed, he used to be the enemy of the world for me, but except for Shen Qingrong.

On the day of the wedding announcement, I cried all night. He swore an oath, saying that Shen Qingrong was a vase like everyone else in the courtyard, the difference was only that she placed it in the main courtyard.

But I vaguely felt that this was not the case.

Soon, Shen Qingrong married into the Wei Mansion.

On the night of the candles in the cave room, Ah Zhao stayed in the main room. I sat in front of the candle all night.

I don't believe that he is innocent with Shen Qingrong, but he swears by it, and I can only go into detail.

Sure enough, after Shen Qingrong married in, it was the beginning of all the troubles and bad luck.

She was jealous of me and hated to kick me out of the Song family immediately. She didn't think about it, she didn't even think about dying.

Originally, I was as guarded as a jade, but I had to be with Ah Zhao in advance. I've waited for so many years, and I haven't waited for the justifiable concubine ceremony, there used to be a dead old woman, and now with a little slut, it's even more difficult.

Simply, I don't care what the name is right, as long as Ah Zhao's heart is towards me, as long as I am in the Song family. Even if I don't have the name of a wife, I can still get the truth of a wife.

In order to conceive a child, I drank water and bowls and bowls of fetal pills.

I was finally, finally pregnant with Zhao's child.

But those two children ...... The twin boys were born in less than a month, and the doctor asserted that it was congenital deficiency and that it was difficult to live past a year old.

I worry every day that I will lose my child at any time, but what about Zhao?

He was messing with Shen Qingrong all day long, and the two of them were getting more and more wrong......

Since he will not live to be a year old, my son must be willing to go for his mother. I don't believe it, if Shen Qingrong killed our child, he would still be so close to Shen Qingrong?

But my child is gone, but it didn't hurt Shen Qingrong in the slightest.

He likes Shen Qingrong more than me.

No, he loves Shen Qingrong, even though he doesn't know it yet.

I tried my best to make Shen Qingrong angry, and tried my best to separate the feelings of the two of them, even though he knew that maybe Shen Qingrong killed our child, but he still chased after Zhili.

My two children are gone because of Shen Qingrong, but he can't see the blood and tears in my heart, but he chooses to chase Shen Qingrong away.

She Shen Qingrong can go, and I can go too.

But when I went to Cizhao Nunnery, Ah Zhao never came to me again, and in those days and nights in Cizhao Nunnery, I recognized the reality that he had never loved me.

Even, he was wrongfully imprisoned in Shuntianfu, and he was afraid that Shen Qingrong would misunderstand, so he refused to lie to those people and say that we were together.

How can his heart be so ruthless?

Even if he reconciled with Shen Qingrong later, I thought he had finally survived, but Ah Zhao, he went to Liaozhou.

How many years was that, how many years have passed? I was accompanied by the ancient Buddha of the green lantern in Cizhao Nunnery, and he didn't give me anything except silver.

Silver, ridiculous, who wants silver. He knows how I live like a year with the green lantern and listening to the sound of wooden fish, and how much blood and tears I shed every day.

The cold silver nugget, not at all warm, was ice, colder than the snow on a winter night, especially what he gave.

Three days after the Song family escaped from the capital, I learned that Ah Zhao had completely abandoned me.

If you can abandon me, then I can also abandon you.

When Shen Lingrong found me and told me that as long as she did her fine work and went to Liaozhou, stole the military information of the Liao army, and let the eldest princess win, she would be able to meet everything I wanted.

I know that if I want to be with Ah Zhao, I can only let the Liao army be defeated. As long as I have merit to the eldest princess, then I can step on Shen Qingrong.

This is the only chance for me to stand up on my own, help the eldest princess, gain her trust, and become an official in the court.

From now on, let the people of the Song family look at my face and live with my snort.

But it's so simple to steal the military information of the Liao army, I can't even stay in the military camp of the Liao army.

When I arrived at the Liao army barracks, he heard that the lady of the prince had come to see me, and the light of hope in his eyes was shattered little by little. The hope in my heart for him was also dashed little by little.

Ah Zhao, how could you do this to me, how could you ......

I was sent to the rear of the Liao army, and I was watched by Shen Runrong, Shen Shurong, Mrs. Fengguo and others all day long, and I didn't even have the opportunity to go out.

The poison, I felt it every night as if it were swimming through my body, and I was scared, I was terrified. But no one could help me, I had to help myself.

But Ah Zhao, he seems to have seen me through a long time ago.

I went to peek at those defense maps under the pretext of delivering food, and when I drew them, I wanted to secretly send them away, but I was stolen by others.

"Ah Qiu, you are really, incorrigible!" He looked at me with a bitter face, he had never looked at me like that.

"Ah Zhao, listen to me, I am also forced to do so, I, I was fed poison by Shen Qingrong, and I was poisoned."

"Qingrong won't let you be meticulous, you're lying."

It's ridiculous, until now he still believes in Shen Qingrong so deeply.

He said: "Qingrong has a clear distinction between right and wrong, and he will not help Princess Yongping do things at all, let alone calculate you." Because she knows very well whether I will believe you or not. If she really wants to help Princess Yongping wholeheartedly, she can come to me herself. It is clear that you colluded with others to frame Qingrong. ”

Ah Zhao, my Ah Zhao, is no longer mine.

"Yes, if it wasn't for your family who threw me in Cizhao Nunnery, and your Song family left me and left the capital, how could I be remembered now?"

"I didn't take you away because the emperor had murderous intentions towards our family and the King of Liao. We don't know what will happen in the future, so what's wrong with you continuing to live in Cizhao Nunnery and living your life in peace. ”

"Not good, not good!" I shouted hysterically, "Without you, I'm alone in Cizhao Nunnery, how can the Green Lantern Ancient Buddha be good?" Ah Zhao, you used to treat me like a jewel, but now, why have you changed your mind. We used to ......"

"Hand over the defense map, I will find a way to detoxify you, and I will save you. It was my sin that I misunderstood you, and if you don't get rid of your hatred, you can just kill me. Actually, I've never loved you. In my life, I only love Qingrong. ”

He pulled out the knife from his waist to hand it to me, and I looked at the cold and glistening blade, and a chill welled up from the soles of my feet, getting colder and colder, and more and more desperate.

Does he already hate me like this?

All that came to my eyes was me and him, the morning and twilight that had been with each other for many years, but he said that he had never loved me.

I fell into the clouds, and my body jerked forward, and I slammed directly into the cold knife. I could feel the cold blade pass through my warm body, and Zhao looked at me in shock and bewilderment, his eyes filled with chagrin and pain.

Zhao, I can't make you love me forever and ever, I can at least make you remember me forever and ever.

If life is only as first seen, what is the autumn wind and sad fan.

Waiting for idle changes but old people's hearts, but old people's hearts are changeable.

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