289. That year
Ling Mobai's words are very straightforward, not in the face of the cautious eyes of the "ex-husband" at the end of the quarter, but simply for the end of the season.
Why bother when she's working so hard?
Never waiting for the end of the season to bring orange juice over, Ling Mobai couldn't help but worry, it turned out that the little ostrich was afraid of bumping into Tang Jingqing again, so he simply hid on the balcony with few people.
"Why is it here alone?"
"Well, it's too noisy inside."
Ji Mo's eyes never glanced at Ling Mobai, because he couldn't hide his true emotions in front of him who knew him too well.
"Okay, let's talk about it, how does it feel to see Tang Jingqing after so long?" Ling Mobai patiently enlightened the end of the season.
"Hmmm......"
"Don't you want to say it?"
"No, I don't know what to say...... It's only been half a year, but it seems like it's been many years. Mo Bai, sometimes I really feel like I've forgotten everything about him. "Forget the painful memories and how humble it is to love someone.
"But your expression now doesn't seem to be like forgetting it." The sadness that emanated from his bones made him feel very distressed.
"I'm just, just very pitiful for myself, living so ridiculously for a man."
"Xiao Sue, it's not your fault."
It is a moment for a moth to fight a fire, but it hurts for a lifetime.
At the end of the season, which seemed to be healing little by little, Ling Mobai knew that there was always a huge wound in her heart, bleeding non-stop where they couldn't see, where did she still have the ability to love someone again!
Ling Mobai gently hugged Ji Mo from behind, there wasn't much he could do for her, just a little temporary comfort.
……
No matter how much pain there is, life must go on, at least at the end of the current season, with Ling Mobai's company, it seems that the unhappy memories are blurred a little bit.
If it goes well, maybe there will be more time, and what they experience together, the accumulation will slowly increase, so much so that one day they will come together naturally, but no matter how much if it can only be if.
"Mr. Ling, according to our professional opinion, you must be admitted to the hospital for treatment as soon as possible."
"If I move in, how much longer."
"At least for another six months." The doctor told Ling Mobai the facts quite objectively.
"Heh, living in the hospital and waiting for death, just to live for half a year more? Why is this alive? A sneer, his face full of helplessness, he had never been afraid of death but surrendered at this moment.
In the past, he was reluctant to establish a deep connection with the world, because he was afraid that one day his departure would make him reluctant; But despite his hard work, he still met the end of the season, which made him careless about how he went.
He won Tang Jingqing, but lost to fate, he really ...... I'm so unwilling!
……
Ling Mobai didn't plan to explain his illness to anyone, but went to see Yun Sheng.
He was worried that the end of the season, which was so dependent on him, would not be able to withstand such a blow, and if it came to the worst, only Yun Sheng would be able to handle her devastated emotions.
"What about abroad? Couldn't it be possible to find a better doctor? You can go abroad to have a look, just take Xiaomo to relax. ”
"My body knows very well that there have been waves of doctors since I was a child, and it is strange that I can live until now."
"Then don't leave your own problems to me to deal with, let me live! Bastard! Yun Sheng angrily took a document and threw it at Ling Mobai, and he dodged it.
So, he really doesn't like to get too close to any man at the end of the season, everyone talks about love, and he still has to leave in the end.
"When the time comes...... I'll leave you at the end of the season. ”
"What please? Why please? ”
At this moment, neither Yun Sheng nor Ling Mobai expected that the end of the season would appear. She wanted to have dinner with Yunsheng on a whim today, but she didn't expect to meet Ling Mobai here.
"Little Powder? How did it come? Come to my brother. ”
"What are you talking about? Why are you asking my brother? ”
The previous atmosphere was obviously solemn, but because of her appearance, Yun Sheng deliberately whitewashed the peace, and Ji Mo knew that they had something to hide from her.
"It's nothing, why come at this time? Have you eaten the meal? Ling Mobai smiled and changed the subject, he hadn't thought about letting her know so early.
"What the hell is going on? Don't lie to me, okay? At the end of the season, he looked at the two silent men with red eyes, and had a very bad premonition in his heart.
“……”
"Ling Mobai, why do you want to ask my brother to take care of me? Are you annoying me? "So you don't want to pay attention to me?
"Why do you think you're annoying, don't think nonsense."
"It must be, or you wouldn't have said that, and I knew you'd be annoyed by me in the end."
Seeing that the self-loathing in his heart at the end of the season was about to start again, Ling Mobai was very reluctant.
She has never done anything wrong, but it is cruel to her to have to face the consequences of being left behind again and again.
"No, Xiao Mo, don't think too much." Saying that, he looked at Yun Sheng, but at this time he began to pretend to be dead, and solved the problems he caused by himself.
With tears streaming down his face at the end of the season, Ling Mobai made a helpless but had to make a decision.
"Xiao Mo, there's one thing I think you should know, but you have to make sure you don't get too excited." He was only worried that if he told the truth, it would stimulate her depression.
"Okay, you say."
“……”
Ling Mobai didn't want to be like the male protagonist of a Korean drama, at this time he hid everything and then walked away, letting her constantly blame herself and self-loathing, did he do something wrong before he left her? It's definitely not for her good, it's going to make her more miserable.
"When I'm done, the tears are taken back for me."
"But I want to cry."
"Xiao Mo, my time is running out, I really don't want to spend all my remaining time dealing with your tears, why don't we do something more meaningful together."
If, at the end of his life, there was still no miracle; If he still wants to leave her with deep grief in the end, then the only thing he can do is to use this time to teach her to be strong.
Tell her that there is a shadow in front and a sun in the back.
……
So they packed their bags, and Ling Mobai took Ji Mo to all over the world, accompanied her to see the beautiful scenery, and let her go to the wider world.
They leave in the spring, and in the airport's departure hall, he draws the end of the season with various expressions on a drawing board.
"This is when Xiao Mo laughs, this is when Xiao Mo smiles, this is when Xiao Mo is shy."
Pages and pages were full of her happiness, refusing to leave her sad look.
In the summer of that year, they watched the great migration of animals on the savannah of Africa and felt the most primitive vitality; They used their cameras to capture the beauty of the Great Rift Valley.
"Xiao Mo, you see that the most beautiful scars in the world can give birth to new life, how can we lose the courage to move forward?"
In the autumn of that year, they traveled around the city's temples and shrines in Japan, asking for lots, and carving prayer plaques one after another.
There are childish "Ji Mo and Ling Mobai come here for a visit", and there are also full of pious "wish, health".
There are also places that can't be seen at the end of the season, and the unwilling man writes "May in the next life, I meet you before him".
Finally, in that winter, she accompanied him - the leaves returned to their roots.
"Mo Bai, the plane is about to land, put on the scarf first, Shenyang City is already very cold."
"There's still time, don't rush."
When leaving, he protected her all the way; When he came back, she took care of him. Looking at the petite body at the end of the season standing on tiptoe and flipping through the scarf on the luggage rack, Ling Mobai's heart felt warm.
This girl doesn't hurt in vain at all.
"Brother Yunsheng should have arrived at the airport, right? It's good that I haven't seen him in a long time. "Although there are video calls every day, meeting a real person is always different.
"His baby sister has been abstented by me for a year, and I don't think I have much good face when I see it."
"Don't talk nonsense, Brother Yunsheng is not such a person."
In fact, Ling Mobai was very grateful to Yun Sheng for his understanding, they were outside, and he did not give up caring about his condition, and looked for famous doctors for him, but unfortunately the results were not satisfactory.
"After getting off the plane, I will go directly to the hospital, you obediently follow Yunsheng back, do you hear?"
“……”
"Xiao Mo, speak. We agreed, remember? ”
Regarding this agreement, they had it for a long time, and coming back this time meant that he had to be hospitalized, and Ling Mobai didn't want to go to the hospital to see him at the end of the season.
"Can't you, do you cheat?" How can she watch him go as if nothing happened? Is there really nothing left to do for him?
"No, you can't! Xiao Mo, don't be fooled! He can spoil her in everything, but Ling Mobai insists on this.
Although the pain is the same for seeing and not seeing, there is still a difference between the degree of pain that the eyes see and hear most intuitively. He didn't work a miracle to relieve her pain at least a little.
"Xiaomo, we have so many albums, we have thousands of photos, and your handbook is full, remember?"
In the past year, he has made one promise after another to her, promising that he will do his best to live one more day, promising that he will call her every day even when he is in heaven, and that he will have no regrets when he leaves.
Therefore, the final picture is that he is surrounded by the Ling family and gets into the car, and she pounces into Yun Sheng's arms.
"Brother...... Brother ......"
I have never felt that Shenyang's winter is so cold, and I have never felt that life is so fragile, why can't she keep any people who are good to her? I can't keep my mother, I can't keep Yu Xia, and I can't keep him!
"Little Moon, welcome back." Yun Sheng hugged her tightly in his arms and held her head to prevent her from seeing Ling Mobai leave.
Although it was a pity, Yun Sheng could understand Ling Mobai's thoughts.
It's just that no one noticed that in the corner of the airport, there was another man who was also lonely, wearing sunglasses that could feel his sadness even if he couldn't see his expression.